"Aymen."
I finished my prayer and hopped into bed. I was just completely exhausted. So I wouldn't think about how much I missed Matt I kept myself busy. Though it was keeping me busy it mad me very tired. Matt had only been gone 3 days though. Meaning, four Mehr to dread. All I could do was sleep.
The Weiter morning wasn't as quite, oder as awful. I had gotten up way to early and figured I could watch some television. It was 4 in the morning; and just as I was falling asleep to Spongebob's voice a noise came from my computer went off. I skipped to the computer hoping it was Matthew. But, to my surprise...it wasn't. It was a person that wouldn't normally talk to me oder let alone want to chat with me.
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JesusFreakJazzy: Joey?
GangstaBoii3: Heloooo(:
JesusFreakJazzy: What do Du want? And why are Du chatting with me so early in the morning???
GangstaBoii3: Nuttn goshh. Just wanted to talk to you. I heard your boyfriend wasn't in town. Where he'd go? And Hey what are Du doing Friday? ;)
JesusFreakJazzy: Ummm lets see, not hanging out with you. And I highly doubt Du "heard" my bf was out of town. Mehr like you've been keeping tabs in me since last winter!.....Don't think I haven't seen Orlando oder Edward coincidentally at the mall every time I'm there with Matt.
GangstaBoii3: Heyy listen I ain't doin none of that mess. Du need to chill. Call me when Du come back to earth. Just cause we broke up it don't mean I don't still Liebe you. Whatever, I'm Out.
-GangstaBoii3 is offline-
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Now that was just a waste of my time. Talking to Joey is like talking a darn pet. Du get nowhere. At least I can get to bett and relax. But talking to Joey made me want to talk ti some of my old friends. It might be good. Get my mind off Matt for a little while.
I emailed a few of mt Friends to see if they wanted to hit a movie Friday night. Matt didn't come Home til that Sunday anyway.
Two days later.
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From:Matty[:
To:JazzyLovee
datum Sent 11/4/2010 4:41am
Jazmine.! I'm leaving. I just can't stay here anymore. My mother is driving me insane and so is my dad. He is constantly calling me to see when I'm coming Home and to be very careful around my mother. He says he doesn't want me to get too emotionally attached. Ugh. I hate him. and My mom isn't making it any better. I miss Home and I miss you. I'll be Home Von Friday night. Don't try to talk me out of it, I'm leaving. That's the end. I Liebe you! I'll be Home soon!(:
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From:JazzyLovee
To:Matty[:
datum sent 11/2/2010 5:05am
Matthew no! Du can't leave. You've waited so long..and now you're just...ugh....you just can't do this. I know for a fact that Du will regret this later. Please just trust me. I want Du to come home, trust me I do, but I'm willing to wait if that means quality time with your mom. I know how much you've missed her. Do Du really want to give up your chance at making amends? Listen I know your dad. He will get over it when he sees that, that this is what makes Du happy. The decision is yours but don't come rushing Home for me. I'll always be here for you. No need to rush I Liebe Du too!
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Matthew did not reply to me after that but he ended up texting me the Weiter night saying he was gonna stay but only til Saturday because he missed home. Matt seemed to very anxious the last couple of weeks though. Now that I notice it, he has seemed a little Mehr joyful than usual. And that wasn't good. It meant he had a surprise. And he knows I don't like surprises! But maybe (just hoping!!) I could be wrong.
The week did go Von pretty fast. Pretty boring actually. Matt finally came Home Saturday morning. Me in his arms felt Mehr like Home than anything. I loved having him back but I was still a little scared about what we could be soo excited for.??
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Hey harryPLover here, listen guys i was kinda tired and i know I usually write a lot and it's scripted better. But Thank Du for Lesen don't go away because the good parts are coming right around corner! Thank youu, Much Love. -jazzy(:
I finished my prayer and hopped into bed. I was just completely exhausted. So I wouldn't think about how much I missed Matt I kept myself busy. Though it was keeping me busy it mad me very tired. Matt had only been gone 3 days though. Meaning, four Mehr to dread. All I could do was sleep.
The Weiter morning wasn't as quite, oder as awful. I had gotten up way to early and figured I could watch some television. It was 4 in the morning; and just as I was falling asleep to Spongebob's voice a noise came from my computer went off. I skipped to the computer hoping it was Matthew. But, to my surprise...it wasn't. It was a person that wouldn't normally talk to me oder let alone want to chat with me.
*******
JesusFreakJazzy: Joey?
GangstaBoii3: Heloooo(:
JesusFreakJazzy: What do Du want? And why are Du chatting with me so early in the morning???
GangstaBoii3: Nuttn goshh. Just wanted to talk to you. I heard your boyfriend wasn't in town. Where he'd go? And Hey what are Du doing Friday? ;)
JesusFreakJazzy: Ummm lets see, not hanging out with you. And I highly doubt Du "heard" my bf was out of town. Mehr like you've been keeping tabs in me since last winter!.....Don't think I haven't seen Orlando oder Edward coincidentally at the mall every time I'm there with Matt.
GangstaBoii3: Heyy listen I ain't doin none of that mess. Du need to chill. Call me when Du come back to earth. Just cause we broke up it don't mean I don't still Liebe you. Whatever, I'm Out.
-GangstaBoii3 is offline-
*************
Now that was just a waste of my time. Talking to Joey is like talking a darn pet. Du get nowhere. At least I can get to bett and relax. But talking to Joey made me want to talk ti some of my old friends. It might be good. Get my mind off Matt for a little while.
I emailed a few of mt Friends to see if they wanted to hit a movie Friday night. Matt didn't come Home til that Sunday anyway.
Two days later.
********
From:Matty[:
To:JazzyLovee
datum Sent 11/4/2010 4:41am
Jazmine.! I'm leaving. I just can't stay here anymore. My mother is driving me insane and so is my dad. He is constantly calling me to see when I'm coming Home and to be very careful around my mother. He says he doesn't want me to get too emotionally attached. Ugh. I hate him. and My mom isn't making it any better. I miss Home and I miss you. I'll be Home Von Friday night. Don't try to talk me out of it, I'm leaving. That's the end. I Liebe you! I'll be Home soon!(:
*********
From:JazzyLovee
To:Matty[:
datum sent 11/2/2010 5:05am
Matthew no! Du can't leave. You've waited so long..and now you're just...ugh....you just can't do this. I know for a fact that Du will regret this later. Please just trust me. I want Du to come home, trust me I do, but I'm willing to wait if that means quality time with your mom. I know how much you've missed her. Do Du really want to give up your chance at making amends? Listen I know your dad. He will get over it when he sees that, that this is what makes Du happy. The decision is yours but don't come rushing Home for me. I'll always be here for you. No need to rush I Liebe Du too!
*********
Matthew did not reply to me after that but he ended up texting me the Weiter night saying he was gonna stay but only til Saturday because he missed home. Matt seemed to very anxious the last couple of weeks though. Now that I notice it, he has seemed a little Mehr joyful than usual. And that wasn't good. It meant he had a surprise. And he knows I don't like surprises! But maybe (just hoping!!) I could be wrong.
The week did go Von pretty fast. Pretty boring actually. Matt finally came Home Saturday morning. Me in his arms felt Mehr like Home than anything. I loved having him back but I was still a little scared about what we could be soo excited for.??
********************************
Hey harryPLover here, listen guys i was kinda tired and i know I usually write a lot and it's scripted better. But Thank Du for Lesen don't go away because the good parts are coming right around corner! Thank youu, Much Love. -jazzy(:
It’s the color of you
Du always wore it
It’s the color we shared
As we hid form them
With it we showed our true selves,
Though no one cared
Our orange book bags
Saved us from some pain
We protected each other
But it wasn’t enough
We were like two orange crayons
When everyone else was green
Then Du left me alone,
All I had was our color orange
As they hit me
I took peace in knowing
Du were in the orange field in the sky
Du always sagte was there.
The orange of the sun set
Is your smile
Even though Du left too soon
Orange…
Now it’s my color
My way of remembering you
Now I am the lone orange in the rainbow
Without Du here
I protect my own
Though I wish Du were here
Now orange is my color
A color for Du bravery
A color for my survival
orange will forever be our color
Even though death took Du away
Forever orange for you,
Sweet Cassidy.
Du always wore it
It’s the color we shared
As we hid form them
With it we showed our true selves,
Though no one cared
Our orange book bags
Saved us from some pain
We protected each other
But it wasn’t enough
We were like two orange crayons
When everyone else was green
Then Du left me alone,
All I had was our color orange
As they hit me
I took peace in knowing
Du were in the orange field in the sky
Du always sagte was there.
The orange of the sun set
Is your smile
Even though Du left too soon
Orange…
Now it’s my color
My way of remembering you
Now I am the lone orange in the rainbow
Without Du here
I protect my own
Though I wish Du were here
Now orange is my color
A color for Du bravery
A color for my survival
orange will forever be our color
Even though death took Du away
Forever orange for you,
Sweet Cassidy.
Your herz is sore, crippled up like paper.
Your voice is weak, barely passing Von you.
Your body is tired, let it lay for tonight.
Du are but you- a stranger to much.
No one cares to know you.
They do not wish to after all.
And all those times Du told everything-
It was a lie, I Liebe Du became a lie. A horrible lie not one can ever take back to you. How could they, breaking your very soul to the apple's wrinkled core? It shook and broke, just like that. Lonesome and ever so exhausted of even thinking it would be different this time around.
You're so hopeless. Du probably cannot Bewegen away from the pain, the desecration left in the path at the end. Then again, in the end it probably doesn't even matter, does it?
Once a joy, now a misery forever scared, alone.
Your voice is weak, barely passing Von you.
Your body is tired, let it lay for tonight.
Du are but you- a stranger to much.
No one cares to know you.
They do not wish to after all.
And all those times Du told everything-
It was a lie, I Liebe Du became a lie. A horrible lie not one can ever take back to you. How could they, breaking your very soul to the apple's wrinkled core? It shook and broke, just like that. Lonesome and ever so exhausted of even thinking it would be different this time around.
You're so hopeless. Du probably cannot Bewegen away from the pain, the desecration left in the path at the end. Then again, in the end it probably doesn't even matter, does it?
Once a joy, now a misery forever scared, alone.
I walk into
The Fields of Sorrow
Once again.
Why do I walk there
Almost everyday?
I stroll along the grasses
Thinking
Bearing a horrible pain.
I think of the world around me
And how much they have inspired me.
I start to cry once again.
All my teachers
All my friends,
They have always stood Von me,
When things went wrong.
I want a chance to repay them,
To Zeigen them that...
Their work was useful.
To Zeigen them that
I am truly thankful.
Why do I have to leave them then
Now?
No, now's not a good time.
But I know it was not intended
That I leave them now.
I want to Zeigen all those people
That they have been
The change of my life,
That they have made my life so much
Better,
That they were the flames
In the darkness.
The Fields of Sorrow
Once again.
Why do I walk there
Almost everyday?
I stroll along the grasses
Thinking
Bearing a horrible pain.
I think of the world around me
And how much they have inspired me.
I start to cry once again.
All my teachers
All my friends,
They have always stood Von me,
When things went wrong.
I want a chance to repay them,
To Zeigen them that...
Their work was useful.
To Zeigen them that
I am truly thankful.
Why do I have to leave them then
Now?
No, now's not a good time.
But I know it was not intended
That I leave them now.
I want to Zeigen all those people
That they have been
The change of my life,
That they have made my life so much
Better,
That they were the flames
In the darkness.
Some of Du may go through life,
Thinking something,
That is,
Who the hero is in your life.
I am one of those people.
But what I found is that
Even though many people are major influences
On my success in life
Such as my closest friends,
My teachers,
My parents,
Those serving for our country,
Others around me,
oder even my worst enemies.
This Jahr I have found that
The hero that I have
Is no one else
But me.
My hero is myself.
I inspire myself to do everything I do.
I am the light of my life.
Thinking something,
That is,
Who the hero is in your life.
I am one of those people.
But what I found is that
Even though many people are major influences
On my success in life
Such as my closest friends,
My teachers,
My parents,
Those serving for our country,
Others around me,
oder even my worst enemies.
This Jahr I have found that
The hero that I have
Is no one else
But me.
My hero is myself.
I inspire myself to do everything I do.
I am the light of my life.
