She wanted to know what else he thought about her, and refused to stop Lesen no matter how painful its effect would be.
He sagte Du are in med school. That made me happy since I was there too, though against my welling. I thought that Du are passionate and caring, that Du are loving and want to help everyone. I didn’t even know Du and I drew Du in my mind like an Angel – Jäger der Finsternis the same way Du looked to me. I forgot in that Minute all what my father told me, and all what I learned about not being fooled with appearances, though I was, all my life, very careful with choosing my friends. But this time I failed with the test, the one that I should’ve passed it. I was taken Von your charm and beauty.
All Tag long I was thinking about Du and your name “Sara” since that I fell in Liebe with your name and its four letters. But unfortunately your name and your Liebe brought me nothing but pain. Du seemed so graceful so confident, walking proudly, directing your steps into the class room. I couldn’t help it but fix my eyes on Du without having a Sekunde choice. I wanted to step in and talk to you, but I didn’t dare too. I decided to let one of your Friends arrange our meeting.
I invited her to a café, Emily. She was polite and sweet, she understood what I wanted. She sagte drinking small sips from her black coffee.
“I know what Du want to say, Du like her” she sagte smiling
“Well…” I sagte shyly
“That’s ok. Don’t be shy. Most men like her. I’ve introduced her to lots of men, but she didn’t like any of them.”
“Why? Is she arrogant?” I sagte wonderingly afraid that her answer would b yes
“No, it’s not like that, but they seemed all ….. Blah!”
“Well I’m not “blah”!”
She laughed “I don’t mean you! That’s not your problem, it’s you’re so poor, and she’s extremely wealthy.”
“I’m not that poor Du know” I sagte dryly
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean too” she replied shyly “But yet, Du are so not like her”
“Does she care about these things?”
“No not at all. I can prove to Du she’s not. Du know Matthew, the guy Du were talking to earlier this day. He was her boyfriend since high school. They were epically in love. Everyone sagte their future is definitely together. But the romance ended last Jahr in spring break.” She sagte sorely
“What happened?”
“I don’t know. In fact no one knows. They both refused to talk about it. But apparently it was like an agreement oder something, because they both dealt with the issue very unexpectedly. She didn’t even cry, always laughing and having fun. And he got engaged to this girl, Rachel, a very short while after what happened.”
A moment of silence passed then I said:
“Can Du introduce me to her?”
“sure” She smiled brightly
He sagte Du are in med school. That made me happy since I was there too, though against my welling. I thought that Du are passionate and caring, that Du are loving and want to help everyone. I didn’t even know Du and I drew Du in my mind like an Angel – Jäger der Finsternis the same way Du looked to me. I forgot in that Minute all what my father told me, and all what I learned about not being fooled with appearances, though I was, all my life, very careful with choosing my friends. But this time I failed with the test, the one that I should’ve passed it. I was taken Von your charm and beauty.
All Tag long I was thinking about Du and your name “Sara” since that I fell in Liebe with your name and its four letters. But unfortunately your name and your Liebe brought me nothing but pain. Du seemed so graceful so confident, walking proudly, directing your steps into the class room. I couldn’t help it but fix my eyes on Du without having a Sekunde choice. I wanted to step in and talk to you, but I didn’t dare too. I decided to let one of your Friends arrange our meeting.
I invited her to a café, Emily. She was polite and sweet, she understood what I wanted. She sagte drinking small sips from her black coffee.
“I know what Du want to say, Du like her” she sagte smiling
“Well…” I sagte shyly
“That’s ok. Don’t be shy. Most men like her. I’ve introduced her to lots of men, but she didn’t like any of them.”
“Why? Is she arrogant?” I sagte wonderingly afraid that her answer would b yes
“No, it’s not like that, but they seemed all ….. Blah!”
“Well I’m not “blah”!”
She laughed “I don’t mean you! That’s not your problem, it’s you’re so poor, and she’s extremely wealthy.”
“I’m not that poor Du know” I sagte dryly
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean too” she replied shyly “But yet, Du are so not like her”
“Does she care about these things?”
“No not at all. I can prove to Du she’s not. Du know Matthew, the guy Du were talking to earlier this day. He was her boyfriend since high school. They were epically in love. Everyone sagte their future is definitely together. But the romance ended last Jahr in spring break.” She sagte sorely
“What happened?”
“I don’t know. In fact no one knows. They both refused to talk about it. But apparently it was like an agreement oder something, because they both dealt with the issue very unexpectedly. She didn’t even cry, always laughing and having fun. And he got engaged to this girl, Rachel, a very short while after what happened.”
A moment of silence passed then I said:
“Can Du introduce me to her?”
“sure” She smiled brightly
Life's like a rollercoaster,
Don't waste the ride.
Live it up all the way,
because today's your last day
What would Du do?
Would Du cry a little, scream a little, think it's all pretend.
oder go into silence until the very end...
Would Du Liebe the ones Du hate the most oder be the person Du hide?
Would Du pretend that you're ok but really scream inside?
Would Du try and keep the sun from setting as your last Tag ends?
Knowing you'll never see it rise...
Tomorrow I'll be somewhere else Du say as Du close your eyes.
what can I do?
I'm self-centered, self-induldged, self-absorbed, hateful, short-tepered, implusive, in a complete state of denial, confused and lonely, yet I don't try to think.
a creature of the night
a princess of darkness
I long for light
colors
but all is midnight
and my only companions are the moon and the darkness
thought it comforts me when no one can
I wish to be out of darkness for once
to be clear, understood, unquestioned, and loved.
but who am I to ask for this?
who am I to want this?
is that what makes me human?
why?
all I want to know is why?
Step, creak, step, creak! the floor boards speak to me as I slowly tremble on its hard, splintery wood. Each step feels so daring. I feel danger crawling up my dangling spine. Thump, thump, my herz tries to refuse to my wishes of moving forward. Nothing has happened so far.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the sitz as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My herz starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing Von my house.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the sitz as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My herz starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing Von my house.
