Hey, Daddy.
Look at me
See what a beautiful
young lady I’ve become.
Hey, Daddy.
See how special I am.
See how much I’ve grown.
Hey, Daddy.
Don’t Du see?
How much I want
To please you.
How much I
Truly care.
Hey, Daddy.
Can’t Du see?
How hard I’ve tried.
How much I struggle.
Hey, Daddy.
Don’t Du know?
How much
I crave your love.
Don’t Du know?
How abandoned
I’ve felt.
Hey, Daddy.
Can’t Du sense?
How hesitant
I always have been.
Can’t Du sense?
How I pretend
To be someone else
Just so Du could
Accept me for me.
Hey, Daddy.
Haven’t Du noticed?
How fake I am
Around you.
Can’t Du see?
How much
You’ve hurt me.
Hey, Daddy.
Can Du tell?
That all I want.
That all I need.
Is to know
That your Liebe is true.
Can Du tell?
All I want
All I truly need
Is for all this to be gone.
All this hurt
And all this anger
Never did us any good
Hey Daddy.
Can Du see?
How much this means to me
How much
I need to survive
Look at me
See what a beautiful
young lady I’ve become.
Hey, Daddy.
See how special I am.
See how much I’ve grown.
Hey, Daddy.
Don’t Du see?
How much I want
To please you.
How much I
Truly care.
Hey, Daddy.
Can’t Du see?
How hard I’ve tried.
How much I struggle.
Hey, Daddy.
Don’t Du know?
How much
I crave your love.
Don’t Du know?
How abandoned
I’ve felt.
Hey, Daddy.
Can’t Du sense?
How hesitant
I always have been.
Can’t Du sense?
How I pretend
To be someone else
Just so Du could
Accept me for me.
Hey, Daddy.
Haven’t Du noticed?
How fake I am
Around you.
Can’t Du see?
How much
You’ve hurt me.
Hey, Daddy.
Can Du tell?
That all I want.
That all I need.
Is to know
That your Liebe is true.
Can Du tell?
All I want
All I truly need
Is for all this to be gone.
All this hurt
And all this anger
Never did us any good
Hey Daddy.
Can Du see?
How much this means to me
How much
I need to survive
Water
My only escape
Where for once my arms that are too pale and scrawny bend perfectly
Where I feel perfect
This is where my spirit will stay
When my body turns grey and dies away
Water
Where my legs that are too chubby oder fat kick so strong
I feel perfect
This is the place my spirit will stay
When my body turns grey and dies away
Water
Where pain only makes me only go faster
Better
Prettier
Perfectly
Water
Where my face that's not pretty in never seen
Hidden in waves that make me feel free
This is the place my spirit will stay
When my body turns grey and dies away
Water
When I used to stab myself with needles
And let the blood bleed out
Suddenly is the last thing on my mind
And when I do spill blood
It's only on the days my mom says I can't go
To the water
Where my spirit will stay
When my body grows old and dies away
My only escape
Where for once my arms that are too pale and scrawny bend perfectly
Where I feel perfect
This is where my spirit will stay
When my body turns grey and dies away
Water
Where my legs that are too chubby oder fat kick so strong
I feel perfect
This is the place my spirit will stay
When my body turns grey and dies away
Water
Where pain only makes me only go faster
Better
Prettier
Perfectly
Water
Where my face that's not pretty in never seen
Hidden in waves that make me feel free
This is the place my spirit will stay
When my body turns grey and dies away
Water
When I used to stab myself with needles
And let the blood bleed out
Suddenly is the last thing on my mind
And when I do spill blood
It's only on the days my mom says I can't go
To the water
Where my spirit will stay
When my body grows old and dies away
I sit and wonder…
Whatever happened to the days?
Watching BSG and Lost with Charles,
Playing star, sterne Wars with him,
And Shortys?
Whatever happened to the days?
Of Josh helping me through the grief of my father’s death.
Whatever happened to the days?
Of chicken and egg salat sandwiches at the SUB and take-out Chinese for dinner?
Whatever happened to the days?
Of GIRLS NIGHT OUT!
Whatever happened to the days?
Of spring at KU?
Whatever happened to the days?
Of KU’s waterfall and walks at midnight…
Whatever happened to the days?
Of all my Friends at KU, and what great Friends they were.
Whatever happened to the days?
Whatever happened to the days?
Watching BSG and Lost with Charles,
Playing star, sterne Wars with him,
And Shortys?
Whatever happened to the days?
Of Josh helping me through the grief of my father’s death.
Whatever happened to the days?
Of chicken and egg salat sandwiches at the SUB and take-out Chinese for dinner?
Whatever happened to the days?
Of GIRLS NIGHT OUT!
Whatever happened to the days?
Of spring at KU?
Whatever happened to the days?
Of KU’s waterfall and walks at midnight…
Whatever happened to the days?
Of all my Friends at KU, and what great Friends they were.
Whatever happened to the days?
I needed more, more! I threw the book across the dimly lit, wooden attic. The book hit a stack of old newspapers. I tore open yet another book. Nothing would give me my answers.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” sagte Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” sagte Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.