i am sort of new to the whole Schreiben thing and i would really Liebe it if Du would Kommentar please.


preface

everything i ve been fighting for was going to peaces all my dear 1s the people i couldn`t live without and the people that would be a pain to lose. "can i meet her" what was i ment to do say no? this is like last time when bellas life was Lost before my very eyes.
as they stalked fowared i could see there mind set on two things that i would not give up without a fight.

chapter one
the talk

it was a couple of days before the wedding and i was nervous no not cause i wernt readdy well i wernt ready for bellas condition. she had asked for sex for her to marrie me and i excepted mostly because i would do anything to have her marry me and Sekunde because i wonted it to.bella was out for a while so i had some time to ask what i needed to know as i walked up the stairs i remembered something that was wrong of me. bellas truck. it was a few days we had mad are agreement i was bord and was thinking about what we had just descussed i told her she needed a new car. sh moand but finaly let me get her one when hers stopped working. so i just speaded it up a bit i trashed it i wont go in to detal on the subject but it was the most fun i ever had trashing somethng.
i stood outside carslie office this was so enbarassing but. i knocked on the door " yes?"
" i was wondering if Du could help me with something?" he could see that i was ashamed to be here
" what is it Du look uncofitable" he sounded conserned
" its about mine and bellas agreement i-i was thinking what would it be like for me i mean will i be able conserntrate " i was on the verg of losing it
"edwared calm dpwn our bodies change so much and well bella has changed Du all ready u have nothing to worrie about son i trust Du and so does she she loves Du do not take that for granted" i knew he was right and when he put it like that i got up and walked down the stairs to see bella i missed her "edwared wait " what did he wont now emmett was trying to prosrade me to go on a bactullar party with him but i wernt budging
"what is ir emmett hurry i dont have time for this "
"erm alice wonts to see you"
your in for it now bro
he blocked the rest out and i was getting scared. i slowly walked up the stairs and mad it to her room. "alice whats the matter" i asked timedly
"you know your not allowed to see bella till the wedding well Du are going on this bactalar party Du are going to have fun or"
"or what "
"ill tell bella" why did the have to know my weekness the only thing i cared about was her being happy and now she will be happy if i was happy such and awkared relationship but i would change. so what was i doing?
i snaled and left the room i would go on this thing but i will not enjoy myself.
i ran to bellas charlie was in bett and i needed to see her. i caught her Lesen i snuck in and wapped my arms around her she was startled her heasrt raced and she turned and hugged me back"staying now " i whispered i didn`t wont to leave her all night unprotected i know the danger is behind us now but i carnt help worring. soon it will be diffrent.
just then she pulled me back to her lips after a moment i muttered "deffently staying"
"no no its Du batular party Du have to go" but as she sagte this her hands knotted in my hair and pulled me closer.
after a Minute i opened my eyes to gaze upon the beauty that would soon be mine and no body elses i gazed at her and i felt i could see into her soal she was so beautiful it hert. i just gazed but a moment later she opened her eyes and gazed at me like i was a prize not a overly lucky winner. i pulled her face back to mine dor a while longer.
"batular partys are dsigned for those who are sad to see the passing of thier single days i couldn`t be Mehr eager to have mine behind me so there`s really no point"
"true " she breated to mine thought that sent a chill down my spine.
we curled up on her small bett twined as much as possible i rapped her uup in a blanket so she didn1t get cold i took my hemd, shirt of as i knew that she would complain about the blanket. we kissed passionetly for a while and the thrill to go further but i knew i couldn`t so as she pressed her tounge against my lips i knew it had gone to far so i started to pull away.
"wait practise makes perfect" she gripped my shoulders and kicked one of her legs out oof the cober a hitched it around my thigh. there was nothing i wonted Mehr but to cary on.
i chuckled "well we should be fairly close to perfection Von this point shouldn`t we|? have Du slept at all in the last momth?"
"but this is the dress rehersal and we only practised certain sceans its no time to play it safe, sicher now\"
i automaticually stiffened she was laughing this was stupid i shouldn`t be doing this i shouldn`t risk her now after all i have done.
"bella" i whispered not able to get the word out propaly
"dont start this agian a deals a deal" she spoke back i hated it when she argued because she knew she was going to get her own way again.
"i dont know its hard to conserntrate when your with me like this i wouldnt beable to control myself youll get hert " i tried to prosrade her
"ill be fine" sh sounded so sure
"bella....."
"shh" she pressed her lips to mine and i almost Lost my train of thought right there
"hows your feet?" i wonted her to be sure she had made the right choise
"toasty warm" ahe sagte back
"what no Sekunde thoughts its not to late to change your mind Du know"
"are Du trying to ditch me" how could she say that after all we have been through
"just making sure i dont wont Du to do anything Du dont wont to do" i chuckled
"im sure about Du the rest i can live through" yeah she goes again she wouldnt if i Lost it for a second. i hestitated
"can Du i dont mean the wedding whitch im sure Du can disit Du qualms but afterward what about renee what about charlie?"
"ill miss them"she whispered
"angaler and ben and jessica and mike?"
"ill miss them to aspeshaly mike oh mike how will i go on" i growled in the darkness i hated newton even after so long he still in Liebe with her.
bella laughed at my side she thought that was funny but then went serious " edwared we have been through this and trought this it will be hard but this is what i wont i wont Du forever one life time is simply not enought for me " sh sagte with such passion it wasa overwhelming but i wasnt going to give up.
"frozen forever at eighteen" i whispered
"every womens dream"
"never changing never moving fowared" i hoped she dropped that point i didnt know how to explain this
"whats that suppose to mean?" damm
"do Du remember tellin charlie we were getting married and he thought Du where .... pregnatnt?"
"and he thought about shooting Du just addmit it for one Sekunde he did" she laughed i didnt answer it was true he was thinking about it if she wasnt there he would of done it.
"what edwared?" she was serious now.
"i just wish...i wish he was right"
"gah" she gasped she didnt know what i was saying it was there in her eyes
"more that there was some way that he could be right that we could have that sort of protental i hate taking that away from Du too" i muttered not sure what she would think
bella was deep in thought for a Minute i wish i knew what she was thinking "i know what im doing" she whispered after a moment.
"how could Du bella look at my mothjer my sister its not an easie sacrafice as Du imagine"
"esme and rosalie get Von just fine if its a problem later we will do what esme did well adopt" how could she say that.
i sighed i was getting round up so my voise came out harsh "its not right i dont want Du to have to make sacrafices for me i wont to give Du things not take them away from Du if i were human-"
she put her hand over my lips "you are my futrure now stop. no moping oder im calling your brothers maybe Du need a batalar party"
"i am moppping airnt i im sirry must be the nerves" it wasnt the nerves at all thought they were comming up for some reason i didnt know.
"are your feet cold?" how coupd she say that.
"not in that sense i have been waiting a century to marry Du miss schwan the wedding is one thing i can not wait-" Hey edwared we gave Du enought time -"oh for the Liebe of all thats holy"
"whats wrong?"
edwared im sorry i told him to leave it but Du know emmett i am really sorry but he sagte Du needed this and alice didnt wont Du near the house. jasper was thinking
"apperntly Du dont have to call my brothers emmett and jasper are not going to let me bow out tonight" i gritted my teeth.
she cluched me closer and then lety me go with a final "have fun"
thats enough goodbyes come on now oder do i have to come in and get you?
emmett scraped his finger nails down the window knowing that that sound anoyed us both i was going to get pay back.
"if Du dont send edwared out were comming in after him" emmet growled.
she started to laugh "go before they break my house"
i rolled my eyes and ducked down took my hemd, shirt of the floor and out it on in one quick moverment then bent down to KISS her forehead "get some sleep Du have a big Tag tomorrow"
"thats sur to help me sleep"
"ill meet Du at the alter" oh boy hurry up im getting inpatant and jasper is getting edgy
"ill be the one in whight" she smiled.
"very convincing"
i crouched down into my hunting crouch and spange out of the window knocking emmett with me he didnt see it comming there was a mutted bang and emmett swore
"you better not make him late" bella called i was just about to go back to her right then but jasper put a hand on my shoulder ill go she might need me for well Du know. he was right he could help Mehr then me well might be this was bella for gods sake.
jasper climbed the window and peared in "relax bella we will get him Home in plenty of time"
"jasper what do Vampire do on batular parties your not taking him to a strip club are you?"
"dont tellc he ranything" emmett growled at my sode i wasnt having him make bella worse so i hit him and his face was a priceless expression that i couldnt help laughing.
"relax we cullens have our own vertion a few mountin lions a couple of grizzly bears like any other sataday night" pluss alice had words im not allowed to go a hundred miles near a strip club we allready considered that.
"thank Du jasper" she sagte and then the longing to be near her started up again jasper jumped and was at my side with a hand on my shoulder "not tonight edwared come on" they towerd me over to the car this is going to be a long night.
i curled up on the back sitz and wonted it to be over "edwared just think this time tomorrow Du will be in her arms and she will be an afishal cullen we Liebe bella like she is a cullen and soon i might be able to hug her Du got to know how i feel not being able to hug her oder go near her i dont i carnt after last her -" he couldn`t finish but i new what he was going on about. bellas birthday where it all went wrong the biggest mistake of my long life had.
"edward i know Du dont wont to talk to me now but its hard for me to. to leave rose Du might not of thought it but i miss her right now i wont to be Home in her arms so she will KISS me the way that-"
"EMMETT!!!!!!" me and jasper shouted at the same time having to feel and hear what he was thinking pluss hearing it every night it was sickerning.
"ooppss sorry but Du know what i mean now"
"its the same for me " they sat there in there own bubbles emmett about what to hunt first jasper was
"jasper she may not be my actural sister but i still count her as my little sis please dont think about her that way well when im near any way"
"sorry edwared"
we sat here in silence for a while while i started to think about bella the way she sighed my name in her sleep the way her herz would beat rappedly when ever i was near. the way she held me and the way it felt when she kissedme.
"er edwared?" jasper asked unconftable
"sorry" i replied a little enbaressed
"its ok its just that well she is my little sistder" that took me Von surprise
he laughed feeling my shock "just because i keep my distance doesn`t mean i dont feel that way"
i sat and thought about the first time i realized i was in Liebe with her and what they all thought onily three people really supported me alice carslie and esme the others thought i was crazy.
we mad it in an Stunde with emmetts recklace driving.
"do Du know if bella ever says anything about my driving again i am going to make her get in a car with you" they both laughed with me. "so what first ?"
"lets teilt, split up we will meet back hear in a while" emmett sujested and for some reason we agreed
i made my way through the south i wasnt allowed to go east just in case i decided to take a detour home. as i ran i started to think about that first KISS the way she had Lost control and nearly made me lose mine. the time sshe muttered my name in her sleep and that night she ssaid she loved me. when she agreed to marry me.
i didn`t hunt much i just lay on a baum remembering the time i had spent with bella and thinking about the time spread out in front of us.
"edward?"jasper asked from below
"hm?" was all i could answer
"alice just foned" thats all it took i was up in a shot
"what did she say is bella"- he cut me of
"is fine she is sleeping now so relax" and i did i raised one eyebrow and he gave me an apolijetic look i just shook my head.
"hey guys" emmett called at us
"heya" we called back at the same time and we started to laugh.
"its nearly eight we should head back" we all looked at the sky and it was light wow i was getting married in 5 hours the exsitment was rolling of me and jasper was starting to
"you know this isnt even my wedding and im getting exited to have bella with us" still took me Von supprise. he chuckled.
we ran back to the car not able to waist anotheer minute/
"edwared as Du are my little bro i need to talk about something"
"ay what?"
sex Du are at that stage at the huneymoon it is the Sekunde greatest thing to blood and is a great sensation Du should not take it for granted bro so thats all.
"wow was Du being seriouse and passonate ?"
"er i think he is i can feel it" jasper was just as shocked as i was
we were at the house now and i was debating to go up and get killed oder wait and live hard Debatte because this also means see bella oder wait urgh i hate alice.
"you better not be feeling that about alice" jasper waarned
"sorry bro i wont to see bella" it waas a growing need.
" no Du are not seeing her she is upstairs and alice is frushrated with her eyes and if she sees Du then i dont know what she will do so keep away" rosalie sagte while comming down the stairs
"edwared why dont Du come and help me?" esme called dont start with alice today edward she is helping Du and wonts to do this right.
"fine" to both of them of her Kommentare i went out back and heard rose go up ths stairs and mutter "there back"
"keep him out of here" alice snapped back i let out a chuckle this was going to be a long Tag for alice.
it was a Stunde before the wedding i went to get ready with charlie stopped me
"erm edwared?" he sounded shy and nervouse i didnt read his thoughts so it would look like i didnt know.
"yes charlie" i know i havn`t
"i wont i wont to apolagizi know i havnt been the nicest person to be around and i know i have givin Du a hard time but i just wont to say wellcome to the family son"
"thank Du charlie Du dont know how much that means to me"
"well i better go and get bella"
"yeah" it was time
i herd them moving up stairs it was time the time i been waiting for my whole life.
i was stood in place everything ready i was exsited. the Musik started i stared at the stair case were alice came down into view and five Sekunden laster bella. she was georgous and she will soon be mine her eyes were searching i just kept my lock on her this was it. finaly our eyes met and a huge smile spread across both of our faces. she was a vision i had never seen anything so beautiful in all my life. i was inpatant i wonted her here now so when she made it to me i was relived the minister sagte our lines well we reaad our vowles we changed the line till death do us part to as long as we both shall live it was Mehr appropiate. she was crying and when it came to i do she just manged to chock it out. "i do "
"i do" Du couldn`t denie the triumph in it " i do " she was now mine.
we went out into the back yard and our guests was waiting to greet us first it was seph i knew bella was sad that jacob black couldn`t be here but i was happy it was seth and when he went the danile family i heard bella hold her breathe. while tanya inbraced me. we stood like that for a while "ah edwared i have missed you" Du can still change your mind i am still avalable. i chuckled and stepped out of the hug and put my hand lightly on her shoulder."its been to long tanya Du look well"
"so do you"
"let me introduce Du yo my wife" it was a relife to say this finaly i i was about t oexplode with triumph "tanya this is my bella" edwared Du sound happy and she seams nice enought to me but a little lack of breathing i see. they all chuckled.
she gave bella a meaning full look and kept her thoughts on a diffrent subject but after a Minute she took hold of her hands
"welcome to the family bella we consider our selfs as cardlies extended family and i am sorry about the Kürzlich incedent were we did not behave so will Du forgive us?"
"of corse" bella stammered £its so nice to meet you"
"the cullens are all evend up Von numbers now maybe it will be our turn Weiter ey
kate" she asked her blonde sister
"keep the dream alive"she took bellas hands and squeezed them gentaly "welcome bella"
Weiter there was one of my most Kürzlich friend that was every bit as usefull to us when it came down to a fight as they use to belong to the vulturie
"i am carmen this is alizer we are all so pleased to finaly meet you" she sagte while she took bellas hands.
"m-me too" bella stuttered tthis must be hard for her.
tanyas eyes swept to the people behind them charlies work colige and his wife
why does every person in the cullen family have to be so beautiful it unataral. marks wife thought with such bitterness that i pullled bella closer,wow they are beautiful but there just children and iam married pull your self togethere mark.
tanya turned back to us "we will get to no each other later we have orons of time for that" they giggled as the saw me glance around to see if anyone herd lighten up edward no one herd us.
all the usarall traditions of a wedding was kept most of them i was looking vorwärts-, nach vorn too all except one. we stood there infornt of a grand cake witch i placed a peice in bellas mouth and she did the same i chewed it was sweet icy. i almosted spat it out but i loved to watch bellas wided eyed expression and we had a imarge to protect.
then bella trew her bouque into angalars hands she was shocked she nearly fainted oh my god no what is ben going to propose no no way how could i have even caught this it was all a trick yes just a trick carlm down ang but i was Mehr suprised in bellas skill in trowing had she been practising?
jasper and emmett was nearly on the floor laughting as bella blushed so deep if my herz was beating it would have stopped Von now. it was time to remove the garter from bellas leg no thoughts could bring me out og the conserntration all apart from god she is goergous i Liebe her yeah i think im in Liebe with her and what i would do to her when she is out of that wedding dress mike newton stared to fantisie about my wife about all the things he would do with her if she was with him. so as soon as a had it of her leg i quickly winked at her and shot it straight into mikes face. we all chucked at the suprised look on his face.
but this was my Favorit part . the first dance. as soon as the Musik started i pulled bella into my arms and placed her feet on oben, nach oben of mine so she wouldn`t have to do anything.while the camras flashed so violently i erdged to protect her.i leened down to whisper in her ear "enjoying the party mrs cullen ?" i asked she didn`t know how much saying this ment to me.
she giggled "that will take a while to get use too"
"we have a while ! i reminded her and then leanded down to swiftly KISS her with as much passion as i could. camras went wild they are made for each other everyone thought at the same time i wonted to laught but stopped my self i was over joyed that they would think this.



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