The Mess that is Chuck Bass~ Chapter 5

Chuck sank down on the bed, while he tried to digest what Blair has just sagte to him. “You really do Liebe me?” He asked in a quiet voice, not yet quite believing her admission of Liebe for him.
She sat down Weiter to him. “Yes Chuck, I really do Liebe you. How could Du not know?”
He groaned and ran his fingers through his hair. “I don’t know, Blair. I guess I figured that I would always come in Sekunde to Nathaniel. He’s the one Du always chased, not me.”
Blair took his hand in her own, and rubbed his callused knuckles. “That was before, Chuck. I did Liebe Nate, but my Liebe for Du is so much Mehr than it was with Nate. I can’t compare it, because Du mean so much Mehr to me. You’re my true love, Chuck. Du always will be.”
Chuck raised his head and looked at her hopefully. “Really?”
She smiled at him. “I’m one hundred percent serious. I Liebe Du so much, and it hurts me to see Du in so much pain. I just want to try and make it better.”
They shared a look of understanding, and he put his arm around Blair and pulled her to his chest. She snuggled into him.
“I know you’re trying to help me, Blair.” Chuck began. “But I don’t think Du realize how much pain I’m in. Bart was a bastard, but it just doesn’t feel right without him here. I’m broken inside, Blair.”
She looked at Chuck’s vacant eyes, and felt her herz break for him. “You’re not going to be broken forever, Chuck. I know it’s hard right now, but slowly we’ll make it better. I have no idea what you’re going through, because nothing like this has ever happened to me. I’ll make Du a promise though Chuck. If it’s the last thing I ever do, I am going to make Du feel whole and alive again.”
He bolted up from the bett and began pacing around the room. “I don’t think Du can. This is just so fucking hard! I don’t want to involve Du in this. Just go back to New York.”
Blair closed her eyes and groaned. He was shutting her out again. She looked at him and saw the grief on his race, and that made her want to fight for him even more. “I’m already involved, Chuck. I am not going to let Du go through this alone.” She got up and wrapped her arms around his waist.
Chuck quickly moved away from her. “I can’t do this right now, Blair. I just can’t.”
She heard the raw pain in his voice, and knew she had to back off for now. Blair nodded. “Alright. I know it’s going to take some time before Du let me in. I’ll leave Du alone for a while. But if Du need me, Du know I’m just a phone call away.”
She turned to leave, but Chuck grabbed her arm. “Thank you.” He whispered gravely.
“You’re welcome.” Blair kissed the oben, nach oben of his head and left.

XOXO
She had left him alone for six days now, but she Blair was getting desperate to see him now. She had wanted to give him some time away from herself, so he could assimilate everything that she had told him. She planned on going to see Chuck tomorrow, Blair just hoped that when he saw her this time he would be Mehr agreeable towards her.
She had sat, stewing in her hotel room for the past week, but Blair decided she was going to go out today and make a fun Tag of it. So she decided to do a little sightseeing. That’s what France is for anyways, right?
Blair went to a few museums, visited the Eiffel Tower, had lunch at a bistro, and visited one of the most famous churches in France. Von all accounts it should have been a marvelous day. But Blair didn’t enjoy herself; she was too busy thinking about Chuck. Even when she didn’t want to think about him, he dominated her thoughts.
She walked back to her hotel, while thinking about how miserable she was without Chuck. She wished he would have called her, but if there was one thing she knew about Chuck it was that he didn’t tell anyone how he was feeling.

XOXO
She entered his room the Weiter Tag in the late afternoon, only to find that he was nowhere to be seen. Blair sat down in his schreibtisch chair, planning on waiting until he returned. Two hours later and he still had not returned. Blair started feeling a little nervous and hoped with all of her might that he was not buying drugs oder a hooker for the night.
Another Stunde passed until he finally walked through the door. He saw Blair and mumbled, “Blair? What are Du still doing here? I thought Du went back to New York.”
Her face scrunched up. “New York? I told Du that I wasn’t going back without Du and I meant it. Where were Du just now?”
Chuck shut the door to his room and took a sitz on the bed. “I was taking a long walk. I’ve been doing that a lot lately, just trying to escape from everything. And I figured that Du went back to New York, because I haven’t seen Du in days.” He said, his tone sounding slightly hurt.
Blair looked at him carefully, and decided that he looked a little better since the last time she had seen him. Although he still looked very fragile, like he could come apart and snap at any moment. She went to sit Weiter to him on the bed, and Chuck scooted over making room for her.
“Of course I wouldn’t just leave, Chuck. I thought that Du wanted me to give Du some time alone, so that’s what I did. Du didn’t think I would give up on Du that easily, did you?”
Chuck sagte nothing; he just looked at her with his grief stricken eyes. She moved even closer to him, and laid her head on his shoulder. “Chuck, I need Du to confide in me. Tell me how you’re feeling, so I can help you.”
At her words, Chuck moved away from her and buried his head in his hands. “I can’t, Blair. I just don’t know how too.”His voice broke.
Blair rubbed his shoulder until she saw him look at her. She saw the unshed tears in his eyes. “I’ll go first. I’ll tell Du something that I never even told Serena.”
He swallowed nervously. He was very anxious to hear what Blair was about to tell him.
Blair sighed. “This is very hard for me to say. I just want Du to know how much I believe in Du Chuck, and that’s why I’m telling Du this.” She took another deep breath before continuing. “The worst Tag of my life was when I found out my parents were getting a divorce. I know people’s parents get divorced all the time, but it just destroyed me. Things like that aren’t supposed to happen to Blair Waldorf. But it did, and I can’t change that. It was horrible when I found out that my father was in Liebe with a model. A male model.” She laughed bitterly at this. “I’m a little ashamed to admit this, but I’ve always favored my father over my mother. She’s just so cold, while dad is warm and loving.”
Blair felt tears running down her face at the memories of this, while Chuck was unconsciously rubbing her neck. He was trying to comfort her, when she was the one that was supposed to be there for him.
She continued. “This is the part that nobody knows, well except for Du now. I went to my father and begged him not to leave us. I asked him to pick me over Roman. He didn’t. I guess he just didn’t Liebe me enough. I pleaded with him for days, but he still left with Roman. And to this Tag it still breaks my herz that he did this to me.”
Blair glanced up at Chuck and saw that he was staring at her with quiet intensity. He was still rubbing her neck, dragging his thumb over the pulse point. “You father loves you, Blair. How could anybody not Liebe you? I want Du to know how much it means to me that Du told me this, when you’ve never told anyone else. Thank you.”
Blair smiled at him, tears still running down her face. She wiped them away. “Thank Du for saying that, Chuck.” She ran her hand up his thigh. “Are Du going to tell me something now?” Blair asked, praying that he would.
Chuck stared at her hand on his thigh, and placed his own hand over hers. He sighed deeply. “Yes, Blair. I’m going to tell Du something.”
She waited patiently for whatever he was going to tell her. Chuck looked around the room, trying to will himself to tell Blair this. His eyes landed on a blume pot, and he chose to speak to this instead of directly at Blair.
He took several deep breaths and waited for the anger to stop rolling around in his stomach. Then he began. “I know Bart’s always hated me. I’m not the son he’s expected.”
Blair interrupted him. “That’s not true, Chuck.”
He shot her an annoyed look. “It is true. Will Du let me just tell Du first before Du interrupt me?” When she didn’t say anything else on the matter, Chuck continued. “Bart tried to mold me into the perfect son because I didn’t meet his standards. He wasn’t pleased with who I had become. He told me on Mehr than one occasion, that all I would ever amount to is a womanizing, drunken slacker.”
Blair gasped at the hateful words that Bart had told his own son. She had to bite her lip from saying anything. She had promised him though; that she would wait until he was finished before she voiced her opinion. Blair moved even closer to him on the bed, and laid her head on his shoulder. He stiffened when he felt this, but the Chuck wrapped his arm around her waist anyways.
“Bart and I have never really gotten along. But when Lily told me that he was dead, the pain just coursed its way through my body. Pain like I had never felt before. Something in me died with him that night. He’s gone forever Blair, and I’m never going to be able to see him again. Just too even talk to him.” His voice broke, and tears started pouring out of his eyes. Chuck’s arm tightened around Blair’s waist. “I never got to say goodbye to him. All I ever wanted from Bart was his approval and he never gave it to me. Now it’s too late. I loved him and it kills me that he didn’t Liebe me. Never. In fact you’re the first person that has ever told me that they Liebe me. Bart sure as hell never did.”
When he stopped speaking, Blair got up and bent down in between his knees. She wiped away his tears with the pad of her thumb. “
“I can’t tell Du how happy I am that Du just shared something so personal with me. I can’t even imagine how hard that was to tell me. But you’ve got to listen to me, Chuck. Your father did Liebe you.”
Chuck immediately shook his head, but she placed a hand underneath his chin to get him to stop. They looked deeply into each other’s eyes, before she continued.
“Don’t tell me he didn’t, because I know he did. Maybe not how a father should Liebe his son, but Bart loved Du none the less. I know this for a fact because it’s how my mother loves me. The typical upper east side parent. Cold, calculating, and they Zeigen absolutely no emotion. They think they have to be like that so they can strengthen us for the real world. Well that’s how your father was and how my mother is.”Blair glanced at him, and saw that his tears had stopped. “Maybe we’re not so different from each other after all, Chuck. And Du sagte that nobody has ever told Du that they loved Du before. Well Du better get used to those words because you’re going to be hearing them a lot. I Liebe you, Chuck Bass.” Blair finished.
Suddenly she was hauled off her feet as Chuck stood up. He wrapped her in a hug so tight that she could barely breathe. But Blair didn’t care because he had never shown any emotion like this towards her before. She hugged him back tightly, rubbing his back in a soothing gesture. They didn’t speak because words are not necessary at a time like this.
When they finally broke apart, Chuck stared down at the carpet. He looked ashamed of his momentary lapse in not Wird angezeigt any emotion towards her. But then he looked at Blair, and he knew that eventually everything would be alright. So Chuck asked her the question, of what he had wanted to do since he first saw her again.
“I can’t stay in this room another minute, it’s suffocating being in here. I’ve got to get out. Do Du want to go have abendessen with me?”

To Be Continued…

A/N: Well here is the latest chapter; I hope Du liked the latest installment. . I’m pretty happy with this chapter. Chuck is somewhat on the road to recovery, all thanks to Blair. So do Du like this story? If Du are, I’ve got to ask Du to review. Thanks. Until the Weiter chapter.
~Sam~