it had been 3 years scince tdi and when i found out every 1 went to my school i had no Friends nothin noda i had fleeings 4 some but it didn't matter every1 hated me and thats ok with me i got weavs so no Mehr wigs and it looks like my real hair but it was curley, i all so changed my clothes i now ware thin long slevs shirts that r dark gray and swets that r a darker gary color i also have an odd green color sweeter, i was walking down the the with my new pretty curley black hair and cloths when i saw trent and gwen as i walked Von them i heard them mutter "fuckin bitch" i felt myslef starting to cry so i went to the bathroom i went the stall and cryed 4 a while i hated my life had had 2 do a derpression speach i just, i wanted 2 get away i wanted 2 take my life but i could never bring myslef 2 do it when i toled my mom about wanting 2 kill myslef she bought me a dairy so i can get my feelings out i rember 1 Tag i re read it and i sounded like a crazy chick crazyer than izzy oder e-scop oder whatever i finley stoped crying and left 4 homeroom.
when i got there i got out my dairy and wrote bout how how munch i hated my sife like always and how i was gonna kill myslef 1 Tag and some other stuff then the glocke rang time to go Home we all went out side and all got on the same bus i sat down no1 sat Von me they all made room 4 each other and if some1 frome tdi wich was the onley ppl on the bus tryed to sit Von me i'd pucker my lips and they sat some where else i was the onley 1 to sit onlne but not to Tag "look girls" sagte justin "i need my Weltraum we sit Von each other all the time i want to sit Von myslef"
"ok but some 1 will have to sit with heather" sagte katie and sadie every 1 quliky took a seat
"no no let me in" sagte noah
"sorry noah" sagte cody
"ohh man" he sagte so i puckered my lips and gave him a look
"ahhhhhhhhh" he yelled so i stoped and opend my dairy and started Schreiben noah sat down as far away from me as he could got out a book and started Lesen it then the bus hit bump and my dairy flue in the air "noooo" i yelled i jumped to get get but it hit the floor i pushed noah out of the way and seeing that there r 2 Bücher i grabed a book and sat down and but it my backpack. noah grabed his and gronned he didn't coutuine 2 read it he just sat down and waited to get off. when i got Home i went to my bett room and i layed down 4 a while the i got up to c my dariy but i couldn't find it all i had was i dumbe book then it hit me i grabed noahs book and he grabed my.. i was so dead i had every thing in there not onley did i have to do a speach on depression in a week but know noah had my dariy what know
6 days later
noah hadn't sagte anything about the dariy so maby he hadn't read it i saw him walking in the hall i didn't want to sond nice to the ppl hear from what they did 2 me so i sagte "NOAH I KNOW IT WAS U WHO stahl, stola MY DARIY NOW GIVE IT BE4 I KILL U" i yelled holding out my hand " ohh u mean this" he sagte holding out my dariy "i'v already read it nice life" he sagte looking a little funny at me "YES THAT NOW GIVE IT BE4 I KILL U" i yelled
"no i think i'd rather black mail u" he said
"WHAT, DO U WANT ME TO KILL U"
"sweet man post it on the inernet"said duncan
"NOT HELPING" i yelled then i got up close to noah and sagte "say anything to any1 bout whats in there and i'll make u wish u never met me"
"2 late" he sagte then he walked away
the Tag went Von fast as i sat alone in my room i got up and walked 2 my bath room i looked in the mirrer i don't know how but i still looked the same at that moment i had anther thought about killing myslef then i thought ,no,i new noah would never let it go so i am gonna tell and let them know what i go thru durning my speach, no, i couldn't, could i
the Weiter Tag durning my speach
"and some teens do many things to get over deprion some smoke weed some cut themslefs some kill themslefs-" "hey heather u should try that" yelled duncan every 1 started sayin "ya" and "go 4 it" then chris said
"do u wanna defend ur self and ur speach?"
"yes,yes i would" i sagte i got up and walked to the front of the class room i looked around to make shure all eyes where on me "cause-" i sagte very loud "i already have,its ppl like u who make ppl like me like this, u ppl push us to the limet none of u know what its like U ALL HAVE UR FUN LITTLE LIEFS WHILE U FORSE ME TO GO CRAZY AND WANT TO KILL MYSLEF ,AND KNOW I CRY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, I HATE ALL OF U ,ITS NOT FUNNY ,OK BECAUS UR MAKEIN ME MESSED UP IN THE HEAD .OK..U KNOW WHAT F**K U ,AND U , AND U F**K ALL OF U ,I HATE ALL OF U ,AND FYI ITS 2 LATE" then i lefted the room got my stuff and lefted the school and waited 4 the bus.
3 hours went Von and i saw the bus commin ppl on the other side i was gonna get hit Von bus so i could finley kill myslef i saw it and ran up and when the bus almost hit me some1 pulled me out of the way "what the hell" then i flet lips press hard aginst mine i opened my eyes to find noah i pushed him away "what the hell noah i was doin u all a faver and killin my slef" i said
"have u ever thought that some of us never hated u that we achaley liked u" he said
"ya...a hole none now i have to find a new way to kill myslef" i tryed to leave but he pulled me back and kissed me again i pulled away again "noah i'm not gonna have ppl hate u for likein me now GO every 1 hates me not u ,know go be4 every 1 hates u like they hate me tell every 1 whats in my dariy i don't care" i yelled
"but i Liebe u" he said
"scince when and how i'm a crazy girl that wants to kill herslef u can't Liebe me" and i can't Liebe u i thought
"but i do i'v always have i just hid it i'm sorry i should have toled u sooner" he said
"ya u should have" then i walked away i didn't know where i was going but i didn't care i found my slfe in the woods "good no gwen no trent no noah" i stoped how could i even think about him so i cout walking when my foot got stuck in a rock "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" i was in so munch pain then i head in faint "no" sound then i hear some foot steps then i saw every1 from tdi even noah "heather thank god" he sagte
"where not gonna let u kill urslfe" sagte gwen
"dose it look like i'm tryin my foot is stuck thats all and i'm not killing my slef" "yet" i muttered
"i'll help u" sagte noah
"no not u i'm fine"i sagte then i tryed to get my foot out but all i heard was a snap and i fell and hit my head on the rock
when i woke up i saw flowers,cards,a t.v., and noah "what happend" i asked
"u spraned ur ankel and bumped ur head" he said
then i rembered what happened "what do u want" i said
"u " he sagte
"sorry fresh out 4 every 1"i said
then he leand up and kissed me again but this time i punched him "OWWW, god heather don't hate me i'd do any thing 4 u." he said
"how bout stay the hell away from me" i said
"ok if thats what u want, bye" he sagte then he left
"good"but some thing made me sad i turned and looked at the door its over i blow it then it hit me he loved me and i loved him he didn't want me to kill my slef what was i gonna do
Weiter week when i got Home i saw my mom and little bro smilein "what" i said
" heather hunny we know how sad u r hear so" my mom let my bor finish 4 her
"we're moving" he yelled
"what" not knowin that 2 do oder think
"yes we got a new house and every thing" my mom said
"i'll be right back" i sagte then i ran up to my room and went to my bath room to find my phone the onley numbers i had in my phone was my family and chris had to have his i called him "hello" sagte a voice
"hello chris its heather give me noahs number NOW" i said
"uhhhh fine" he said
"no hahahahahhahahahha" then he hung up
i new it i have to kill myslef, no1 like me, but noah, who loved me and now right when i Liebe him back i have to move. i started diging thru my room then i stoped i had 2 tell every 1 something they start tellin EVERY1 that i killed myslef whin i didn't
(the Weiter day) noah hadn't talked to me 4 ever i was deflent tellin every1 , that Tag i dress in my old outfit i look even Mehr like me, later that Tag in Home room i asked chris if i could make a speack 2 the class he sagte ok so when it was time i sagte "hello every1 this is my last Tag at this school i'm movin and i want some1 hear 2 know that i'm sorry 4 what i sagte i did mean it i feel the same, and i'll miss u,"then the glocke rang "bye"and with that sagte i left (later)
i saw my mom a little ways away i keeped walkin so every1 will be in my reveiw mirrer disapperin but then some1 grabed my arm and turned me around i thought it would be noah but no "justin? what r u doing hear" i asked
"i just wanted 2 thank u 4 that little shout out 2 me" he said
"the shout out wastn't 4 u be thaxs anyways" i toled him i saw him glane over his shoulder then he sagte "well can i have a hug?"
"umm ok" then he shot his arms around me bein nice i hugged him back i was tired so i closed my eyes (big mistake)
"HEATHER!?!?!?!? what r u doing" sagte noah i let go of justin
"noah its not what it looks like" i said
"ohh i think it is i thought that shout out was 4 me not the anti-me" he said
"sorry anti-me it was" sagte justin
"no it was 4 noah,noah" i said
"just 4get it" then he ran off
"ohh god" i turned and toled justin "c what u did " an i ran Home "hey heather feather we're post poning the Bewegen 4 anther week ok" sagte my dad
"ok" then i ran up 2 my room when i got their i looked in the mirro my brother pick out my wieves and he kinda made me look like miley c. he loved her i did look like her i looked ay myslef again i had a little brose from that Tag in the woods and 4 some odd reasion i got up and started walking to school still in my hoeis cloths when i got their i sat on the sidewalk at look at the other side i just wanted to be at i spot that i would never 4get.
"u come hear to" sagte noah he look a bit odd he had a hoodie on with a base ball kappe and sunglass's
"noah i'm sorry justin set me i'm sorry the shout out was 4 u i'm sorry" he cut me off
"heather i know i saw justin an tryed 2 beat him up 4 taking u he told what really happined and well, " he took off the sunglass's 2 realiv a black eye
"noah i am sorry i-" i was cut off again Von the rain "crap" noah took off his hoodie and then put it on back words then pulled it up "come on and get in"he sagte and well i did i just wraped my arms around his chest and he put it down the hoodie kappe keaped the rain from my weavs and i had a great view, noah "well this is nice" i sagte
"u bet" he sagte then he wraped is arms around me tight and then he piked me up and started walking "were r we going" i asked
"waite n c"he sagte when he finley put me down and got me out of his hoodie i looked 2 c where we were and i saw the mall "what r we doing hear?" i asked
"gittin u some pants and a better shirt"he said
"y, we gonna play in the rain"
"yep" i looked at my clothes he was right i needed some longerpants and a better hemd, shirt the 1s i was wereing were 2 small
(later) i had gottin some longer clothes better than my new cloths the jeans were light blue and the oben, nach oben was a cool yellow with small thin straps and noah bought a blanket 4 some reasion and even thou i had better clothes noah still wanted 2 shar his hoodie so he put it on right and this time i was in front he had his arms in the slevs and had them around me still, we put the blanket in the hoodie and then we ran all over town then we went in the woods we walked 4 awhile the stoped i was frezing he toled me 2 pick up my feet and when i did he walked over to a log 2 lean on sat 4 down asked me 2 Bewegen my legs so i could sit on his lap and when i sat down he got out the blanket and wraped it around us even thou i was still in the hoodie i put my arms arond noahs waist and layed my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes he leaned his head agenst mine we stayed there 4 a while then he sagte "u still cold" i smiled and sagte "no,no i'm very warm and cozy right hear, good night" then he sagte
"good night" then i moved up a bit closer an kissed him on the check then i held he a bit harder an then he held me harder i just smiled and fell fast asleep and when i woke up i was their with noahs hoodie and blanket and with my new clothes but i couldn't find noah so i called "noah?"
"hang on" he sagte then he walked out from a busch with a mikey'd's bag and a bag that i didn't get 2 c the name "i just went 2 get some Essen 4 us good morin"
"cool, good morin" i said
"ya, can i get back in" he ask at first i didn't know what he was talking bout then it hit me "ya come on" i opened the hoodie a little so he could get in when he did we talked while we ate then had a little thumb war contiest then i just layed my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes half way a little while later noah grabed the other bag i saw him take out a book and in the bag i saw i little carma noah just had the book and he started Lesen it a couple hours went Von and i was gitten kinda board so i sat up yawned "hey" i sagte then noah asked me a ramdom qustion "hey u wanna dance "
"umm, ya" i said
"cool come on"
"hear" i asked
"ya it'll be fun" he sagte so i got up and we just danced like crazy an Stunde later i was tired then noah sagte and asked "u hungrey, asouming u'll say yes, u wanna go 2 mikey'd's, again asouming u'll say yes again ,ok get in the back of the hoodie and i'll give u a piggey back ride their" he sagte pointing 2 his back
"haha ok" i did as he toled and when i did i shot off "off to mikey'd's haha" he said
"hahaha YAY hahah" when we got to mikey'd's he was still givin me a piggey backride and i finley got off when we got to our talbe "haha that was fun" i sagte gittin out of his hoodie and sittin down
"ya quite a ride"he sagte sittin down as we where eating he ask me a qustion " u wanna spend the week togeather and spend the night in the woods again"
"noah i would Liebe 2 just let me call my mom so she won't freak out" i said
"ok" and then i got up and walked a little ways aways frome the tabelle and then i got out my cell phone and called her "heather heather is that u" she sagte "ya sorry i didn't come Home i spent the night at courtneys" i new my mom would flip if i sagte noah oder the woods "and Hey is it ok if i spind the night and maby the Weiter week with her i'll have my phone with me at all times and i'll call every morin and every night"i sagte "well ok it is ur last week hear and as long as ur safe" she sagte "thank u ohh got 2 go bye Liebe u"
"bye Liebe u to" then i hung and walked over to the tabelle and sat down "she sagte ok"
"didn't tell her all the truth did u" he sagte smilein
"no" i sagte with a smirk
the Weiter 3 days were awesome i call my mom every morin and night like i sagte me and noah sleeped the same way both in his hoodie it wasn't till the 4th Tag that we rilzied we had to be in school yestarday so we'er going today but we woke up late so we rushed. the Tag draged Von we onley had 1 class togeather homeroom but every 1 from tdi was in there to and we onley has 2 teachers chris and chef!!and some where in my class's and being away from noah it feelt like 4 ever 4 lunch to come but when it did i ran down stairs i saw him in the hall way i tryed to call his name but chef grabed me Von my hair and sagte "get back in line solgier" then he thru me in line and in the backrond i hear chris say "noah this way" man i thought Mehr time away from noah chef was a little ways in front of me when i got a text from noah sayin "heather the boy can't sit Von the girls unless they get lunch denchtion i just got it they'll tell u when u get their so make shure u get it" i texted back "ok" wehn we got 2 lunch and chirs sagte " and so the boys can't sit Von the girls unless the get lunch denchion" "thats so stuiped" i said
"and thats how u get it 2 the office u'll get ur lunch after every1 else u just talk a left then a right when u c noah ur there" he sagte with a big old grin
"fine" and i walked 2 the office when i got their i ran 2 find noah finley i saw him he saw me 2 he got up and ran to me and i ran to him and he gave me a huge hug and i gave him a big KISS then we sat down and talked bout our Tag so far then ten minints later chris came in and sagte "u can get ur Essen now" so we got our Essen then after lunch the Tag draged Von again then when we got 2 Home room we keep it cool we sagte "hey" 4 some reasion we didn't want ppl 2 know we're datein. later on in homeroom chris let us pick our owne seats i stayed in the last right sitz in the back row noah sat 2 my leaft linsday to his leaft tyler to hers and so on. we loved it owen sat in front of us so u could really onley see our heads so we held hands all thru Home room the days came and gone and today was the last Tag till i moved but then noah got a call and so did i from our moms my mom sagte that if i wanted to i could rent an aparment and stay hear if i had the money and i toled her "i'll waite and c 4 what happens" she sagte "ok" noah was just smilein and he toled me to go to school and waite till i get out 4 something awesome. with all the exciment the Tag went Von and when i got out of the school i saw a man on a little kids play mortalcal thing he had a mortalcal helm on a leather jacke on and a wite hemd, shirt on and long jeans then he called "heather" i just started craking up "hahaha no way is that u" i sagte he got up walked up to me sagte "yep" then he opened up the front pice of his mortalcal helm so i could c his eyes then he put it down and held out his hand and sagte "come on so u c the awesome thing"
"ok" i sagte then noah picked me up and put me on the little back sitz an he got in the front and i called "bye every1" every1 called bye while crakin up at least they didn't know it was noah i wraped my arms around his waist and he shot off when he stoped it was Von an aparment bilding i didn't know y then something hit me "noah did u-" i asked
"yep i got us an aparment i kinda over heard u and ur mom on the phone and my mom asked me if i wanted my own aprment and i sagte ya,come on" he sagte then he took me 2 the aprment it was so cute "1 bedroom 2 bathrooms 3 mini friges excrd." he said
"noah i Liebe it ohh hold on" i got out my phone and called my mom "hello heather u'r callin earley did u get a place" she said
"ya i did mom" i said
"really,well do u wanna come over and get ur stuff or-"
"hold on mom" i put the phone agenst my chest and asked noah the same qustion
"no we're gonnin shoping after u hang up" he said
"ok" i put the phone back 2 my ear "no i'm gonnin shopin 2 get some new 1's"
"ok hunny i Liebe u"
"love u 2 bye" but be 4 i hung up on the phone i hear a loud "YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY"
"umm ok, u ready" i said
"ya hold on" he ran in the other room and then came back out in the hoodie ran up 2 me and put me in my hair was badley messed up but somehow it was funny "hahahah ok u wanna carry me again" i said
"yep" then he turned me then picked me up zaum, zaumzeug style i put my arm around his neck "lets go" when we got 2 the mall i got a bunch of stuff then we saw a little no big them park in the park we went on rides and every thing we even did a photobooth after that we went on the farest wheel he put me under the hoodie be 4 we got on cause geoff worked their and when he saw noah he sagte "noah whats up oder whats like down" i kinda new he ment me the huge lumbe under the hoodie my legs were out of the hoodie all the way 2 my waist but u couldn't tell it was me "just a friend" noah said
"looks like a ladie friend, tryin 2 hide her" he said
"what makes u say that"he said
"she under ur hoodie dude" he sagte funnyley "go on dude" i was able to get my hand out and give him a thumbs up
when we were a little ways away from geoff i poked my head out (still in the hoodie) 4 some air we went around 3 times then i put my head backe in when we stoped geoff sagte "u know what i'll let u go 1 Mehr time but with gwen" we both gasped "what" he sagte
"ohh come on if she finds out it'll be ok ,right gwen" he said
"ya" then she sat down i could tell it was Von me cause she tuched my hip
"ok" geoff sagte then we were off
"so can i c who it is noa-" noah innerupted her
"no" he said
"ok ok" then she put her hand Von my leg i felt something glossey Bewegen Von legs so i moved my legs "whats this" she said
then i rembered the photobooth
"no" sagte noah but 2 late
"heather haha ur datein heather haha then that means ur that dude that picked heather up from school hahaha Hey GEOFF ITS HEATHER HAHAHAHHA" she said
"WHAT NO WAY HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH" yelled geoff i moved over to the other side of noah away from gwen then i poped my head out i was mad but then " I CAN'T BELIVE THAT NOAH WOULD datum HER THE GIRL THAT WANTS TO KILL HERLSLEF THE GIRL NO 1 LIKES HAHAH"yelled gwen that got me mader
the rest of the time we spent their Mehr ppl from tdi come up and made fun of me and noah each time i madder but then i just got sader then when we were walking linsdey walked up 2 us and sagte "look at u 2 so stuiped ur sharing a hoodie and not even a cute 1 2 i feel sorry 4 u noah but now i hate u and-" "STOP IT" i yelled then i bursted into tears i turned and layed my head on noahs sholder and he put his arms around me and with me crying got alot of ppl from tdi around to c and were they nice no they took pics crakin up then noah walked away he went to a little bench took off the hoodie and put it just on me and sat me down "i'll be right back" he said
"ok"i sagte choking on my own tears i just couldn't stop cryin i saw him walk right Von every1 went 2 a little Essen store i didn't keep wachin to c what he gitten i just stared at my hands then i looked up and i saw gwen snap a pic of me "hahaha thats going in the Jahr book hahaahaha" she sagte then i saw noah push her down and said
"get out of hear now" then she got up and ran then he looked at me and sat down then he polled something out of a bag and then i saw a cute little golden stuffed bär " *gasp* noah its beautiful" i sagte grabing it grasfuley
"well i got it for u i thought it would make u feel better" he said
"well it did" i sagte hugging him then he got up an sagte "come on front words piggey back ride"
"ok" then he picked me up and left the theam park and walked out of the mall with all of our stuff he put me down 2 call a cab and some how i started craying again then noah finley got a cab and came 2 get me he picked me up zaum, zaumzeug style and put me in the cab and when we got 2 the aprment we both climbed in2 bett cuddled and we fell asleep when we woke up we were gonna go 2 school and i wanted 2 ware the cloths noah bought me on our fun first,wet,date noah wore the same thing he always dose but without the vest and then when we where ready we went 2 school on noahs toy mortalcal and when we got their we put his mortalcal in his locker even thou every1 made fun of us owen was the onley1 nice to us, but then later on that Tag in homeroom chris had 2 cheack our address'es we either sagte same oder new and if we sagte new we sagte the address 2 every1 sagte "same" then he got 2 noah "new 235 Mapple Wood Apparment Bilding" he said
"ok hold on,ok heather" chris said
"new 235 Mapple Wood Apparment Bilding" i said
"r u pulling my leg thats noahs ,now tell me what it is" he said
"i toled u new 235 Mapple Wood Apparment Bilding" i sagte again
"how can that be did u Bewegen in with noah? hahaha did u" he asked
"yes" i muttered
"what" he said
"YES" noah yelled then every1 started craken up again maken some Mehr fun of us
"thats it, come on" noah sagte he held out his hand i grabed it got my stuff and we walked right out as we were duncan thought it would be funny 2 trip noah and when he did and noah fell i picked him up and asked him if he was ok then duncan sagte "wow not onley has noah got her 2 datum him and dress in plaid but now hes made her his bitch" right after he sagte that i punched him right in the noise and yelled "SHUT UP DUNCAN, COURTNEY WOULD DO THE SAME THING 4 U, NOW LEAVE US ALONE, I AM SICK OF U AND EVERY 1 HEAR, NOW SHUT UP!!" after i yelled at him i grabed noahs hand and we walked out of the class room we went strait 2 noahs locker as soon as we got it opened chef grabed us and thru us in the class room "heehee schools not over till 3:05 heehee" he said
"its 3:04" noah said
"ya i know now wait till its 3:05" yelled chef i looked at my wach and said
"ok now u can go"we got up and ran to his locker he grabed the mortalcal and we went outside when we got outside tyler sagte "hey noah y'd u pick heather when u could have some 1 like linsdey?"
"HE DOSN'T WANT ANY1 LIKE LINSDEY HE WANTS ME I Liebe HIM AND HE LOVES ME" i yelled
"thats right" he said
and then we leaft when we got 2 the aprment we odered pizza noah got in his pjs wich was a blue cozey pants that had i hemd, shirt but he never wore it and i put on some small,short, and cute pj's (this story is so longe it needs a part 2)