Kiley Long
February 19th, 2006
I’m on the plane with Bella. She needs to sleep but I can’t get her too. She is off in her own little world right now so I am writing. I am so upset with Rosalie. Mehr then I was with Bella when I thought she killed herself. Okay, time to tell Du the worst part of this whole nightmare.
Charlie woke up and came down stairs. He was cooking breakfast for me and him while we talked about what Bella went through… once the Cullens left. I feel so bad about all of it. Charlie had to sit back and watch his daughter completely fall apart. I know she is his world, even though he doesn’t say it. He was so scared to ask if Edward was back, too. His face lit up once I explained to him that it’s only me who’s back - and only for a little bit.
We’re both scared of what it is going to do to Bella once I leave again. As the Tag progressed Charlie left to go to La Push to be with his friend Harry’s family for the funeral. After a short while everything for the Tag went completely blank. Like I couldn’t see anything at all …period. Then I heard car tires on gravel. Someone was here. It was the werewolf.
I told Bella I was going to step out for a little bit. Jacob came in the front door and I took off out the window. I waited for a little bit. I heard the phone ring and then I saw in a vision what I feared most of all.
Rosalie told Edward that Bella killed herself (I knew I should have called Jasper). Edward had called to double check and when Jacob answered the phone and told him that Charlie was at a funeral, Edward Lost it. All I saw was Edward going to the Volturi and asking to be killed. He won’t live in this world without Bella. I don’t know how to even explain this to her.
I ran inside as fast as I could and told her what I saw. Jacob was shaking from head to toe. I told Bella we needed to leave right that Sekunde in order to have a chance at beaing Edward to the Volturi. We rushed as fast as we possibly could at her human pace and with Jacob interjecting every so often to beg her to stay for him, for Charlie, and lots of other things.
We made it to the airport just in time to catch the flight to Italy. Bella is squirming in her chair. I think it’s because I promised her that in the end of all of this if we all survive that I will change her. I don’t know what the big deal is. Edward doesn’t want her to change, but I know she is going to be changed…by who, I have no idea. But still. She made me promise that I would. I told her I don’t know if I can handle it myself, but she sagte she has faith in me. All I know right now for certain…is I had to lie to Jasper while explaining to him what happened. I had to lie to him and tell him I would be back. That I couldn’t wait to see him again. I couldn’t tell him the truth and let him know that there is a chance I won’t be back. I don’t want him risking his life for me. I Liebe him too much.
We will be landing in the Weiter couple of minutes. I don’t know how Bella feels about grand theft auto, but I have a feeling that right now she won’t mind. We have to get to Volterra. Oddly, today of all days. The celebration of Vampire being kicked out of the city. Ironic? I think not. Edward is sometimes too smart for his own good.
