Help Please

I have lived with my parents for 14 years now and I feel like they don't understand me at all. They are always trying to change me into someone I'm not. My mum in particular. Just then she went off at me for 4 things in a row. I recently decided not to starve myself to death because I Liebe my Friends and pets too much. My mum gets angry so easily and she doesn't seem to like me at all. She has called me fat to my face and behind my back. I know I'm overweight but no one has ever Kommentiert on it ever. Sometimes I forget I'm over weight because they treat me like I'm a princess. That's pretty sick that my own mother is the only one that has ever Kommentiert on my weight.

She also doesn't understand my Liebe for horse riding. In fact if it wasn't for my dad I would never have been able to involve myself with horses. She doesn't care where I'm up to with my dad and she never listens when I talk to her about how high I'm jumping oder how happy I am about the horse I just got. My dad knows how good I am though and he is constantly paying for extra lessens and entering me in things so I can improve.

One time I nearly committed suicide after my mum went off at me for about 10 things in one day. The only thing that saved me was the fact that I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't trust her with looking after my cat and Pferde because she absolutely hates my cat and doesn't care about my horses.

Whenever I try to talk to her about a problem I'm having with my friend she just rolls her eyes and walks off. She also wants me to go to boarding school. I don't know how much longer I can go on living around her. She is always on my back about anything and everything and always going on about how much I apparently hate her. She also seems to think that everything I do is for attention when it's the opposite, I don't want her attention at all.

She is so unaware of my feelings and doesn't know that I cry and cut every time she pushes me over the edge. The only reason I am st