i slept really well the melody was amazing i hope that the pianist play every night ,i hope that i get to meet him
i change into some jeans and a blue polo tshirt
today again rose insisted to do my make up while she told me about emmet i was really surprize usually boys were the one that fall for rose not the other way around
"i can't believe it Du hadn't spoke about yourself in 15 Minuten only about emmet Du must really like him" i sagte teasingly
she slap my arm
"yeah i do he is just"
someone knock at the door and it was alice! i hug her
"hi bella Du are so lucky to be roomies with rose , my roomate is lauren" she sagte her name in disgust
"lauren?" rose ask while we walk to the classrooms
"yeah she is one of the many that is crazy inlove with edward " she sagte annoy and rolling her eyes but then she smile
"oh i just remember we have to go shopping for dresses for the homecoming dance!" she sagte excited
shopping?? i hate to Shop rose was just as excited as alice they started to talk so i just try to follow the conversation but i got Lost
appareantly we were going tomorrow to the mall yay ! not
classes pass really quickly i didn't saw edward so i was lucky .
he would probably was really mad about what i did lauren jessica and what i liked to call the rest of edward Fans look at me in three different ways
1. with disgust and anger
2. like i was some kind of alien with a third eye
3. pity and confusion as if i was mentaly ill
i was walking out of my last class when i saw james wave at me
" hi james" i sagte and smile
"well i was wondering that maybe Du woul--" but suddenly a basketball came straight to james face
james yell in pain and i saw blood coming from his nose i look around and saw EDWARD CULLEN in the basketball court smiling hugley at me i pointed at him and he shrug his arms and put an innocent face
i look at james
"comon james ill take Du to the nurse"
"ok" he sagte holding back cries i think
we arrive to the nurse and she sagte i should leave so i leave and went to the basketball court i was furious at edward what was his problem when i finally arrive i saw 9 other boys playing until i finally saw edward
he wasn't wearng a tshirt that stop me short
again WOW HE IS HOT
i shake my head to clear my thoughts
"did Du throw that ball to james?" i ask furious
he look a bit surprize that i was so angy
"no - ok yes i did but it was really funny Du have to admit it" he sagte and chucled
"you are such jerk "i snap at him
he took my wrist and pull me closer
and murrmure to my ear his breath made me shiver but then i remember i was angry
"i made Du a favor a girl as beautiful as Du shouldn't be with losers like him Du should be with someone like me " he sagte and smile
i push him away
" just leave me alone. do Du think that just because Du are edward cullen Du can be a pig and mess around with girls feelings? Well im not like that i hate guys like Du that feel they can do anything to anyone , Du are such a pig , oh and GO TO HELL EDWARD CULLEN"
some guy chucled and other sagte "ouch"
i turn around and run to my dorm rose wasn't Home but it was late so i decieded to go to bett
and read a bit of my fave Bücher
when i was in the middle of the book a melody started to play it was a new melody this one it was really sad fill with grief and misery i realize that i tear was on my cheek after a while the melody stop and i went to sleep thinking about the pianist and why he would play such a sad song was he miserable ???
who was he??
after another huge rejection of bella swan( i have to admit although it was emabarassing as hell bella was a just so amazing how someone that look like an delicate Angel – Jäger der Finsternis could have so much anger in them but i was also amaze that she would tell me that so my face i think it was the truth i was a pig that use girls ......
i don't know why i throw the ball at james to my Friends i told them that so i could mess with him but i knew that was i lie
i went to the Musik room and sat on the Piano and let the emotions flow throw my melody
today was september 5 today a few years Vor mom die i miss her so much after a few Minuten i was crying my eyes out it was a good thing i lock the door if someone enter my reputation would be ruin
i miss esme so much she was the most caring ,sweet mom
and the worst was that i was alone my brother and sister ignore me when i became the pig i am now but that was an easier way to try to forget the pain
i didn't wanted to go to my room with my roomate mike newton so i just lay on the floor of the Musik room . mike would probalby think i was with a girl oder something after i while i fall asleep thinking of a brown eye Angel – Jäger der Finsternis