Photocall in Paris ~ France November 10

when we finally got to the airport, i was all but having a herz attack. what had i done? i just wanted to kill myself right now. i could tell bella was angry at me, she stared silently as we sat awaiting our flight, i coulnt see her face but i knew she wanted to kill me just as much as i did. its ok, i continued to tell myself when we finally boarded and bella caught my hand but sagte nothing. my brain replayed carsliles panicked tone as he spoke to me on the phone earlier and the fear within myself made me want to rip the monster that was urting her out now. all the way back se kept silent....