It had been a Monat since the drama concerning Cuddy occurred at PPTH. Things were settled and calmed down. But the sadness still remained. It was clear, to everyone, that things would soon change at the PPTH, once she's gone. And this hurt the faculty and staff, very deeply. Cuddy, had been a hard working, and determined boss, for all of them. As Dean of Medicine and the hospital administrator, she did her best, for not only the sake of the patients, but for her employees. At her departure, many would be grieving. In fact, despite her presence now, many are. And some, Mehr so than others.
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House hadn't been staying at Cuddy's for quite some time. He insisted on staying at his rightful place in his apartment. Some days, he wouldn't Zeigen up. No one would hear from him for a whole day, and sometimes, maybe even two. Other days, he would come back--but he wasn't really there. However, he showed up eventually. After Cuddy had gegeben him a whole lecture about his obligations at the moment. And he listened without his own consent. He listened not because he wanted to oder because he had to. He did it because it was what she wanted.
Wilson and House were eating lunch at a later time that day. Little conversation was held between the two from the very start of their lunch. As time progressed, and nurses and doctors had left, soon enough, barely anyone was there. Then, their conversation grew to it's extent.
"You're too quiet today. Something on your mind?"
"Yeah, the approaching death of my girlfriend."
Wilson scrunched his face and then shook no. He grabbed a napkin from a dispenser on their tabelle and wiped his mouth, crumpled it and threw it aside, then cleared his throat.
"Something's bothering you. Besides that. Something, past the dying thing. It's about Cuddy, but not about the cancer."
House shifted himself further into the booth and moved his legs up onto the sitz to rest them both. He laid his elbow down on the table, and rested his head on his clenched fist. He looked away from Wilson, and popped in to both their surprise, a vicodin.
"Where did Du get that?"
"Old."
"Why are Du back on it?"
"Too many to tell. Just relax. I take two a day, tops."
Wilson looked away and continued to try to find, meaning and reason in House.
"What am I supposed to do." he sagte blankly.
"What?"
"What do I do, when she's gone."
Wilson's face turned curious. His mouth dangled open, without words and without sound. Eventually, he managed to throw out some words.
"You--well. Du saw me when Amber died."
"First of all, I'm not you. Sekunde of all, Du had me to hündin at, cause it was partially my fault--"
"No it wasn't."
"Third--she didn't die of a terminal illness."
"Well, all that, with the exception of the Sekunde one, is true. But--you will do most of the things I did. For a while, Du won't be able to fully grasp it. It'll feel, surreal. And then, you'll get angry. With yourself, and everyone else around you. And then, after a while Du will face the longest and most painful stage of grief. The depression. It will hurt and Du will refuse to do anything. After a while, you'll see the light and--you'll accept it. All of it. And Du will, Du will Bewegen on."
House turned to face Wilson. He had a half grin on his face and closed his eyes. Wilson didn't understand.
"I've been through denial. I've been through anger. I've done the bargaining. I am depression. But I'm sure as hell not going to acceptance."
"House--despite the fact that Du are, well you, Du aren't deprived of everything and anything everyone else goes through. Eventually you're going to have to accept this--"
"No. She might have. Du will also. Same goes for probably, everyone else. Not me."
"You just have to give it time."
"Time. That word scares the hell out of me."
"Doesn't it?"
Suddenly the tabelle started vibrating. House and Wilson's phones had gone off, simultaneously. Each receiving a text message. Both read:
Cuddy:
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Help - my office.
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3:35pm Tues, June 12
Both of them looked at each other and practically sprinted out of there. This was no ordinary cry for help. If it was some type of help for her office, oder for clinic duty oder anything beneficial to the hospital, oder anything concerning patients, she would've called. But this was a real cry for help - related to her current condition.
Within less than one minute
They had rushed out and threw open the doors to the clinic as bystanders gawked at them as they hurriedly made their way into her office. They found her collapsed on her knees, coughing up blood on the floor. Both of them rushed to her side. As House helped her off the floor and onto the couch, Wilson tried cleaning up the blood. He rushed into the bathroom and grabbed paper towel to wipe down the carpet, and to wipe her face. House was trying to calm her cough attack, as they sat together on the couch. Her coughs continued but the blood had stopped. House knelt down on the floor in front of her as Wilson went to sit Von her on the couch. He glanced up at him, as he took a hard swallow.
"Think it's about time we should admit her huh?"
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House hadn't been staying at Cuddy's for quite some time. He insisted on staying at his rightful place in his apartment. Some days, he wouldn't Zeigen up. No one would hear from him for a whole day, and sometimes, maybe even two. Other days, he would come back--but he wasn't really there. However, he showed up eventually. After Cuddy had gegeben him a whole lecture about his obligations at the moment. And he listened without his own consent. He listened not because he wanted to oder because he had to. He did it because it was what she wanted.
Wilson and House were eating lunch at a later time that day. Little conversation was held between the two from the very start of their lunch. As time progressed, and nurses and doctors had left, soon enough, barely anyone was there. Then, their conversation grew to it's extent.
"You're too quiet today. Something on your mind?"
"Yeah, the approaching death of my girlfriend."
Wilson scrunched his face and then shook no. He grabbed a napkin from a dispenser on their tabelle and wiped his mouth, crumpled it and threw it aside, then cleared his throat.
"Something's bothering you. Besides that. Something, past the dying thing. It's about Cuddy, but not about the cancer."
House shifted himself further into the booth and moved his legs up onto the sitz to rest them both. He laid his elbow down on the table, and rested his head on his clenched fist. He looked away from Wilson, and popped in to both their surprise, a vicodin.
"Where did Du get that?"
"Old."
"Why are Du back on it?"
"Too many to tell. Just relax. I take two a day, tops."
Wilson looked away and continued to try to find, meaning and reason in House.
"What am I supposed to do." he sagte blankly.
"What?"
"What do I do, when she's gone."
Wilson's face turned curious. His mouth dangled open, without words and without sound. Eventually, he managed to throw out some words.
"You--well. Du saw me when Amber died."
"First of all, I'm not you. Sekunde of all, Du had me to hündin at, cause it was partially my fault--"
"No it wasn't."
"Third--she didn't die of a terminal illness."
"Well, all that, with the exception of the Sekunde one, is true. But--you will do most of the things I did. For a while, Du won't be able to fully grasp it. It'll feel, surreal. And then, you'll get angry. With yourself, and everyone else around you. And then, after a while Du will face the longest and most painful stage of grief. The depression. It will hurt and Du will refuse to do anything. After a while, you'll see the light and--you'll accept it. All of it. And Du will, Du will Bewegen on."
House turned to face Wilson. He had a half grin on his face and closed his eyes. Wilson didn't understand.
"I've been through denial. I've been through anger. I've done the bargaining. I am depression. But I'm sure as hell not going to acceptance."
"House--despite the fact that Du are, well you, Du aren't deprived of everything and anything everyone else goes through. Eventually you're going to have to accept this--"
"No. She might have. Du will also. Same goes for probably, everyone else. Not me."
"You just have to give it time."
"Time. That word scares the hell out of me."
"Doesn't it?"
Suddenly the tabelle started vibrating. House and Wilson's phones had gone off, simultaneously. Each receiving a text message. Both read:
Cuddy:
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Help - my office.
===================
3:35pm Tues, June 12
Both of them looked at each other and practically sprinted out of there. This was no ordinary cry for help. If it was some type of help for her office, oder for clinic duty oder anything beneficial to the hospital, oder anything concerning patients, she would've called. But this was a real cry for help - related to her current condition.
Within less than one minute
They had rushed out and threw open the doors to the clinic as bystanders gawked at them as they hurriedly made their way into her office. They found her collapsed on her knees, coughing up blood on the floor. Both of them rushed to her side. As House helped her off the floor and onto the couch, Wilson tried cleaning up the blood. He rushed into the bathroom and grabbed paper towel to wipe down the carpet, and to wipe her face. House was trying to calm her cough attack, as they sat together on the couch. Her coughs continued but the blood had stopped. House knelt down on the floor in front of her as Wilson went to sit Von her on the couch. He glanced up at him, as he took a hard swallow.
"Think it's about time we should admit her huh?"
When does Liebe become something we need, rather than something we want? Liebe was seen as something special a long time ago. Now Liebe is what we are expected to have with us everyday of our lives. Liebe is common currency when Du are a teenager, but turns to worthless pennies the older Du get. Do we not care about the substance of what Liebe was and not what it has been made into today Von commercialisation from American Filme and Fernsehen commercials and soap operas? Only when we experience Liebe for real, can we Kommentar and judge others who are in Love. Liebe means something different to everyone. Not two people’s feeling of Liebe is the same. Why do we generalize, rationalize and compartmentalize Love? Liebe is and will continue to be an enigma. Only a handful of people will ever unlock it and witness its true beauty and essence. The essence we all crave.
Love.
Love.