Shadowfan here!
In case Du all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years Vor today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so Lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this Tag to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, Du know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised Von my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask Fragen I may never know the Antwort to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to Bewegen forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have sagte all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see Du in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
In case Du all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years Vor today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so Lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this Tag to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, Du know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised Von my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask Fragen I may never know the Antwort to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to Bewegen forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have sagte all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see Du in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
1.always let him talk to Du about stuff he likes
2.always see what Du have in common (if Du do)
3.never wear make up around him let him see your true beauty
4.DON'T TELL HIM HOW Du FEEL AROUND HIM UNTILL HE ASKS Du OUT THIS IS A RULE!
5.ALWAYS ask Fragen about him like his Favorit color, his Favorit movie oder his Favorit t.v show
6.never ever talk about your ex boyfriend they hate it (i've had experience) trust me it isn't cool
7.Always wear your Favorit clothes and some cute clothes
8.let him do all the hand holding and arm gestures don't do a thing( if u don't then that will make him think your interested)
9.talk about your Favorit Filme and songs
10.always make him happy no matter what mood he's in
thank Du for Lesen i hope this helps :)
2.always see what Du have in common (if Du do)
3.never wear make up around him let him see your true beauty
4.DON'T TELL HIM HOW Du FEEL AROUND HIM UNTILL HE ASKS Du OUT THIS IS A RULE!
5.ALWAYS ask Fragen about him like his Favorit color, his Favorit movie oder his Favorit t.v show
6.never ever talk about your ex boyfriend they hate it (i've had experience) trust me it isn't cool
7.Always wear your Favorit clothes and some cute clothes
8.let him do all the hand holding and arm gestures don't do a thing( if u don't then that will make him think your interested)
9.talk about your Favorit Filme and songs
10.always make him happy no matter what mood he's in
thank Du for Lesen i hope this helps :)