Hey this is the l;atest chapter to the story, it is set when Nessie isfive months pregnant...x Hope Du enjoy and keep your eys peeled for the Weiter chapter...x
Amber/Twilightsauce
I slipped mums wedding dress over my head, it fitted perfectly. Mum smiled and sighed as she wiped a joyous tear from my eye.
“Don’t cry baby, Alice will kill us if Du ruin your makeup she has spent all morning getting Du ready.” She laughed looking at me with a delighted expression on her face,
“Oh mum! I am so happy; Jake is waiting down there for me isn’t he?” I asked nervously. I had felt a little queasy all morning and now that I was alone with mum whilst my other bridesmaids (Alice, Rosalie, Kate who was back from her honeymoon, Tanya, Esme, Carmen and Mum) got ready I started to feel even Mehr nervous without having to do anything like hold still oder look left. Esme was my maid of honor and I know it might sound weird but aside from mum she was one of my best friends.
My baby was growing at a normal rate and I now had a visible bump coming out of my stomach. Alice had made a few adjustments to the dress but now it fitted as if it was custom made. Alice bustled back into the room and shoved a bouquet in my hand.
“It’s time Nessie,” mum whispered as dad came into the room.
“Renesmee Du look, amazing” he whispered his face shining.
The bridesmaids were already waltzing down the stairs as dad pulled my arm through his. I looked past the decorations and the rows and rows of beaming guests until I found Jake my beautiful Jake his eyes lighting up, a huge smile spread across his face. I didn’t take my eyes of Jake but whispered to dad,
“Dad, thank you- for everything.”
“My Nessie, I am always here for you, never forget that. When your mother had Du I made a promise never to fail either of you, never to let Du down. Nessie, this baby seems fine now but what if it hurts you, Jake won’t say anything but I know he is worried about you.”
“Dad, don’t worry I will be fine. I promise. Du will always be my dad and I will always be your daughter, forever and always.” I whispered, Mehr tears sliding down my cheeks. We stopped when we reached the altar, I reached up to KISS my dads cheek and put his hand on mine, and he then put my hands in Jakes and went to sit Von mum.
I turned to look at Jake, soon to become mine forever.
The vows rushed past and alike mum and dad we had changed the line, ‘till death we do part’ to ‘for as long as we both shall live’.
When it was my turn to say I do, I looked up into Jakes eyes and reached up to touch his cheek,
“I do,” my voice was loud and clear despite the tears rolling down my face,
I do,” Jakes voice repeated after me, before I could say anything Jake took my face into his hands and we kissed. The KISS was unlike any other, it was symbolic. We were unbreakable our bond was too strong.
When we reached the outside dance floor we were greeted Von hugs and congratulations. Mum was sobbing tearlessly as she hugged me first, followed Von dad, then Esme and on it went until I had been passed around the crowd, clutching onto Jacob for the whole time. The Musik started then and Jake led me onto the dance floor for the customary first dance.
“I Liebe you, Jake.”
“I Liebe you, Renesmee Carlie Cullen, my true love.”
“My true love,” I repeated smiling,
“Did I tell Du that Du look absolutely amazing tonight?”
I buried my head in his shoulder as we slowly waltzed around the dance floor, when the Musik changed I felt the crowd melt onto the dance floor. We danced for ages until dad tapped on Jakes shoulder,
“May I?” he asked smiling,
“Of course,” Jake replied as he kissed my cheek and wandered over to where Bella was talking with Tanya.
Dad was a fabulous dancer but I had inherited mums dancing skills so we just stayed in a small part of the dance floor.
“Dad, I really am happy tonight.” I whispered looking up into his topaz eyes.
“I know Du are Nessie and that is why I am. Du remind me so much of your mother,” he paused as I smiled, “you are kind and generous and so beautiful. Nessie Du know that we will always be here for you, your whole family.”
“I know dad,” I whispered, the emotion saturating my voice. The Musik came to an end and Jasper took dads place as he went of to find mum.
“Hey Jasper,”
“Hey Nessie, Du look amazing tonight,”
“Thanks, Alice did it; Du know what she’s like,”
Jasper chuckled; it was easy to talk around him. He was kind, funny and we got along.
“We are all here for Du Nessie for all of you, all three of you.”
“What has dad been saying to you?” I asked, a smirk in my voice,
“No seriously Nessie, we are all backing you,”
“Thank you, all of you. Du better get back to Alice, she looks bored.”
“Yes I should, congratulations Nessie.”
Before I could reply Jasper was gone and I was dancing with Emmet. I was sure that I was to spend the Weiter Stunde dancing with people who were not Jake, the person I most wanted to be with.
When I was finally back with Jake my smile was radiant, huge.
“So, Mrs. Renesmee Carlie Cullen-Black,” I shivered with happiness as he sagte my new name, “have Du enjoyed yourself today?”
“Well let’s see, I got married to the Liebe of my life, we are going to have a baby in our months and I am surrounded Von the ones I love, yeah just a average boring day.” I laughed Küssen him as cameras flashed- no doubted mum, Esme and Rosalie.
“What if I told Du that I could make it even better,” he whispered into my ear as we danced.
“Is that possible?”
“A wedding is never a wedding without a honeymoon…” he trailed of leaving me to guess the rest,
“Were going on a honeymoon, for real? Who else knew about this?”
“Oh just a few people,” he grinned putting his hands up,
“Thank Du Jake, it’s going to be perfect.”
“I know it will be,”
“So where are we going?”
“I can’t tell Du but it’s a place I used to visit as a kid, Du will Liebe it,” he whispered.
“I know I will, when are we going?”
“Um, well Alice has wanted Du to get ready an Stunde Vor cos we are supposed to leave in fifteen minutes,” he chuckled at my startled expression.
“I better go and put Alice out of her misery,” I kissed him and slowly walked to the back door as Alice caught up with me. This was going to be the perfect honeymoon.
Amber/Twilightsauce
I slipped mums wedding dress over my head, it fitted perfectly. Mum smiled and sighed as she wiped a joyous tear from my eye.
“Don’t cry baby, Alice will kill us if Du ruin your makeup she has spent all morning getting Du ready.” She laughed looking at me with a delighted expression on her face,
“Oh mum! I am so happy; Jake is waiting down there for me isn’t he?” I asked nervously. I had felt a little queasy all morning and now that I was alone with mum whilst my other bridesmaids (Alice, Rosalie, Kate who was back from her honeymoon, Tanya, Esme, Carmen and Mum) got ready I started to feel even Mehr nervous without having to do anything like hold still oder look left. Esme was my maid of honor and I know it might sound weird but aside from mum she was one of my best friends.
My baby was growing at a normal rate and I now had a visible bump coming out of my stomach. Alice had made a few adjustments to the dress but now it fitted as if it was custom made. Alice bustled back into the room and shoved a bouquet in my hand.
“It’s time Nessie,” mum whispered as dad came into the room.
“Renesmee Du look, amazing” he whispered his face shining.
The bridesmaids were already waltzing down the stairs as dad pulled my arm through his. I looked past the decorations and the rows and rows of beaming guests until I found Jake my beautiful Jake his eyes lighting up, a huge smile spread across his face. I didn’t take my eyes of Jake but whispered to dad,
“Dad, thank you- for everything.”
“My Nessie, I am always here for you, never forget that. When your mother had Du I made a promise never to fail either of you, never to let Du down. Nessie, this baby seems fine now but what if it hurts you, Jake won’t say anything but I know he is worried about you.”
“Dad, don’t worry I will be fine. I promise. Du will always be my dad and I will always be your daughter, forever and always.” I whispered, Mehr tears sliding down my cheeks. We stopped when we reached the altar, I reached up to KISS my dads cheek and put his hand on mine, and he then put my hands in Jakes and went to sit Von mum.
I turned to look at Jake, soon to become mine forever.
The vows rushed past and alike mum and dad we had changed the line, ‘till death we do part’ to ‘for as long as we both shall live’.
When it was my turn to say I do, I looked up into Jakes eyes and reached up to touch his cheek,
“I do,” my voice was loud and clear despite the tears rolling down my face,
I do,” Jakes voice repeated after me, before I could say anything Jake took my face into his hands and we kissed. The KISS was unlike any other, it was symbolic. We were unbreakable our bond was too strong.
When we reached the outside dance floor we were greeted Von hugs and congratulations. Mum was sobbing tearlessly as she hugged me first, followed Von dad, then Esme and on it went until I had been passed around the crowd, clutching onto Jacob for the whole time. The Musik started then and Jake led me onto the dance floor for the customary first dance.
“I Liebe you, Jake.”
“I Liebe you, Renesmee Carlie Cullen, my true love.”
“My true love,” I repeated smiling,
“Did I tell Du that Du look absolutely amazing tonight?”
I buried my head in his shoulder as we slowly waltzed around the dance floor, when the Musik changed I felt the crowd melt onto the dance floor. We danced for ages until dad tapped on Jakes shoulder,
“May I?” he asked smiling,
“Of course,” Jake replied as he kissed my cheek and wandered over to where Bella was talking with Tanya.
Dad was a fabulous dancer but I had inherited mums dancing skills so we just stayed in a small part of the dance floor.
“Dad, I really am happy tonight.” I whispered looking up into his topaz eyes.
“I know Du are Nessie and that is why I am. Du remind me so much of your mother,” he paused as I smiled, “you are kind and generous and so beautiful. Nessie Du know that we will always be here for you, your whole family.”
“I know dad,” I whispered, the emotion saturating my voice. The Musik came to an end and Jasper took dads place as he went of to find mum.
“Hey Jasper,”
“Hey Nessie, Du look amazing tonight,”
“Thanks, Alice did it; Du know what she’s like,”
Jasper chuckled; it was easy to talk around him. He was kind, funny and we got along.
“We are all here for Du Nessie for all of you, all three of you.”
“What has dad been saying to you?” I asked, a smirk in my voice,
“No seriously Nessie, we are all backing you,”
“Thank you, all of you. Du better get back to Alice, she looks bored.”
“Yes I should, congratulations Nessie.”
Before I could reply Jasper was gone and I was dancing with Emmet. I was sure that I was to spend the Weiter Stunde dancing with people who were not Jake, the person I most wanted to be with.
When I was finally back with Jake my smile was radiant, huge.
“So, Mrs. Renesmee Carlie Cullen-Black,” I shivered with happiness as he sagte my new name, “have Du enjoyed yourself today?”
“Well let’s see, I got married to the Liebe of my life, we are going to have a baby in our months and I am surrounded Von the ones I love, yeah just a average boring day.” I laughed Küssen him as cameras flashed- no doubted mum, Esme and Rosalie.
“What if I told Du that I could make it even better,” he whispered into my ear as we danced.
“Is that possible?”
“A wedding is never a wedding without a honeymoon…” he trailed of leaving me to guess the rest,
“Were going on a honeymoon, for real? Who else knew about this?”
“Oh just a few people,” he grinned putting his hands up,
“Thank Du Jake, it’s going to be perfect.”
“I know it will be,”
“So where are we going?”
“I can’t tell Du but it’s a place I used to visit as a kid, Du will Liebe it,” he whispered.
“I know I will, when are we going?”
“Um, well Alice has wanted Du to get ready an Stunde Vor cos we are supposed to leave in fifteen minutes,” he chuckled at my startled expression.
“I better go and put Alice out of her misery,” I kissed him and slowly walked to the back door as Alice caught up with me. This was going to be the perfect honeymoon.
Sobriety is beyond a horizon for you,
One Du won't be alive to even get to.
Your mind is set to be dead in 10
Years, my fears, my tears,
don't matter, your emotionless, here.
My bothersome phone calls,
"I'm just checking in"
"Yeah, I don't care"
I can't ever win.
My eyes are taped open,
horrific Bilder replay,
and even when I close them,
they're imprinted in my mind,
they're there to stay.
Blackness engulfs me,
like a whirlpool of nothing,
Your arch nemesis,
Your pal,
Your meaningless suffering.
Why do Du do this,
to yourself, and to me?
I don't get why Du mess around,
just let yourself be!
One Du won't be alive to even get to.
Your mind is set to be dead in 10
Years, my fears, my tears,
don't matter, your emotionless, here.
My bothersome phone calls,
"I'm just checking in"
"Yeah, I don't care"
I can't ever win.
My eyes are taped open,
horrific Bilder replay,
and even when I close them,
they're imprinted in my mind,
they're there to stay.
Blackness engulfs me,
like a whirlpool of nothing,
Your arch nemesis,
Your pal,
Your meaningless suffering.
Why do Du do this,
to yourself, and to me?
I don't get why Du mess around,
just let yourself be!
I'm sat at home
In my cardboard box
I'm scared to death
So I cuddle my socks
I hear the key turn in the door
Fear swells inside of me
My hope plummets through the floor
I peep outside my little box
In time to see my daddy roar
I'm worried now, I realise
Because he's angry I notice now
That what I'm seeing with swollen eyes
I don't know when I don't know how
It may be the last thing I ever see
This may be the last of me
I see his boots come closer, so I shriek
My bruises hurt Mehr than ever
He picks me up, I feel so weak
He shakes me now and calls me worthless
I just want him to Liebe me
I just want him to know me
But the broken bottle is against my chest
And is thrust through my cotton vest
Into my heart, the pain is fire
I see myself as I float higher
Now my vision is rimmed with darkness
The end is near, I feel its presence
I just wish that I could tell him
I Liebe him, but his Liebe is dim
In my cardboard box
I'm scared to death
So I cuddle my socks
I hear the key turn in the door
Fear swells inside of me
My hope plummets through the floor
I peep outside my little box
In time to see my daddy roar
I'm worried now, I realise
Because he's angry I notice now
That what I'm seeing with swollen eyes
I don't know when I don't know how
It may be the last thing I ever see
This may be the last of me
I see his boots come closer, so I shriek
My bruises hurt Mehr than ever
He picks me up, I feel so weak
He shakes me now and calls me worthless
I just want him to Liebe me
I just want him to know me
But the broken bottle is against my chest
And is thrust through my cotton vest
Into my heart, the pain is fire
I see myself as I float higher
Now my vision is rimmed with darkness
The end is near, I feel its presence
I just wish that I could tell him
I Liebe him, but his Liebe is dim
He gives me sight,
Saves me from evil's bite,
Holds me when I cry,
Always Von my side.
My last breath is taken and gegeben to him,
He saves me from the storm I'm in,
He saves me and calls me his,
Have him when I'm in a crisis.
Jesus is everything.
Everything to me,
Helping me see,
Stealing my heart,
Oh how I hate being apart.
Stand here and be moved Von him,
To feel him in my veins,
To feel him inside of me.
My friend,
My helper,
The great shrink,
I am proud to be part of his link.
Blown away Von his grace,
Blessed Von his mercy,
Oh how he carries.
Holds every tear in his hand,
Wipes away our sorrows,
For a better tomorrow.
Here I phase
Here in my old age
Here I run with no place to go
Here I stand with no purpose
Here I am with no show,
No lights,no cameras,no grace
Here I am with this world having me in it's tight embrace.
But I won't give in.
For God Loved me so.
Here I am in this place,
Here I am just watching the world race.
Watching the world fall apart,
Here I am just waiting for a new start.
As this breaks my heart,
I know I will Mitmachen God's cart,his army,his people and I will live in heaven above.
Here I am asking you,
What will Du do?
Here I am watching Du phase,
Here I am watching Du turn to old age.
With no place to go,
Here I am telling Du don't want to low.
As we change and as we grow,
This world will face judgment,This I know.
Don't turn to old age,
Don't get Lost in the world's maze.
Save Du self.
Don't let yourself phase.......
Here in my old age
Here I run with no place to go
Here I stand with no purpose
Here I am with no show,
No lights,no cameras,no grace
Here I am with this world having me in it's tight embrace.
But I won't give in.
For God Loved me so.
Here I am in this place,
Here I am just watching the world race.
Watching the world fall apart,
Here I am just waiting for a new start.
As this breaks my heart,
I know I will Mitmachen God's cart,his army,his people and I will live in heaven above.
Here I am asking you,
What will Du do?
Here I am watching Du phase,
Here I am watching Du turn to old age.
With no place to go,
Here I am telling Du don't want to low.
As we change and as we grow,
This world will face judgment,This I know.
Don't turn to old age,
Don't get Lost in the world's maze.
Save Du self.
Don't let yourself phase.......