Rosalie, Bella and Alice - all were looking at me waiting for my story. A part of me wanted to tell it so they could understand my aggressive reaction while another side was screaming to keep my mouth shut. I didn't want to remember things I struggled so hard to keep untouched. I've never told anyone about my life since that accident and what an irony that three strange creatures who kidnapped me will be the first one to hear it. I sighed and started.
"When I was sixteen I thought I had figured everything out. I knew who am I going to be and what life I will lead. I always considered myself creative and artistic. I had quite many awards for my pictures, sculptures and other stuff so I was hundred percent sure I will become famous artist. I admired bohemian life and wanted to be independent, irresponsible for nothing but myself and unpredictable. At some point I already was. I had large family: my mother was florist, father repaired cars, I had two brothers and two sisters - those were twins. I was the oldest one. Everyone in my family trusted me, they were even a bit naive about me. I always lied them that I'm spending time with my well known Friends at their house while actually I was being at wild parties. I considered them as inseparable from artist's life. Drugs, alcohol, cigarettes - I rebelled and was happy about it. But I forgot that everything has its limits.
Every summer, the first week of July, my family rented a house in Greenfield - small town near mountains. It was our unbreakable tradition that everyone loved and anticipated for. So when I was sixteen, on the eve of our trip I decided to go with my best friend to party. I was sure that I'll hang there for a bit and return but I was wrong. I got not only drunk, but also I was so high that I couldn't understand anything that was happening around me. When I woke up it was morning. I called my parents - they were freaked out but I came up with some story and they believed. They wanted to pick me up but I didn't want them to see me so I offered something else. There were two trains going to Greenfield, one was new and fast, on which we usually traveled, another was old and slow. I sagte that we can meet at town - they should go Von old train and I'm gonna catch up with them Von the new one. And they agreed. When I arrived to station I noticed chaos but I payed no attention. I went to the cash and calmly asked for a ticket to Greenfield. I will never forget her horrified face when she asked do I know what happened" I stopped to look at their faces - they all looked scared, probably already predicted the end of my story.
"The train went off the railing and caught on fire. My whole family burned alive there before anyone could help them."
"Oh, I'm so sorry, but Du should know it's not your fault" Alice tried to sooth me but I stopped her
"It is my fault. And that's not everything. After the accident I was taken to hospital - I was in shock. Few hours later a policeman came. I thought he's going to talk about my family but he didn't. His visit's purpose was to interrogate me. Remember the party, that made me convince my parents to take the old train? I was so full of drugs that I didn't noticed how my best friend was raped and killed there. The policeman sagte that until autopsy they can't be sure if she overdosed oder was it something else" I was almost crying now.
"That's terrible..." Rosalie whispered
"And Du want to know why the train accident happened? Why my family died?" I was sobbing now "Because couple junkies stahl, stola part of railway to get money for another dose" I hugged my knees "I became cop cause I wanted to do something useful in my life. I wanted to protect people from repeating my mistakes, from using drugs. I'm working at drug department now" I didn't want to look into their eyes so I stared at my feet waiting for them to say something.
"Oh, Lilibeth..." Bella whispered and hugged me. And then Rosalie and Alice did the same. I felt three cold and hard embraces. Actually, I felt Mehr - for the first time I felt relief, I felt friendship and warmth. I never imagined myself in such situation - opening my herz to three non humans whom once I thought of as dangerous. The incredibility of this moment was so surprising that I started weeping Mehr loudly. We stayed like this for a few long Minuten - until I stopped crying.
"Better?" Alice gently brushed my tears.
"Mhhm" I couldn't find my voice yet.
"Don't worry everything is going to be fine" Bella smiled.
"You should stop blaming yourself. Things happen. And there's no way to avoid it" Rosalie was also kind so I burst in tears again.
"Thank you" I wished they could know how much that meant to me.
"You should get some rest. We'll leave you, OK?" Alice tucked me like a child.
"See Du tomorrow" Bella waved and they all went out of the room. I was afraid that I won't be able to fall asleep and if I do I'll have nightmares. But soon I drifted into calm and sweet sleep...
When I got up Weiter morning, I didn't know what to expect. I told them Mehr about myself than anyone else. Will they use it against me? I doubt it but Du can never be certain. Downstairs I was greeted Von Jake and Nessie, they invited me to have breakfast with them. I was glad to do that cause they both looked very happy. I was surprised how much Jake cared about Nessie.
"How old are you, Nessie?" I asked and heard an angry sigh. When I turned I saw Bella. "Did I say something wrong?"
"No.Yes. Why everyone likes that nickname so much?" she sat Weiter to me.
"What nickname?" I didn't get it at first.
"Nessie. Her name is Reneesme. I think it's beautiful name, don't you?" she turned to me and I nodded. Than she turned to Jake "So why some big brainless guys call her Nessie?"
"Maybe because some small smart girls call themselves Bella instead of Isabella?" Jacob joked and everyone laughed. I loved the sound of their laugh.
"Good morning, Lilibeth" Carlisle and Esme came in.
"You can call me Lilly" I suggested feeling a bit childish. I haven't asked to call me Lilly for ages.
"Hi, Lilly" Esme smiled and I already felt much better.
"Ready to go home?" Carlisle's Frage was unexpected. I forgot the fact that I can return home. Somehow yesterday this place felt Mehr like Home than my tiny apartment in NY but I couldn't bother them any longer.
"Yes, I am"
Quicker than I wished I was standing outside, near my car. They all gathered to say goodbye. I shook hand to Carlisle, Edward, Jacob and Emmett (who squeezed it a bit too strong) than I hugged Esme, Alice, Rosalie and Nessie and went to Bella - she looked concerned.
"You know, Du can visit us any time Du want" she said.
"I guess it's not a big problem for Du to find us" Emmett joked but I didn't paid him attention. I hugged Bella
"Thank you. For everything. And don't be afraid - I'm not going to tell anyone about you" I assured and she smiled.
"Thank Du too"
"There's nothing to thank for. I wouldn't miss a chance to prove that this guy" I pointed to Jasper "Is wrong" Jasper just grinned "And if Du ever need a shield or, I don't know how Du call it, just let me know"
"Deal" and I hugged her for the last time.
When I was driving highway I couldn't stop thinking. I spent three months investigating, trying to find out who are they and now I'm leaving with no Antwort and no regret? I don't know how but these couples days changed me. I didn't felt so guilty about everything as before. Maybe because I always believed in balance - what Du have to do to deserve immortal life? I thought it was against rules - they weren't supposed to live for so long, they were borrowing the time they haven't merited, they were borrowing their lives. But I was wrong. Now that I know how kind they are I admit that I was very very wrong. They deserved every Sekunde and I'm wishing them all the best.
It supposed to be the end but I have some ideas how I can continue it so if Du would like me to write some Mehr please leave a comment.