i have two feeling that are trap inside of me!the first one is that i wanted to have a child and i do love blowhole but the second one is that i don't want to mate with him cause im not really comfortable and it grosses me out but i wanted a baby but i just don't know what to do and i don't know if i can keep this up! its killing me alive! its stabbing me in the heart! what am i suppose to do?! i just....i just.....i just don't know! you don't know how it feels like in those two feelings! there murdering me! please you got to help me!