new moon, bellas depresstion. the 1st few months
it hurts to live. life to me is a Sekunde death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems Mehr peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her herz Lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my herz over and over untill all the feelings of Liebe and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my herz where my thoughts were safe, sicher from causing me any Mehr unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much Mehr beautiful then me Von now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life Von being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. oder maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt Liebe me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but Von one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my Schokolade brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and Mehr tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the Wand and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the strand in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him Home to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once Mehr and broke my herz again.
it hurts to live. life to me is a Sekunde death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems Mehr peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her herz Lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my herz over and over untill all the feelings of Liebe and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my herz where my thoughts were safe, sicher from causing me any Mehr unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much Mehr beautiful then me Von now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life Von being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. oder maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt Liebe me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but Von one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my Schokolade brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and Mehr tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the Wand and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the strand in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him Home to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once Mehr and broke my herz again.
Bella and Jacob
as it seems to be best Friends with feelings Jacob's herz beats for Bella and yet after all she put him through it can steel be beating for that girl that will one Tag have the vampire's eyes and have to keep up with lies to keep herself a secret to stay alive, Jacob's herz wants Bella but he gets Her daughter Renessme and he loves her much Mehr so for now his herz only beats a Little for her mother but so much Mehr for her.
Bella and Edward
Edward can break her and put her back together so easy like the wind moving a leaf on a summers Tag but steel yet there it stay in the new place. Bella will always Liebe Jacob as a friend and as a son for her daughter will marry him one day. Bella and Edward will always be a perfect couple as there eyes to match there herz for no beat there gaze to stare forever in each others arms.
as it seems to be best Friends with feelings Jacob's herz beats for Bella and yet after all she put him through it can steel be beating for that girl that will one Tag have the vampire's eyes and have to keep up with lies to keep herself a secret to stay alive, Jacob's herz wants Bella but he gets Her daughter Renessme and he loves her much Mehr so for now his herz only beats a Little for her mother but so much Mehr for her.
Bella and Edward
Edward can break her and put her back together so easy like the wind moving a leaf on a summers Tag but steel yet there it stay in the new place. Bella will always Liebe Jacob as a friend and as a son for her daughter will marry him one day. Bella and Edward will always be a perfect couple as there eyes to match there herz for no beat there gaze to stare forever in each others arms.
Selena Gomez: "He is a very very nice gentleman."
Kristen Stewart: "I Liebe that kid. I would do anything for him. I would kill for him, literally.
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Ashley Greene: "I really really adore Rob and Edward's awesome, but I'm Team Jacob. Is just... Du gotta Liebe Taylor, he plays an amazing Jacob, so... my herz belongs to him. Hahaha."
Taylor Swift: "Aw, Tay-Tay. Well, see, I don't know Rob Pattinson, so I would just Von default, I'd be on Team Tay."
As we all remember from last year, the cast went on a nationwide Hot Topic tour hitting up malls across the nation. As the film grew in popularity, the cast appearances became unruly as thousands of people waited to catch a glimpse of the brooding Pattinson. So keep in mind, that New Moon is ten times Mehr beliebt than Twilight was last year, so be prepared and forewarned!
And it isn’t a school on how to get over Robert Pattinson, oder how to be Robert Pattinson. It is an actual school in the UK! Its a College specializing in Language, Science, Mathematics!
In all seriousness guys, it is a real school. That is their real name. And it has nothing to do with the Twilight Saga’s Robert Pattinson! Just a mere coincidence! And no, Rob does not teach there! Sorry! lol
UPDATE: ROBSessedBlog sagte that this school used to be the #1 Google Suchen when Du searched “Robert Pattinson” oh what a difference a Jahr makes! lol
And there Du have.google it and see for yourself.
NOTE:is not on seventeens page yet.But fun twilight games and give aways.