Unbelievers

My strange eccentricities
and weird idiosyncrasies
Leave others bewildered
and cause me to ponder
Am I really strange..?
oder it’s the others, I wonder...

My values seem outdated
And my ethics, underrated
Honesty and loyalty
Are they obsolete?
True Liebe is so rare
Am I enclosed Von conceit..?

My love, it’s no-holds-barred
My feelings, they die-hard
Waiting and anticipating
Like I face life’s checkmate
Sometimes I feel beset
Can I influence my fate..?

My thoughts are bizarre
Seem unrealistic and far
But I know they’re not
meant for the blinkered
To grasp their true worth
Doubts have to be conquered...

In the hustle and bustle of the day
Surrounded Von folks and friends
I feel lost, lonely and astray..

Drifting off oder awaking,
in dreams and reality
My heart’s always aching
and my soul’s always praying
for you…

Suppressing my urges
to talk to you
curbing my craving
to hear you
ignoring my thirst
to meet you
restraining my longing
to be with you
stifling my desire
to touch you
I feel fervent and helpless,
desperate and hopeless
For I expect and demand,
hope and anticipate...

Then all of a sudden I seek nothing
Bereft of hopes, wishes oder desires
Left with only a soul that aspires
…for your happiness

Then I experience a holy calm
Peace descends on me
like a soft, soothing balm
and a knowing arises
…that we’re never apart
because Du live
forever in my heart...