Niall Horan Fanfic Chapter 21: My herz Will Go On
I couldn’t breathe. He must be lying. This couldn’t be happening right? I was asleep and this was a nightmare.
“You’re kidding right? Like this is all some joke. Niall it’s not funny. Stop.” I said.
“Hazel, I’m so sorry.” He sagte his eyes were shining with tears.
“Niall?” I whispered and then I collapsed.
My body folded over and my head fell into Niall’s lap. Niall and I had been the only ones on the bus, but I had a feeling that everyone else knew.
I stayed like that for a while just sobbing into Niall. He rubbed my back and my head. I couldn’t believe my best friend had died. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
A little while later everyone else came on the bus. I was sitting with my head on my knees. I wasn’t crying anymore. It felt like I was living in a dead state. Nothing mattered. Harry came and sat Weiter to me.
“Hazel?” he sagte questioningly.
I couldn’t speak, but I turned my head to him face him in response.
“I know you’re sad. But we are all here for Du every step of the way. Not just Niall. Du can come to any of us, for anything, whenever.” He sagte putting his arm around me.
I buried my head in his neck and cried. He pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back. I was sobbing again. I started to hyperventilate. I couldn’t breathe. How could everything have gone so wrong so fast?
I somehow ended up in bett back at the hotel. I don’t know how oder when I got there, oder how oder when I was going to leave. How could I possibly perform, I couldn’t even breathe without thinking of Ally and how she should be here. Alive.
There was a knock at the door. I couldn’t even get up to see who it was. Half of my life was missing. The knock got louder. I was starting to get really annoyed.
“Hazel!” someone shouted from outside the door.
“GO AWAY!” I screamed.
The door opened and Niall walked in.
“Hazel, you’ve been in here for two weeks. When are Du going to get up?” he sagte sympathetically.
I’d been here for two weeks. I thought I’d been here only one day. I didn’t know where time was going. I honestly didn’t care.
“You can talk to me Du know.” Niall said. He looked sad.
“Yeah.” I sagte nodding my head.
“Ally,” he sagte pausing slightly to look up and see my reaction at the name, seeing I was okay he continued, “She, she would want Du to be happy. To get up every Tag and live your life. Live for her Hazel. Moping around and stopping your life won’t bring her back. She loved Du and would want Du to go on, with oder without her. You’ll be okay. She’s somewhere up there watching over you.”
“Niall?” I sagte half whispering.
“Yeah?” he answered.
“Will I ever be okay again?” I sagte beginning to cry.
“Of course Du will.” He sagte grabbing me and pulling me into a hug.
I buried my face in his arm. I cried softly. I could feel his herz beating. I could feel the warmth of his skin on mine, his breath on my head as he exhaled. I took in his smell. He was here. I needed him.
“Niall?” I sagte again.
“Yeah?” he answered again.
“Will I ever lose you?” I said.
“Hazel, no, just because Ally is gone doesn’t mean that everyone is going to die oder leave you.” He sagte Küssen my head.
“Niall, I Liebe you.” I said.
“I Liebe Du too.” He answered.
We stayed like that for a while. Him holding me and slowly rocking me back and forth.
“Did I already miss the wake and funeral?” I asked him.
“Yeah, they happened a few days ago. I bought a condolence card and signed your name on it and sent it to Ally’s family, since Du couldn’t go.” He said.
“I’m such a terrible friend.” I whispered.
“What? No don’t say that.” He said.
“I was too busy crying over me to go Home and attend her funeral. They’ll only bury her once. I can’t make up for that.” I sagte beginning to hyperventilate.
“No Hazel, no stop.” Niall sagte rubbing my back.
“I’ll never be able to face her family.” I said.
“They’ll understand Hazel, Du were grieving over her. Stop beating yourself up over this. Nothing is Du fault. Du are okay.” He said.
I kept crying. Nothing could make me feel better.
“We should probably pack your stuff.” Niall said.
“What? Why?” I asked.
“The tour, it’s over. We have a flight tomorrow.” He said.
“Am I going home?” I asked.
“Yes. You’re going back to Boston.” He said.
“Where are Du going?” I asked.
“Ireland.” He mumbled.
“I have to go back alone?” I asked, starting to panic.
“Hazel, you’ll be fine. Trust me. I called your parents and they’ll pick Du up from the airport. Everything will be okay. Du don’t have to do anything Du aren’t ready to do.” He said.
“Will Du come and visit me? I won’t be able to make it without you.” I sagte shaking my head.
“Of course, I’m going Home today, actually in a half an Stunde I have to leave, I’ll be there for two days. You’re leaving here tomorrow night. Von the time Du get Home I’ll be there. The boys, Eleanor, and Danielle are taking Du to the airport tomorrow. Everything will be okay.” He said.
“Okay.” I sagte calming down.
Niall packed my suitcases and then we sagte our goodbyes.
“I Liebe Du okay. Don’t forget that. I’m okay and so are you. I Liebe you.” He said.
“I Liebe Du too.” I sagte Küssen him.
He smiled at me and then walked away. I went and found Harry. He walked me into his room and brought my suitcases. I was going to stay with him until we had to leave. We spent all Tag and night sitting on the couch watching T.V.
“I’m starving. Do Du want anything?” he asked.
“No.” I said.
“Haze Du haven’t eaten in weeks, literally, wanna go out for ice cream?” he asked.
I was about to say no when I remembered what Niall sagte about Ally wanting me to live on. I wanted to live for her.
“Yeah.” I sagte mustering up the best smile I could.
“Cool.” Harry said.
We went out for ice cream and I had a really good time. I felt guilty that I was having fun while Ally was dead. I told Harry.
“Hazel, listen, it’s not your fault she died. Not having fun isn’t going to do anything for anyone. Du are still alive, and Du need to live.” He said.
I nodded. That made me fell a lot better.
The Weiter Tag Harry took me to the airport. He hugged me goodbye and I didn’t want him to let go.
“I’ll see Du soon, yeah?” he said.
“Yeah.” I answered.
I boarded the plane and took my seat. When we were up in the sky all I could think of was that Ally was up here too. I stared out the window the whole time until I got home. My parents greeted me at the airport. We drove Home in silence. When I got there I went straight to me room. There were pictures of me and Ally everywhere. I almost took them down, but then I realized I wanted them there seeing her made me feel close to her.
I checked my phone and got a missed text from Niall.
From Niall:
Hey babe :)Be ready Von 4 p.m. I Liebe Du babe :)xx wear black btw.
I got dressed and waited outside. A black limo pulled up to my house. Niall stepped out in a black suit. I Liebe him.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Just get in.” he said.
I got in the limo and we drove away. I was really confused.
I couldn’t breathe. He must be lying. This couldn’t be happening right? I was asleep and this was a nightmare.
“You’re kidding right? Like this is all some joke. Niall it’s not funny. Stop.” I said.
“Hazel, I’m so sorry.” He sagte his eyes were shining with tears.
“Niall?” I whispered and then I collapsed.
My body folded over and my head fell into Niall’s lap. Niall and I had been the only ones on the bus, but I had a feeling that everyone else knew.
I stayed like that for a while just sobbing into Niall. He rubbed my back and my head. I couldn’t believe my best friend had died. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
A little while later everyone else came on the bus. I was sitting with my head on my knees. I wasn’t crying anymore. It felt like I was living in a dead state. Nothing mattered. Harry came and sat Weiter to me.
“Hazel?” he sagte questioningly.
I couldn’t speak, but I turned my head to him face him in response.
“I know you’re sad. But we are all here for Du every step of the way. Not just Niall. Du can come to any of us, for anything, whenever.” He sagte putting his arm around me.
I buried my head in his neck and cried. He pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back. I was sobbing again. I started to hyperventilate. I couldn’t breathe. How could everything have gone so wrong so fast?
I somehow ended up in bett back at the hotel. I don’t know how oder when I got there, oder how oder when I was going to leave. How could I possibly perform, I couldn’t even breathe without thinking of Ally and how she should be here. Alive.
There was a knock at the door. I couldn’t even get up to see who it was. Half of my life was missing. The knock got louder. I was starting to get really annoyed.
“Hazel!” someone shouted from outside the door.
“GO AWAY!” I screamed.
The door opened and Niall walked in.
“Hazel, you’ve been in here for two weeks. When are Du going to get up?” he sagte sympathetically.
I’d been here for two weeks. I thought I’d been here only one day. I didn’t know where time was going. I honestly didn’t care.
“You can talk to me Du know.” Niall said. He looked sad.
“Yeah.” I sagte nodding my head.
“Ally,” he sagte pausing slightly to look up and see my reaction at the name, seeing I was okay he continued, “She, she would want Du to be happy. To get up every Tag and live your life. Live for her Hazel. Moping around and stopping your life won’t bring her back. She loved Du and would want Du to go on, with oder without her. You’ll be okay. She’s somewhere up there watching over you.”
“Niall?” I sagte half whispering.
“Yeah?” he answered.
“Will I ever be okay again?” I sagte beginning to cry.
“Of course Du will.” He sagte grabbing me and pulling me into a hug.
I buried my face in his arm. I cried softly. I could feel his herz beating. I could feel the warmth of his skin on mine, his breath on my head as he exhaled. I took in his smell. He was here. I needed him.
“Niall?” I sagte again.
“Yeah?” he answered again.
“Will I ever lose you?” I said.
“Hazel, no, just because Ally is gone doesn’t mean that everyone is going to die oder leave you.” He sagte Küssen my head.
“Niall, I Liebe you.” I said.
“I Liebe Du too.” He answered.
We stayed like that for a while. Him holding me and slowly rocking me back and forth.
“Did I already miss the wake and funeral?” I asked him.
“Yeah, they happened a few days ago. I bought a condolence card and signed your name on it and sent it to Ally’s family, since Du couldn’t go.” He said.
“I’m such a terrible friend.” I whispered.
“What? No don’t say that.” He said.
“I was too busy crying over me to go Home and attend her funeral. They’ll only bury her once. I can’t make up for that.” I sagte beginning to hyperventilate.
“No Hazel, no stop.” Niall sagte rubbing my back.
“I’ll never be able to face her family.” I said.
“They’ll understand Hazel, Du were grieving over her. Stop beating yourself up over this. Nothing is Du fault. Du are okay.” He said.
I kept crying. Nothing could make me feel better.
“We should probably pack your stuff.” Niall said.
“What? Why?” I asked.
“The tour, it’s over. We have a flight tomorrow.” He said.
“Am I going home?” I asked.
“Yes. You’re going back to Boston.” He said.
“Where are Du going?” I asked.
“Ireland.” He mumbled.
“I have to go back alone?” I asked, starting to panic.
“Hazel, you’ll be fine. Trust me. I called your parents and they’ll pick Du up from the airport. Everything will be okay. Du don’t have to do anything Du aren’t ready to do.” He said.
“Will Du come and visit me? I won’t be able to make it without you.” I sagte shaking my head.
“Of course, I’m going Home today, actually in a half an Stunde I have to leave, I’ll be there for two days. You’re leaving here tomorrow night. Von the time Du get Home I’ll be there. The boys, Eleanor, and Danielle are taking Du to the airport tomorrow. Everything will be okay.” He said.
“Okay.” I sagte calming down.
Niall packed my suitcases and then we sagte our goodbyes.
“I Liebe Du okay. Don’t forget that. I’m okay and so are you. I Liebe you.” He said.
“I Liebe Du too.” I sagte Küssen him.
He smiled at me and then walked away. I went and found Harry. He walked me into his room and brought my suitcases. I was going to stay with him until we had to leave. We spent all Tag and night sitting on the couch watching T.V.
“I’m starving. Do Du want anything?” he asked.
“No.” I said.
“Haze Du haven’t eaten in weeks, literally, wanna go out for ice cream?” he asked.
I was about to say no when I remembered what Niall sagte about Ally wanting me to live on. I wanted to live for her.
“Yeah.” I sagte mustering up the best smile I could.
“Cool.” Harry said.
We went out for ice cream and I had a really good time. I felt guilty that I was having fun while Ally was dead. I told Harry.
“Hazel, listen, it’s not your fault she died. Not having fun isn’t going to do anything for anyone. Du are still alive, and Du need to live.” He said.
I nodded. That made me fell a lot better.
The Weiter Tag Harry took me to the airport. He hugged me goodbye and I didn’t want him to let go.
“I’ll see Du soon, yeah?” he said.
“Yeah.” I answered.
I boarded the plane and took my seat. When we were up in the sky all I could think of was that Ally was up here too. I stared out the window the whole time until I got home. My parents greeted me at the airport. We drove Home in silence. When I got there I went straight to me room. There were pictures of me and Ally everywhere. I almost took them down, but then I realized I wanted them there seeing her made me feel close to her.
I checked my phone and got a missed text from Niall.
From Niall:
Hey babe :)Be ready Von 4 p.m. I Liebe Du babe :)xx wear black btw.
I got dressed and waited outside. A black limo pulled up to my house. Niall stepped out in a black suit. I Liebe him.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Just get in.” he said.
I got in the limo and we drove away. I was really confused.
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Madisions P.O.V
When we leave like a thousand Fans surround us. i scream at first but then alot of Fans hug me and miley. i look at niall and he laughs and continues signing. miley stares at harry and harry winks ans signs and takes Mehr pics. like 5 oder 6 hours later we head home. we head back Home and i carry alot of prizes i fall in the middle of the drive way cushioned Von my HUGE teddy bär niall won for me. niall carryes me and the teddy bär and we head back in. when we do i plop on the couch exausted with me and niall cuddled close.
_____________Tommorow___________________
When i get up everything is spining and i fall to the ground. when i wake up i wake up on the couch with a cool towel i meant cold towle over my head.
i get up but niall lays me back down. great a great Tag ends up to be one where i am sick.
When we leave like a thousand Fans surround us. i scream at first but then alot of Fans hug me and miley. i look at niall and he laughs and continues signing. miley stares at harry and harry winks ans signs and takes Mehr pics. like 5 oder 6 hours later we head home. we head back Home and i carry alot of prizes i fall in the middle of the drive way cushioned Von my HUGE teddy bär niall won for me. niall carryes me and the teddy bär and we head back in. when we do i plop on the couch exausted with me and niall cuddled close.
_____________Tommorow___________________
When i get up everything is spining and i fall to the ground. when i wake up i wake up on the couch with a cool towel i meant cold towle over my head.
i get up but niall lays me back down. great a great Tag ends up to be one where i am sick.