"Aymen."
I finished my prayer and hopped into bed. I was just completely exhausted. So I wouldn't think about how much I missed Matt I kept myself busy. Though it was keeping me busy it mad me very tired. Matt had only been gone 3 days though. Meaning, four Mehr to dread. All I could do was sleep.
The Weiter morning wasn't as quite, oder as awful. I had gotten up way to early and figured I could watch some television. It was 4 in the morning; and just as I was falling asleep to Spongebob's voice a noise came from my computer went off. I skipped to the computer hoping it was Matthew. But, to my surprise...it wasn't. It was a person that wouldn't normally talk to me oder let alone want to chat with me.
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JesusFreakJazzy: Joey?
GangstaBoii3: Heloooo(:
JesusFreakJazzy: What do Du want? And why are Du chatting with me so early in the morning???
GangstaBoii3: Nuttn goshh. Just wanted to talk to you. I heard your boyfriend wasn't in town. Where he'd go? And Hey what are Du doing Friday? ;)
JesusFreakJazzy: Ummm lets see, not hanging out with you. And I highly doubt Du "heard" my bf was out of town. Mehr like you've been keeping tabs in me since last winter!.....Don't think I haven't seen Orlando oder Edward coincidentally at the mall every time I'm there with Matt.
GangstaBoii3: Heyy listen I ain't doin none of that mess. Du need to chill. Call me when Du come back to earth. Just cause we broke up it don't mean I don't still Liebe you. Whatever, I'm Out.
-GangstaBoii3 is offline-
*************
Now that was just a waste of my time. Talking to Joey is like talking a darn pet. Du get nowhere. At least I can get to bett and relax. But talking to Joey made me want to talk ti some of my old friends. It might be good. Get my mind off Matt for a little while.
I emailed a few of mt Friends to see if they wanted to hit a movie Friday night. Matt didn't come Home til that Sunday anyway.
Two days later.
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From:Matty[:
To:JazzyLovee
datum Sent 11/4/2010 4:41am
Jazmine.! I'm leaving. I just can't stay here anymore. My mother is driving me insane and so is my dad. He is constantly calling me to see when I'm coming Home and to be very careful around my mother. He says he doesn't want me to get too emotionally attached. Ugh. I hate him. and My mom isn't making it any better. I miss Home and I miss you. I'll be Home Von Friday night. Don't try to talk me out of it, I'm leaving. That's the end. I Liebe you! I'll be Home soon!(:
*********
From:JazzyLovee
To:Matty[:
datum sent 11/2/2010 5:05am
Matthew no! Du can't leave. You've waited so long..and now you're just...ugh....you just can't do this. I know for a fact that Du will regret this later. Please just trust me. I want Du to come home, trust me I do, but I'm willing to wait if that means quality time with your mom. I know how much you've missed her. Do Du really want to give up your chance at making amends? Listen I know your dad. He will get over it when he sees that, that this is what makes Du happy. The decision is yours but don't come rushing Home for me. I'll always be here for you. No need to rush I Liebe Du too!
*********
Matthew did not reply to me after that but he ended up texting me the Weiter night saying he was gonna stay but only til Saturday because he missed home. Matt seemed to very anxious the last couple of weeks though. Now that I notice it, he has seemed a little Mehr joyful than usual. And that wasn't good. It meant he had a surprise. And he knows I don't like surprises! But maybe (just hoping!!) I could be wrong.
The week did go Von pretty fast. Pretty boring actually. Matt finally came Home Saturday morning. Me in his arms felt Mehr like Home than anything. I loved having him back but I was still a little scared about what we could be soo excited for.??
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Hey harryPLover here, listen guys i was kinda tired and i know I usually write a lot and it's scripted better. But Thank Du for Lesen don't go away because the good parts are coming right around corner! Thank youu, Much Love. -jazzy(:
I finished my prayer and hopped into bed. I was just completely exhausted. So I wouldn't think about how much I missed Matt I kept myself busy. Though it was keeping me busy it mad me very tired. Matt had only been gone 3 days though. Meaning, four Mehr to dread. All I could do was sleep.
The Weiter morning wasn't as quite, oder as awful. I had gotten up way to early and figured I could watch some television. It was 4 in the morning; and just as I was falling asleep to Spongebob's voice a noise came from my computer went off. I skipped to the computer hoping it was Matthew. But, to my surprise...it wasn't. It was a person that wouldn't normally talk to me oder let alone want to chat with me.
*******
JesusFreakJazzy: Joey?
GangstaBoii3: Heloooo(:
JesusFreakJazzy: What do Du want? And why are Du chatting with me so early in the morning???
GangstaBoii3: Nuttn goshh. Just wanted to talk to you. I heard your boyfriend wasn't in town. Where he'd go? And Hey what are Du doing Friday? ;)
JesusFreakJazzy: Ummm lets see, not hanging out with you. And I highly doubt Du "heard" my bf was out of town. Mehr like you've been keeping tabs in me since last winter!.....Don't think I haven't seen Orlando oder Edward coincidentally at the mall every time I'm there with Matt.
GangstaBoii3: Heyy listen I ain't doin none of that mess. Du need to chill. Call me when Du come back to earth. Just cause we broke up it don't mean I don't still Liebe you. Whatever, I'm Out.
-GangstaBoii3 is offline-
*************
Now that was just a waste of my time. Talking to Joey is like talking a darn pet. Du get nowhere. At least I can get to bett and relax. But talking to Joey made me want to talk ti some of my old friends. It might be good. Get my mind off Matt for a little while.
I emailed a few of mt Friends to see if they wanted to hit a movie Friday night. Matt didn't come Home til that Sunday anyway.
Two days later.
********
From:Matty[:
To:JazzyLovee
datum Sent 11/4/2010 4:41am
Jazmine.! I'm leaving. I just can't stay here anymore. My mother is driving me insane and so is my dad. He is constantly calling me to see when I'm coming Home and to be very careful around my mother. He says he doesn't want me to get too emotionally attached. Ugh. I hate him. and My mom isn't making it any better. I miss Home and I miss you. I'll be Home Von Friday night. Don't try to talk me out of it, I'm leaving. That's the end. I Liebe you! I'll be Home soon!(:
*********
From:JazzyLovee
To:Matty[:
datum sent 11/2/2010 5:05am
Matthew no! Du can't leave. You've waited so long..and now you're just...ugh....you just can't do this. I know for a fact that Du will regret this later. Please just trust me. I want Du to come home, trust me I do, but I'm willing to wait if that means quality time with your mom. I know how much you've missed her. Do Du really want to give up your chance at making amends? Listen I know your dad. He will get over it when he sees that, that this is what makes Du happy. The decision is yours but don't come rushing Home for me. I'll always be here for you. No need to rush I Liebe Du too!
*********
Matthew did not reply to me after that but he ended up texting me the Weiter night saying he was gonna stay but only til Saturday because he missed home. Matt seemed to very anxious the last couple of weeks though. Now that I notice it, he has seemed a little Mehr joyful than usual. And that wasn't good. It meant he had a surprise. And he knows I don't like surprises! But maybe (just hoping!!) I could be wrong.
The week did go Von pretty fast. Pretty boring actually. Matt finally came Home Saturday morning. Me in his arms felt Mehr like Home than anything. I loved having him back but I was still a little scared about what we could be soo excited for.??
********************************
Hey harryPLover here, listen guys i was kinda tired and i know I usually write a lot and it's scripted better. But Thank Du for Lesen don't go away because the good parts are coming right around corner! Thank youu, Much Love. -jazzy(:
Du seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.
Bad luck follows Du
like a hook,
won't let Du go,
won't leave Du alone.
Du smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that Du hope for.
Devil is calling your name,
leaves Du not,
Du don't see the Angel – Jäger der Finsternis on
your shoulder,
trying to give Du a strength.
Du long for life
that Du don't know of,
Du seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.
January 16, 1815
Journal,
We have gotten fortunate, Journal! Nastea has found coats in the broken down train. She sits Von Sasha now, covering her in them. And she took one for herself as well. I can see color returning to Sasha’s cheeks. Nastea coughs harshly, shivering nervously. Her toes are turning blue, and one has already fallen off. We slept in the train last night, getting as much warmth as we could. We have to start to Bewegen tomorrow, find shelter. The berries Nastea fed Sasha seem to have made Sasha a lot sicker than she was before. She’s coughing up blood now. The snow around her is stained with red and pink. I attempted to make a feuer earlier, and let me tell Du journal, it didn’t work out. It’s much to cold to start flames. For every time the feuer ignites, it extinguishes, the harsh winds blowing it out. I’m losing my teeth, journal. Nastea can’t talk anymore, and her and Sasha’s hair is mostly gone. Journal, what’s happening to us?
Bye Journal,
Nadia
Journal,
We have gotten fortunate, Journal! Nastea has found coats in the broken down train. She sits Von Sasha now, covering her in them. And she took one for herself as well. I can see color returning to Sasha’s cheeks. Nastea coughs harshly, shivering nervously. Her toes are turning blue, and one has already fallen off. We slept in the train last night, getting as much warmth as we could. We have to start to Bewegen tomorrow, find shelter. The berries Nastea fed Sasha seem to have made Sasha a lot sicker than she was before. She’s coughing up blood now. The snow around her is stained with red and pink. I attempted to make a feuer earlier, and let me tell Du journal, it didn’t work out. It’s much to cold to start flames. For every time the feuer ignites, it extinguishes, the harsh winds blowing it out. I’m losing my teeth, journal. Nastea can’t talk anymore, and her and Sasha’s hair is mostly gone. Journal, what’s happening to us?
Bye Journal,
Nadia