So how's 2019 going ?

eh 2019.... still feels like 2018.
but 2019.... gonna be a boring Jahr again besides the lunar eclipses. Saw one the other night (January 20th night. it was gonna be gone at midnight) it was a blood moon at the same time.. it was pretty cool. Weiter lunar eclipse is February 19th. then the Weiter blood moon (im not sure if there is going to be a eclipse at the same time) is in march. So.... welcome to the lunar year

2019: ....Ehhh...

Cons:
Tons of interruptions at work.
Graphic card seems to be dying.
Not much time to play games.
Feel like I'm getting Mehr distant from my friend.
Grave shift cannot be filled.
My art tablet tip is already freaking out despite not using it much.

Pros:
Getting Mehr iron.
Mehr energy.
Getting deeper with God.
Rewatching Moral Orel.
maus plushies. All the maus plushies.
Fanpop Discord.

Just trying to get by. I hope I get a job, though. I want it to be a dream job.

I have achieved nothing. I have done nothing to exercise, become healthier oder try to lose weight.
I have however started drinking Mehr and found a band called Powerwolf who i am now a big Fan of :)

Terrible. I just now heard about the government shutdown. It'll really take in effect in September.

But on the flip side, I'm getting college classes set up, that way I can have something to fall back on.

It's just been incredibly boring. Almost a Monat into the Jahr and almost nothing of note has happened to me. I just hope that changes soon because I'm getting really bored.

Pretty fine until my computer decided it didn't want to have a working hard-drive anymore. Fanpop mobile is a pain in the arsch which is why I haven't been on as much.

Other than that it's pretty okay. I got an Azula funko for my collection of fandom shit.

悲しみ ｍｏｏｄ 自殺 ／４２０

Going wonderful! Doing my best to break No Nut 19!!!

A mix of wolke nine, true happiness, bliss and fun.

Mixed with very negative thoughts and mood. I'm accepting it's quite bad. I think I need therapy of some sort but I can't afford it.

Wish it was like 2009 I was a care free 10 Jahr old now I'm an anxious worrying 20 Jahr old. :( but stay positive :)

My gut reflex is to say its been great cause... its not as bad as before and I guess Im still moving vorwärts-, nach vorn and Im not THAT bad

But looking at things factually, the majority of the 22 days of this Jahr has been me being dissociated, having trauma breakdowns, being grossly apathetic oder mildly depressed (or just depressed in general but much less than before; sometimes I cant tell because I used to be severely severely severely depressed)

Its STILL A LOT better than Zurück years so Im inclined to automatically say "Oh its been great" but honestly its been shit and I just want to go Home to my fiance oder my birds XD

So far it`s been like shit, thanks.
But I`m looking vorwärts-, nach vorn to a better future.... hopefully. Either that oder finding out that life really has no meaning.

Well, not bad, I suppose. Nothing much different compared to the Zurück Jahr has happened so far honestly. So, same old. That being said, we've just began so we'll see how it goes even further. Being hopeful as always !!!!