Have Du ever wake up one Tag and wonder
why bother to wake up and start my Tag ??
why bother and go to school do homework etc etc..

well today i was thinking about that while i took i shower.

i heard my mother in the küche probably looking for something to eat. Yesterday she had a rough night she arrived really drunk and probably wasted...
My mother and i had never been Friends oder had any bond of mother and daughter, she was almost never Home because she was a stripper.. yes a stripper... but where i live kids don't bother me with that some of there mothers work with my
mom and others well visit her...
My dad leave us when my brother was 8 he sagte one Tag that he had to go buy some cigarettes and never came back
well he come back once only to leave again but this time with my mother pregnant with me

my chilhood was a happy one well i Liebe my brother but he was sick of living here so he took off withought saying good bye i was 12

i was herz broken but i learn that if Du don't let anyone in yoour herz Du will never be hurt just lonley and well lonly i could deal with

this was one of the days i thought

god my life is crappy

but i had always been an optimistic person oder at least i try to be
i get ready for school i grab some jean and a tank oben, nach oben this is what i usally wear.

i take a look at me in the mirror

i was pretty i guess i had big green eyes my face was slightly tan and i had brownish-dark hair my mother when she isn't working oder drunk she says that i could be beautiful if i smile...
i was slender now , when i was a kid i was chuby but my mom prefere to die before she had a chuby kid so she put me on diets and excercies and well now im really thin some say too much but i just don't eat that much and i do i lot of sports
like running i Liebe to run i fell free and i Liebe to dance tap although my shoes are too big

i walk to school it was really near

the school Tag pass really quick i wasn't miss beliebt but i like it that way i had 2 years Vor a best friend Samantha Weller but she Bewegen to texas so i still miss her

i walk back to my house like always and clean up then when to a cofeshop i work like always

i arrive Home and went to sleep my mom wasn't Home yet but she was always late

when i wake up my mom wast there i got i little worrid but not too much some days she didn't came back until the other night ...

then another Tag pass and nothing

so i decieded to skip school and go to the strip club to go look for her

when i arrive another stripper monica saw me
"Hey beautiful looking for Du mom?" monica ask sadly

i laugh
" no Mon i just decieded to Mitmachen the club" i sagte smling i like monica she was always joking with me but she didnt replay she look really down

"Monica is everything ok?" i ask worry

"no Jane your mother died because of an overdose" mon sagte quietly

"what? , why nobody told me sonner?" i ask

"they didn't want to be the ones to give Du the news i thought Du would already know i mean we call the children department to go and help you? she sagte

i was shook they call the place where the orphance go and they send them to foster homes i shiver

"no mon now they are going to get me " i whisper to her

"run to your house grab some clothes money and Du can stay with me" monica sagte

i was already running toward my house

i arrive to my house and grab the most essential thigs as fast i could

faster jane faster i thought

but i heard i knock at teh door i look thorugh my window and saw i lady looking like the foster Home type

not fast enough i thought

but then i got and idea jump down the back window

i run to the window and jump it was only one floor

but i land on my foot

"its not broken but Du twist it pretty badly Du can't run" i voice sagte i look up and saw i man elegant dress

damn i thought he was one of the social services

"come little lady" he look at some paper
"jane , jane tucker Du are 17 years old "

"yes" i whispered
it wasn't true i was 16 years old but my mom mess up something and my gift certificate sagte i had 1 Mehr Jahr
well it was helpfull now because i was out of the foster Home in just 1 Jahr

"you are luck Du are going to a very nice in
forks, washington your foster partens will be esme and carlilse"
the man sagte mater- factly
i just look straight ahead and got in the car i sigh