It's Complicated Chapter Fifty Eight
I got the stage and played a dub step violinist. I could really just let go and dance however I wanted to this song. It was classical but it also had a heavy beat to it. It was the last song I heard before I went deaf. I tried my best to remember how it went.
I hit play and tried to follow the beat. I tried and tried to dance to it. But I could barley hear anything out of the headphones. I had the volume all the way up.
Some guy walked in and was talking. He was not signing at all. I gave him a funny look.
"Sorry, I thought Du were hearing," he signed.
"I use to be," I signed as I took off the headphones.
"Oh okay. What were Du listening too," he asked.
"A dub step violinist. It was the last song I listened to before I went deaf," I signed.
"Oh, she can really play," he signed.
"If Du are hearing, why are Du at this school," I asked confused.
"I am slowly losing my hearing. So, my parents thought it would be good to get an early start. But most kids here know I'm hearings," he signed.
"Ahh okay," I signed, "I am so sorry Du are going to lose your hearing!"
"I will adjust. How did Du go deaf," he asked.
"I don't want to say," I signed.
"Did Du dance before Du went deaf," he asked.
"Yes and no. I took lesson when I was toddler but nothing since then," I signed.
"That's cool! Du are going to laugh, but I was a pretty good dancer until I started losing hearing," he signed.
"No I won't! Awe, I am so sorry," I stated, "did Du have to stop because of it?"
"No, I figured I needed to be here learning this incredible language then be off dancing for fun," he signed.
"Oh wow, I bet your parents are proud of you," I signed.
"I guess so," he signed as he shrugged his shoulders.
"Well, they should be," I signed as he smiled.
"How did Du learn to do the dance moves Du were just doing," he asked signing, "I know that they did not teach Du that when Du were a toddler!"
"I watched my step-sister and step-brother-in-law dance at a recital. I liked it a lot so I tried to memorize the step," I signed.
"Ahh okay," he signed, "this may sound weird but do Du want to try and dance together?"
"I think that'd be fun. Now, I can't hear so Du are going to have to lead me," I stated.
"Alright, I will don't worry," he sagte as he hopped on stage.
It was so awkward dancing with a complete stranger. But soon it was just something we both enjoyed. I started having a lot of fun. We did the waltz and the swing. Eventually we tried just dancing something together but it did not work out at all. We ended up standing there laughing. We were on totally two different beats.
"This is why I told my step-sister that deaf cannot dance," I signed.
"Deaf people can dance too," he signed.
"Yeah but not me," I signed.
"With enough practice Du can," he signed.
"Sure," I signed smirking.
"Why has dancing become so important to Du lately," he asked.
"I, have to go bed," I signed and tried to walk away.
"Come on, it's too early for that," he said.
"I have to go," I signed.
I jumped off the stage and ran for then door. I bumped into Jasper on my way out.
"Woah, is everything okay," he asked signing.
"Yeah, I just don't like making new friends," I signed.
I looked behind me and the door to the stage room opened.
"Jasper, I want go somewhere else," I signed.
"Okay let's go." He signed, "that's one of my friends. He is nice guy. Du should not be afraid of him."
"Thanks," I signed as we walked away.
"What's wrong? Did he do something to you," Jasper asked worried.
"He started asking Fragen and I freaked out. I tried to walk away and he grabbed my wrist. He didn't hurt me but I starting to have flashbacks," I signed.
"It's okay Lila," he signed and wrapped me in a hug., "I won't let anything happen to you. I promise!"
I didn't know what to say Jasper so I just smiled and hugged him again.
"I am going to head to bed," jasper signed, "see Du in the morning!"
"Okay, goodnight," I signed.

The Weiter morning I woke up to Jasper waking me up.
"You are going to be late for breakfast," he signed.
"Ugh, I didn't hear my alarm," I sign as I sat up.
"Lila, Du are deaf that might be why," he signed a bit sarcastically.
"Wow, I totally forgot about that," I sagte sarcastically, "the flash never woke me up!"
"That explains it. When did your roommate Bewegen out," Jasper asked as he pointed across the room.
"I don't know? I did not realize she was gone," I stated.
"Wow, no wondered she moved out," Jasper signed laughing.
"I have to get ready," I signed.
"Okay, I'll meet ya down stairs," he signed and left.
I hurried myself up this morning. I hated being rushed to get ready. I liked to be lazy and just walk around and take my time. But I finished and went down stairs to breakfast.
"Hey, I am up and not ready for school," I signed.
"Same here, I wanted the weekend to last longer," Jasper signed.
"Yeah," I sagte as I got in line for food.
"So Du were talking to Scotty last night," Jasper sagte signing.
"Oh, I didn't know that was his name," I signed.
"Yeah, so what did y'all talk about," he asked curiously.
"He was asking me how I went deaf and stuff. I just can't tell anyone. The words won't come out of my mouth," I signed, "well, technically I can't sign the word."
"Would Du rather me explain it to him? If Du even want him to know," jasper asked.
"I don't know. I should really tell people myself," I stated, "I will eventually get comfortable with tell people!"
"That's right," he signed, "it takes time."
Jasper and I sat at the same tabelle and talked that morning.
"Where are your Friends at," I asked.
"Playing basketball, they got up early to eat and then go play,' he signed.
"And Du didn't want to go," I asked.
"I did but I wanted to make sure Du were okay. And that Du would wake up on time," Jasper joked.
"Right; if Du want Du can go Mitmachen them and I will come in there in a little bit," I signed.
Okay thanks," he sagte signing.
He got up and practically sprinted to the basketball courts.
I finished eating and made my way there. I noticed the door opened and in walked Jacob Black. I stopped where I was at. I stood there still hoping he would not notice me.
"Hey Lila, are Du okay," Scotty asked me.
"Umm, sorta," I sagte as I walked away, "how did Du find me?!"
"Dad told me where Du were," Jake said.
"You cannot be hear! What about that restraining order," I asked almost yelling.
"Lila, Du do not have to yell! People will hear you," he said.
"Jacob everyone here is deaf," I stated, "do Du understand what that means?!"
"Don't get smart with me," he demanded, "what are Du looking at?!"
I turned around to see Scotty still standing there.
"Help me and I will explain later," I signed.
"Lila, I am talking to you," Jacob sagte Scotty came and stood Weiter me.
"What do Du want," I asked nicely as possible.
"Ella is getting married soon and she wants us to be on good turns for the wedding," he sagte as he continued talking and I got lost.
"Scotty can Du interpret the last part," I asked aloud.
"He sagte that Du two will be walking down the isle together," he signed.
"No, no, no way," I said, "I am not touching Du at all. I don't even want to be near you?!"
"Whether Du like it oder not, we are going to be in this wedding together. I want Ella to be happy and if that means I am dragging Du down the isle so be it," Jake sagte as Scotty interpreted.
"Jacob Du better leave here before I call security," Jasper's voice rang through room.
"Remember what I said, whatever makes her happy," Jake sagte through his teeth.
Jake stood there and glared at me as Jasper came to my side.
"I will personally talk to Ella. Just leave me alone," I said.
"Jake this is your final warning," Jasper threatened.
"Can it deaf boy! The restraining order is up," Jake sagte as I almost fell to the ground.
Jake turned around and walked out the door. I never ran so fast to my bedroom before. I got there and locked the door behind me. I went to the window and watched Jake leave.
I started crying. The fear of standing in front of him washed over me and I broke down. I slid to the floor and wrapped my arms around my legs. I was sobbing.
I felt someone touch me and I screamed in defense.
"Shh, it's just Jasper," he said.
I felt his arm wickeln, wickeln sie all the way around me and I just sat there crying.