I'm so tired f being depressed. I didn't know why it started at first. In Ninth grade I started having this constant feeling inside and I didn't know what it was but, now I do. I have since 10th grade started. Life is so hard when you've been diagnosed with seve deepression and Du already knew Du have it. It's hard when people accuse Du of doing oder being something your not. It's hard when people judge Du silently from afar oder straight to your face. I don't cut bullshit like this though. When petty jerks give yoou ahard time just ignore them, I've learned that. I was bullied for 7 and a half years straight and it was BAD. And, now I'm insecure and give myself a hard time. I'm constantly beating myself up about my art, my body, my face, my hair, my grades, my idiocy, and just everything. I'm trying to get better I really am and if anything Musik helps me escape from reality. That's why I constantly have earbuds in my ears oder wearing headphones. I can connect to the Musik that I lisen to like 'When she cries' oder 'Welcome to my life'. The Liste is endless but, the thing is that so is my pain. No matter how hard I try it always come back. I can go a week and a half without being depressed and then it comes crashing back in like an unwanted guest. Forgive me for ranting but, I need to get this off my ches. I'm so glad that I can finally cry and release all the pain. I've been bottling it up for too long. The Friends surrounding me either do oder don't know about this. Some know I'm depressed some don't. But, either way only one comforts me and I don't see her often. My great-grandmother thinks I do it for attention and my mom has too many problems of her own so, I don't bother her about it.The thing is, is that I just need to get this out. My chest can't take it anymore and neither can I myself in whole. It feels nice to get it all out. Like, the fact that i used to be anorexic as well... twice that is I was in 7th grade for a short while and then I also was in Sekunde semester of 10th grade. My best friend tried to make me at and my other Friends were concerned as well. At least the ones that knew. My other best friend still doesn't know I was. Anyways, there are somethings that I am ashamed of. I'm just so gld to get this off my chest and for anyone else suffering with depression oder any other disorders oder problems, stay strong. Du ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE. Don't let anyone get to Du including yourself. Be brave. Be strong. And remember to keep on living. Du are woth it and NOBODY deserves to go through the shit I have. Bullying, abuse, threats, none of that. Also, if Du have severe anxiety disorder like me oder are just stressed in general. Keep staying strong and don't give into the stress. If your insecure like me look in the mirror and look at yourself flaws and all and say "This is me and I Liebe myself." even if Du don't think so because, trust me when I say "You are perfect just the way Du are." If Du are gay, bi, trans oder anything else like that and Du still haven't come out. Stay strong and know Du are PERFECT just the way Du are. Du are a human being just like everyone else and, no matter how much hate people give Du embrace yourself and be proud of who Du are. I am bi and I am proud. Also, for the bi people who are being told "Your either gay oder straight. Du can't like both." Don't listen to that bullshit. They don't know how Du feel. Don't let them get to you. To the gay people who are being told,"You chose this and your going to burn in hell." Don't listen to them. For ANYONE going through this oder any other bullshit. Remember Du are better than the ones judging Du and that Du are BEAUTIFUL and PERFECT just the way Du are. I hope that I helped someone Von saying that and I've realized that I WILL BE OKAY after this dark tunnel in life that I'm going through. I just want it to all be over soon. The pain that is. I'm tired of hating myself and feeling so alone. But, I'll make it and so will you.

Stay true to who Du are. Peace out <3<3<3