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Milly and Sora from my story "The Choice"
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My black rose
I am not nice but I feel.
I wonder but I don't know
what about.
I hear people talking but I never know what they say.
I see many thinks but never know what I'm looking at.
I want people to look to the past but not dwell on it.
I pretend to be something I'm not.
I fell things i cant see.
I touch and the smoothest things feel rough.
I worry that the Tag will never end.
I cry but tears never come.
I understand that not ever ones the same.
I say something i don't mean.
I dream but only see blackness.
I hope that someday someone we'll see through my shield I put up and see me.
I am not nice but i feel.
I am who I am!
I’m quiet on the outside
An all-wrecking, raging storm on the inside
I can’t speak,
Because I fear I can only produce inhuman cries
But my inner screams overwhelm any external sound
I don't blame Du for not seeing behind my hollow eyes
I don't blame Du for not hearing anything but silence
And I don't blame Du for not feeling my herz breaking in my chest, over and over again
But I wish Du would just hold me, and tell me I'll be okay.
That somehow, this all-consuming pain is not going to kill me.
That I will come out of this, stronger.
I wish I could distance myself from this destruction,
But I belong in the center of the hurricane
Because I need this pain, like I need oxygen
So, let my ravel in my agony,
Without it I am nothing
An all-wrecking, raging storm on the inside
I can’t speak,
Because I fear I can only produce inhuman cries
But my inner screams overwhelm any external sound
I don't blame Du for not seeing behind my hollow eyes
I don't blame Du for not hearing anything but silence
And I don't blame Du for not feeling my herz breaking in my chest, over and over again
But I wish Du would just hold me, and tell me I'll be okay.
That somehow, this all-consuming pain is not going to kill me.
That I will come out of this, stronger.
I wish I could distance myself from this destruction,
But I belong in the center of the hurricane
Because I need this pain, like I need oxygen
So, let my ravel in my agony,
Without it I am nothing
Chapter 1:The begaining
It started with the fighting,the endless fighting.It was mid Febuary 2001 when a couple with a small boy and another child on the way,split.They had been aurguing for hours on end and the husband,Jason,decided to leave and live with a friend for a while.While the wife,Sandra,cried and wept to no avail Jason left.Jason had contracted pnemonia and was placed in a hospital only days after his fight with Sandra.Sandra was also in the hospital but for a different reason,she had gegeben birth to a girl named Emily.And that was the begaining of Emily's life,a life full of sadness and missery that will come to a halt and be cut short Von the evil hands of fate and the mind.
It started with the fighting,the endless fighting.It was mid Febuary 2001 when a couple with a small boy and another child on the way,split.They had been aurguing for hours on end and the husband,Jason,decided to leave and live with a friend for a while.While the wife,Sandra,cried and wept to no avail Jason left.Jason had contracted pnemonia and was placed in a hospital only days after his fight with Sandra.Sandra was also in the hospital but for a different reason,she had gegeben birth to a girl named Emily.And that was the begaining of Emily's life,a life full of sadness and missery that will come to a halt and be cut short Von the evil hands of fate and the mind.
A silhouette standing alone,
Amongst a field of arid snow,
Waiting for something still unknown,
Not any further from the tombstone.
Awaiting a sign of life and hope,
Letting out a deep sigh,
“It’s not getting any easier to cope”
A whisper carried Von the wind.
The stars: my aspirations,
But city lights in the distance,
Taunted it from their foundations,
Caustic lights ending its existence.
An unattached shadow standing in solitude,
Amongst a field of caustic cold,
Tired of waiting, wanting to end,
I was everything untold.
Amongst a field of arid snow,
Waiting for something still unknown,
Not any further from the tombstone.
Awaiting a sign of life and hope,
Letting out a deep sigh,
“It’s not getting any easier to cope”
A whisper carried Von the wind.
The stars: my aspirations,
But city lights in the distance,
Taunted it from their foundations,
Caustic lights ending its existence.
An unattached shadow standing in solitude,
Amongst a field of caustic cold,
Tired of waiting, wanting to end,
I was everything untold.
tell me why do Du pretend
to let the agonizing memories
of your damaged past let Du
be the person that Du are
now,
please let your body,
mind, heart, soul,and
feelings escape the
tragic night-mares and
feel my: "etreindre de'
amour" around Du for-
ever.
my etreindre de' amour
is what i can offer to you,
through this time that you
will feel from me.
will Du feel my ever-
lasting touch of Liebe as
Du grieve over the Lost
memories and moments
that Du never gotten back.
let me take your
emphasized wounds
and give them to the
crumbling world that
never lets Du feel the
Liebe that Du need to
feel in your life now.
but Du look for my
casual-words that will
give Du strength that
Du need to go on with
your life.
your endless obession
for living this lie trying
to get past this pain, that
will forever remains inside
your soul now.
to let the agonizing memories
of your damaged past let Du
be the person that Du are
now,
please let your body,
mind, heart, soul,and
feelings escape the
tragic night-mares and
feel my: "etreindre de'
amour" around Du for-
ever.
my etreindre de' amour
is what i can offer to you,
through this time that you
will feel from me.
will Du feel my ever-
lasting touch of Liebe as
Du grieve over the Lost
memories and moments
that Du never gotten back.
let me take your
emphasized wounds
and give them to the
crumbling world that
never lets Du feel the
Liebe that Du need to
feel in your life now.
but Du look for my
casual-words that will
give Du strength that
Du need to go on with
your life.
your endless obession
for living this lie trying
to get past this pain, that
will forever remains inside
your soul now.
My anger came that day,
i tried to stay calm through
it all but my emotions just
gave way without me telling
them too.
She saw my frustration
taking shape and took
me in her loving arms
and told me it would be
okay.
I knew that my personal
emotions would show,that
i would pretend not to be
upset, and playing them
off as casual-words and not
the hurtful words as to what
they sounded to me.
I wanted to barricade
myself inside my head
and listen to those supposed
hurtful words that were being
sagte about me,
The thoughts that raced
through my mind were not
the words that i heard coming out
of his mouth that day,
All i can say to Du is
that i accused him of
being wrong and that
was unfair for me to do,
i tried to stay calm through
it all but my emotions just
gave way without me telling
them too.
She saw my frustration
taking shape and took
me in her loving arms
and told me it would be
okay.
I knew that my personal
emotions would show,that
i would pretend not to be
upset, and playing them
off as casual-words and not
the hurtful words as to what
they sounded to me.
I wanted to barricade
myself inside my head
and listen to those supposed
hurtful words that were being
sagte about me,
The thoughts that raced
through my mind were not
the words that i heard coming out
of his mouth that day,
All i can say to Du is
that i accused him of
being wrong and that
was unfair for me to do,
