Three Weeks Later

Cuddy

When's he going to make a move? Do something, anything to acknowledge what he did. I can't believe he hasn't sagte a thing, not even a mention of the schreibtisch to rub in my face his genious, his brilliance.

But there has been those looks, the smouldering looks he sent your way with those blue blue eyes. He's confused, he's Lost and he doesn't know what he did wrong. Du need to tell him, talk to him, Zeigen him.

Why do I feel like I'm repeating myself? Oh wait, I am. He screwed it up, he has to fix it.

Stop being a broken record. Stop sulking. Stop dancing around the issue, stop dancing around him. Talk. To. Him.

I can't. It's too hard. Too much of a chance that he will go all 'House-ish' on me and do something juvenile-

Because he's scared too. He's been hurt in the past-

And so have I , but Du don't see me hiding away.

Yeah, Du do. What are Du doing now if it's not hiding from him?

I need to get the status quo back.

Do Du really want it to go back to what it was before? Du can't deny that the KISS was what Du wanted and Du defianately want Mehr of it, Mehr of him. Why are Du trying so hard to fight against this? Did Du really expect him to mention it in conversaation? He will have been so chuffed with himslef for giving it to Du nad now he will be so confused because Du haven't sagte a word about it, he was expecting Du to thank him, say something at least, not just ignore it. He probably thinks Du don't care about it.

He's pushing harder against it, pushing me away, trying to ignore what he did.

Yeah, because he doesn't know how he messed it up, he doesn't know why Du haven't spoken to him about the schreibtisch and it had to killing him not knowing. Du know him, he won't know what's going on and he will push Du harder if Du keep ignoring it.

He may be a bit slow when it comes to feelings, but he's not an idiot, he must know how I feel. Besides he wouldn't have gegeben me the schreibtisch if he didn't know what it would Zeigen me and how it would make me feel. I can't believe he hasn't mentioned it, not even in one of his sarcastic Kommentare oder anything.

No, but he won't. Maybe he doesn't think Du know it's from him. Maybe he thinks Du changed your mind. The schreibtisch was his way of putting himself out there and Du not saying anything about ut has to be killing him.

Then why doesn't he say somethiny, anything.

He may not have sagte anything, but Du can't deny that you've seen the confused and slightly wounded looks he's sent your way when he thought nobody - including you- could see. He doesn't get what he did wrong and now he's too proud and too afraid ro push vorwärts-, nach vorn agan. Too scared to mention it in case it meant nothing to you, in case he means nothing to you.

He knows he means something to me, he has to know what the schreibtisch says. He will have thought it all through before he gave it to me so he would know how I would feel.

Exactly. But who are Du kidding, he's a man, and not just a man, he's Greg-blooming-House, of course he has no idea what you're feeling!

I told him I liked him.

Not in so many words, and he's damaged goods, he doesn't believe anyone could care for him, he wants to but he can't. So now he's probably wondering if Du do care for him at all because Du didn't mention the schreibtisch at all.

It's still his move. He'll figure it out.

But what if he doesn't? What if he decides Du must not care about him and leaves things as they are? Then you're screwed. He doesn't know what's going on, his looks tell Du that, with his emotions flitting across his baby blues for a milisecond before his barriers go up and he blocks himself off from the rest of the world, from you. He thinks Du don't like him oder his gesture and he may give up.

House is not one to give up, on anything.

He's scared, doesn't want to put himself out there again if he thinks Du won't even acknowledge it.

He doesn't know I saw him, but he must know I like the desk, surely he does. I know he's scared, but I am too. I don't want to put myself out there and get hurt again if he pulls another of his childish stunts like the boog-grab.

But won't a little bit of fear, a little bit of hurt be worth it? Du both need to make a move, oder Du need to force him to.

What if he's changed his mind? What if I make a complete fool of myself? He won't take me seriously again if I screw it up.

Not a chance that he's changed his ind, you've seen the way he looks at you. He wants it just as much as Du do. He just doesn't know what he did wrong so he doesn't know how to fix it.

What if he says no oder rejects me oder does something stupid oder sarcastic?

He won't say no, he likes you, Du know he does. He just doesn't know how to say it. He's mean old Doctor House, he doesn't know how to say it to make Du believe it and still be himself. And if you're really honest with yourself, Du Liebe it when he acts all stupid, Du Liebe his own brand of humour - even if it does piss Du off sometimes (ok a lot).

I suppose I do. It's not like I expect him to dusche me with Blumen and declare his feelings to a room of people, I just want (and need) to hear him say it.

Well, what are Du still cowering in here for then? Go get him.

And say what? "I'm in Liebe with you, now tell me how Du feel"?

You know he loves it when Du stand up to him. Challenge him, give him no other option-

Yeah, Because that worked SO well the last time.

Don't slink around the subject, don't suggest things, tell him straight out. Don't give him an ultimatum, just tell him Du saw him with the hooker, tell him how it made Du feel. Don't go too sappy on him, but tell him bluntly and see what he does.

But -

No buts missy, go and get him.

'"My inner voice is starting to sound like Wilson." Cuddy mummbled as she grabbed her mantel on the way out of her office. She was heading to House's appartment - it was after 6 and he had no case, so there was no chance of him being in the hospital.