pretty much a Zufällig New Moon one shot as the Titel suggests. set after Bella becomes Friends with Jake but before the bikes are finished.
the italic bits are lines from a play done at the 2009 Tony awards about a depressed woman. i thought it was appropriate. if they sound farmiliar, it's because they have been used on this site previously in a House fanfic.
hope Du enjoy, feel free to Kommentar :)
Another day. Without thinking I look towards my window, always unlocked but never opened.
I curled tighter into myself. This wasn’t the way to start my day.
Do Du wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head?
I force myself up. It was a school Tag so I couldn’t lie in bett for long, even if I would rather stay there for the rest of my life.
I Bewegen quickly, going through the repetitive motions of getting ready. Shower, clothes, hair, breakfast.
Charlie’s already left for work, so I don’t need to pretend for anybody. I just let the pain have me as I force a banane into my stomach.
I doubt even Jake could help me this morning. I think back to what could have caused this particular episode, but the only thing I can think of was looking at the window this morning. A venture I usually avoid at all costs.
I cast a look around for a distraction, knowing all the while that nothing could distract me from this agony.
My eyes land on a newspaper Charlie had left discarded on the table. I reach for it eagerly and open it to a Zufällig page. I look down to find the death notices of Washington State. Lovely.
I read the very first sentence on the page. I will Liebe Du for all eternity is written in bold and I feel my herz clench.
Do Du read the obituaries and feel jealous of the dead?
It’s obvious from the one line that whoever this was had been loved dearly Von their whole family.
Loved. I wish.
I close the paper abruptly, casting it aside. A dull thump echoes around the empty room as the paper slides of the tabelle and hits the floor.
I throw away the peel of my banane before grabbing my keys and rushing out the door.
It’s raining, as always. The perfect weather for them.
I hiss at the pain as my chest aches. Today was most defiantly going to be a bad day. I would have to call Jake, tell him I wouldn’t be over later. All I wanted to do was fall apart when I got Home from school. Once again I wished for the blissful numbness that I needed to function throughout the school day, but I wouldn’t come.
I jumped into my car, starting it and reversing out of the driveway with ease. Anything part of the routine I could handle. The danger only appeared when something unexpected came along.
It’s like living on a cliff side not knowing when you’ll dive.
The drive to school was uneventful. I pulled into the same parking spot as always, as far away as possible from his spot as I could manage.
As soon as I stepped out of the car I was soaked. The rain had picked up. This Tag was just getting better and better.
I ran for cover, only stumbling twice. A new record.
“Bella!” Jess called out to me. Well, at least she was talking to me again.
I didn’t try and keep up with her conversation, I just nodded and sagte “Really?” at the appropriate times. I couldn’t care less about what she was going on about.
Do Du know, do Du know what it’s like to die alive?
Classes were boring but tolerable. I wasn’t really with it today and most people, including the teachers, seemed to notice. No one really tried to talk with me except Jess, which I was thankful for.
Angela was the best, she knew when I wanted to talk and when I’d rather not do anything. She smiled at me in greeting in our classes together but didn’t try and start a conversation. I had smiled at her gratefully.
Von the time I got to lunch, I was only just keeping together. I sat in my usual sitz facing away from their tabelle and ignored everyone around me, content in my own world.
When the world that once had colour fades to white and grey and black.
Biology was bearable, a rare occurrence at the moment. Gym on the other hand was terrible.
We played badminton and I ended up throwing the racket across the gym.
Coach Clapp was still shaking his head when he dismissed the class. “Alright, guys, tomorrow we will be...”
Tomorrow. Who knew what tomorrow would bring?
When tomorrow terrifies you, but you’ll die if Du look back.
When I eventually made it home, Charlie was already there. I was worried for a second. Charlie was never Home this early.
“Dad?” I called out as soon as I got the door open.
“Oh, Hey Bells.” Dad said. He was in the middle of putting his jacke back on. “I just came Home to tell Du that I will be working late tonight. You’ll be alright, won’t you?”
I attempted a smile. “That’s fine Dad. Take your time.”
He gave me a gruff hug. “Thanks kiddo. You’ll be fine, I know.”
You don’t know.
I know Du don’t know.
“C’ya Dad.” I said, smiling a little Mehr truthfully.
The door slammed as he left again for the night.
I finished my homework so when I had finished washing up after speiselokal, diner I was at a loss of what to do. I had done all of the chores yesterday. I was beginning to regret my decision of telling Jake I wouldn’t be over.
I settled for sitting in front of the television. I wanted to go to bed, but I knew the nightmares would be bad tonight. I was putting it off for as long as possible.
After 15 Minuten of sitting in front of the Fernsehen I realised I had no idea what I was watching. I just didn’t care.
I had nothing to do therefore I had nothing to distract me from the crushing weight that was restricting my breathing.
Despite my apprehension I got ready for bed, hopping under the covers a little before eight. Much too early.
I had no distractions now, absolutely nothing.
The sensation you’re screaming, but Du never make a sound.
I turned the lights off, lay down and closed my eyes, against my better judgment. What a mistake that would prove to be.
I was asleep in Minuten from the lack of rest I had gotten over the past couple of days.
The nightmares started instantly. The same one as it always was. Running and running but never getting any closer to him. If anything I was getting further away. I screamed out his name, but knew it was useless.
I woke myself with the scream. Charlie was used to it now. He no longer came running.
I looked at the luminous numbers of my alarm clock. 4:42am.
The feeling that you’re falling, but Du never hit the ground.
I knew I wouldn’t get back to sleep now so I settled for just lying in bett for two hours.
Von the time it was acceptable to be awake Charlie had left. He was not really around much in the mornings these days but I didn’t mind. It left me to my own devices.
It just keeps rushing at Du Tag Von Tag Von Tag Von day.
Today was much the same as the Tag before. Von the time I got to school I had already had a breakdown, sobbing in my car for 10 minutes. Lucky I had left early.
I slid out of my car. Relief washed over me as I realised it wasn’t raining as badly as yesterday.
The slight uplifting of my mood was quashed however when I saw Mike running over to me.
“Hey Bella!” he said, managing to look like he was at least trying to look comfortable around me.
“Hey, Mike.” I said, managing a smile that obviously looked real because Mike’s smile grew in response.
“I was just wondering if you’re cars alright. I saw Du parked on the side of the road this morning.” He asked, obviously trying to be helpful.
I managed to hide my grimace. “Yeah, it’s fine. I was on the phone so I pulled over. I didn’t want to crash oder anything.”
For the first time ever, someone believed my lie. “Oh, that’s cool. Well, I guess I’ll see Du at lunch.” He said, smiling.
“Cool, see Du then.” It was only when he turned away that I let the smile disappear from my face.
I was lying like that on a regular basis these days.
You don’t know, Du don’t know what it’s like to live that way.
School passed quickly, a rarity. I was even able to sit out in gym so the softball teams would be even.
I was just making my way back to my truck when Mike cornered me.
“Bella! I forgot to ask Du this morning, do Du want to come to the strand with us this weekend?” He looked like he was resigned to my answer, as if he knew what it would be.
“Oh, sorry Mike, I’m hanging out with Jake this weekend.” Jake was now infamous among my Friends and ‘that big guy from the res’.
“Okay then. Maybe some other time?”
“Yeah, of course.” I answered, trying to be convincing.
I watched as Mike ran off and I contemplated my Sekunde lie to him for the day. I wouldn’t be hanging out with Jake this weekend, he was visiting his sister. It was a good excuse to get away from Mike though.
Like a refugee, a fugitive, forever on the run.
Dad wasn’t Home when I arrived today. Obviously that was just a once off shift at work yesterday.
I tried to keep myself busy but I was failing miserably. I finished my homework in an hour. Tonight was pizza night so I couldn’t even cook abendessen to keep myself occupied.
I found myself at a loss for what to do, again. The washing was done, the house was tidy.
I needed something to do. It wasn’t safe, sicher for me to be left alone with my thoughts.
If it gets me it will kill me, but I don’t know what I’ve done.
Jake was busy tonight, having a boys night with Embry and Quil.
I was alone. Everyone thought I was fine, but I wasn’t. I needed someone, but the someone I needed was long gone. He thought I would Bewegen on, they all did.
They just don’t know who I am...
let me know what Du think.
the italic bits are lines from a play done at the 2009 Tony awards about a depressed woman. i thought it was appropriate. if they sound farmiliar, it's because they have been used on this site previously in a House fanfic.
hope Du enjoy, feel free to Kommentar :)
Another day. Without thinking I look towards my window, always unlocked but never opened.
I curled tighter into myself. This wasn’t the way to start my day.
Do Du wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head?
I force myself up. It was a school Tag so I couldn’t lie in bett for long, even if I would rather stay there for the rest of my life.
I Bewegen quickly, going through the repetitive motions of getting ready. Shower, clothes, hair, breakfast.
Charlie’s already left for work, so I don’t need to pretend for anybody. I just let the pain have me as I force a banane into my stomach.
I doubt even Jake could help me this morning. I think back to what could have caused this particular episode, but the only thing I can think of was looking at the window this morning. A venture I usually avoid at all costs.
I cast a look around for a distraction, knowing all the while that nothing could distract me from this agony.
My eyes land on a newspaper Charlie had left discarded on the table. I reach for it eagerly and open it to a Zufällig page. I look down to find the death notices of Washington State. Lovely.
I read the very first sentence on the page. I will Liebe Du for all eternity is written in bold and I feel my herz clench.
Do Du read the obituaries and feel jealous of the dead?
It’s obvious from the one line that whoever this was had been loved dearly Von their whole family.
Loved. I wish.
I close the paper abruptly, casting it aside. A dull thump echoes around the empty room as the paper slides of the tabelle and hits the floor.
I throw away the peel of my banane before grabbing my keys and rushing out the door.
It’s raining, as always. The perfect weather for them.
I hiss at the pain as my chest aches. Today was most defiantly going to be a bad day. I would have to call Jake, tell him I wouldn’t be over later. All I wanted to do was fall apart when I got Home from school. Once again I wished for the blissful numbness that I needed to function throughout the school day, but I wouldn’t come.
I jumped into my car, starting it and reversing out of the driveway with ease. Anything part of the routine I could handle. The danger only appeared when something unexpected came along.
It’s like living on a cliff side not knowing when you’ll dive.
The drive to school was uneventful. I pulled into the same parking spot as always, as far away as possible from his spot as I could manage.
As soon as I stepped out of the car I was soaked. The rain had picked up. This Tag was just getting better and better.
I ran for cover, only stumbling twice. A new record.
“Bella!” Jess called out to me. Well, at least she was talking to me again.
I didn’t try and keep up with her conversation, I just nodded and sagte “Really?” at the appropriate times. I couldn’t care less about what she was going on about.
Do Du know, do Du know what it’s like to die alive?
Classes were boring but tolerable. I wasn’t really with it today and most people, including the teachers, seemed to notice. No one really tried to talk with me except Jess, which I was thankful for.
Angela was the best, she knew when I wanted to talk and when I’d rather not do anything. She smiled at me in greeting in our classes together but didn’t try and start a conversation. I had smiled at her gratefully.
Von the time I got to lunch, I was only just keeping together. I sat in my usual sitz facing away from their tabelle and ignored everyone around me, content in my own world.
When the world that once had colour fades to white and grey and black.
Biology was bearable, a rare occurrence at the moment. Gym on the other hand was terrible.
We played badminton and I ended up throwing the racket across the gym.
Coach Clapp was still shaking his head when he dismissed the class. “Alright, guys, tomorrow we will be...”
Tomorrow. Who knew what tomorrow would bring?
When tomorrow terrifies you, but you’ll die if Du look back.
When I eventually made it home, Charlie was already there. I was worried for a second. Charlie was never Home this early.
“Dad?” I called out as soon as I got the door open.
“Oh, Hey Bells.” Dad said. He was in the middle of putting his jacke back on. “I just came Home to tell Du that I will be working late tonight. You’ll be alright, won’t you?”
I attempted a smile. “That’s fine Dad. Take your time.”
He gave me a gruff hug. “Thanks kiddo. You’ll be fine, I know.”
You don’t know.
I know Du don’t know.
“C’ya Dad.” I said, smiling a little Mehr truthfully.
The door slammed as he left again for the night.
I finished my homework so when I had finished washing up after speiselokal, diner I was at a loss of what to do. I had done all of the chores yesterday. I was beginning to regret my decision of telling Jake I wouldn’t be over.
I settled for sitting in front of the television. I wanted to go to bed, but I knew the nightmares would be bad tonight. I was putting it off for as long as possible.
After 15 Minuten of sitting in front of the Fernsehen I realised I had no idea what I was watching. I just didn’t care.
I had nothing to do therefore I had nothing to distract me from the crushing weight that was restricting my breathing.
Despite my apprehension I got ready for bed, hopping under the covers a little before eight. Much too early.
I had no distractions now, absolutely nothing.
The sensation you’re screaming, but Du never make a sound.
I turned the lights off, lay down and closed my eyes, against my better judgment. What a mistake that would prove to be.
I was asleep in Minuten from the lack of rest I had gotten over the past couple of days.
The nightmares started instantly. The same one as it always was. Running and running but never getting any closer to him. If anything I was getting further away. I screamed out his name, but knew it was useless.
I woke myself with the scream. Charlie was used to it now. He no longer came running.
I looked at the luminous numbers of my alarm clock. 4:42am.
The feeling that you’re falling, but Du never hit the ground.
I knew I wouldn’t get back to sleep now so I settled for just lying in bett for two hours.
Von the time it was acceptable to be awake Charlie had left. He was not really around much in the mornings these days but I didn’t mind. It left me to my own devices.
It just keeps rushing at Du Tag Von Tag Von Tag Von day.
Today was much the same as the Tag before. Von the time I got to school I had already had a breakdown, sobbing in my car for 10 minutes. Lucky I had left early.
I slid out of my car. Relief washed over me as I realised it wasn’t raining as badly as yesterday.
The slight uplifting of my mood was quashed however when I saw Mike running over to me.
“Hey Bella!” he said, managing to look like he was at least trying to look comfortable around me.
“Hey, Mike.” I said, managing a smile that obviously looked real because Mike’s smile grew in response.
“I was just wondering if you’re cars alright. I saw Du parked on the side of the road this morning.” He asked, obviously trying to be helpful.
I managed to hide my grimace. “Yeah, it’s fine. I was on the phone so I pulled over. I didn’t want to crash oder anything.”
For the first time ever, someone believed my lie. “Oh, that’s cool. Well, I guess I’ll see Du at lunch.” He said, smiling.
“Cool, see Du then.” It was only when he turned away that I let the smile disappear from my face.
I was lying like that on a regular basis these days.
You don’t know, Du don’t know what it’s like to live that way.
School passed quickly, a rarity. I was even able to sit out in gym so the softball teams would be even.
I was just making my way back to my truck when Mike cornered me.
“Bella! I forgot to ask Du this morning, do Du want to come to the strand with us this weekend?” He looked like he was resigned to my answer, as if he knew what it would be.
“Oh, sorry Mike, I’m hanging out with Jake this weekend.” Jake was now infamous among my Friends and ‘that big guy from the res’.
“Okay then. Maybe some other time?”
“Yeah, of course.” I answered, trying to be convincing.
I watched as Mike ran off and I contemplated my Sekunde lie to him for the day. I wouldn’t be hanging out with Jake this weekend, he was visiting his sister. It was a good excuse to get away from Mike though.
Like a refugee, a fugitive, forever on the run.
Dad wasn’t Home when I arrived today. Obviously that was just a once off shift at work yesterday.
I tried to keep myself busy but I was failing miserably. I finished my homework in an hour. Tonight was pizza night so I couldn’t even cook abendessen to keep myself occupied.
I found myself at a loss for what to do, again. The washing was done, the house was tidy.
I needed something to do. It wasn’t safe, sicher for me to be left alone with my thoughts.
If it gets me it will kill me, but I don’t know what I’ve done.
Jake was busy tonight, having a boys night with Embry and Quil.
I was alone. Everyone thought I was fine, but I wasn’t. I needed someone, but the someone I needed was long gone. He thought I would Bewegen on, they all did.
They just don’t know who I am...
let me know what Du think.
hey all i forgot to post this yesterday.All my Friends say its amazing so...Im gonna stop talking and let Du read :)
Preface:
She tried to get passed me but all i did was push her as far away as possible from the people I love. How do Du keep the people Du Liebe safe? When Du have to keep yourself safe, sicher first? How do Du keep the person Du Liebe safe? When that person doesnt Liebe Du anymore? How do Du keep your Liebe safe, sicher when your whole world changes?
So what do Du think? Hope ya like it!! :)
Preface:
She tried to get passed me but all i did was push her as far away as possible from the people I love. How do Du keep the people Du Liebe safe? When Du have to keep yourself safe, sicher first? How do Du keep the person Du Liebe safe? When that person doesnt Liebe Du anymore? How do Du keep your Liebe safe, sicher when your whole world changes?
So what do Du think? Hope ya like it!! :)
This story take place after Nessie is born. Zoey has been in the family since The begining of twilight. Although I don't cover anything from the books. Whatever happen to Bella it happen to Zoey accept getting pregant with a half vampire half human baby. Zoey is in Liebe with Jacob Black but Jake is in Liebe with Nessie. Alice and Jasper are practically her parents. She fill like the outsider because she is not a vampire, warewolf oder like Nessie. The Volturi have dicided that she can be a human, until a Tag after she turns 17. She has her GED so she doesn't have to go to school.
Ok don't get me wrong I Liebe the Cullens but take a look at what I would do if I was a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to datum a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big baum a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to datum a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big baum a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
This is for people who have been Lesen Esme's Story:
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please Kommentar and tell me which ones Du like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If Du can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a Mehr interesting name so it draws Mehr attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a Liste of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please Kommentar and tell me which ones Du like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If Du can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a Mehr interesting name so it draws Mehr attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a Liste of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
Bella's Pov.
"ESME!!!!!!!" As I ran over towards her.
"Uh...where am I?" Esme sagte wearily.
"Bella?"
"Jasper?"
"Hey Bella, I um...am sorry for causing Du all this trouble. I didn't mean to.
I did feel sad that, I never got to marry you. That's whay I didn't come to your
party. Then, Esme came. Something really strange happened. She turned
purple and then, she was in a cloak. Then, she put me under a spell to follow'
whatever she says. I tried to stop her, but it was too late. She told me that
I would regret asking Du out for the rest of my-"
"MOMMY!!!!!" Renesmee shouted.
"It's always my ple-MOM!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?"
"We have to get her to Carisle. I will explain what I told Bella," Jasper sagte calmly.
Suddenly, everyone took three steps away from Jasper.
"It's okay guys. He's back to normal," I said.
Edward replied sharply, "Well how can we prove it!?"
"I will Zeigen you."
Then, Jasper hugged Edward.
"ESME!!!!!!!" As I ran over towards her.
"Uh...where am I?" Esme sagte wearily.
"Bella?"
"Jasper?"
"Hey Bella, I um...am sorry for causing Du all this trouble. I didn't mean to.
I did feel sad that, I never got to marry you. That's whay I didn't come to your
party. Then, Esme came. Something really strange happened. She turned
purple and then, she was in a cloak. Then, she put me under a spell to follow'
whatever she says. I tried to stop her, but it was too late. She told me that
I would regret asking Du out for the rest of my-"
"MOMMY!!!!!" Renesmee shouted.
"It's always my ple-MOM!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?"
"We have to get her to Carisle. I will explain what I told Bella," Jasper sagte calmly.
Suddenly, everyone took three steps away from Jasper.
"It's okay guys. He's back to normal," I said.
Edward replied sharply, "Well how can we prove it!?"
"I will Zeigen you."
Then, Jasper hugged Edward.
