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Riku114 sagte …
So uh.... someone reported the basis of the emotionally and verbally abusive shit my dad currently does? But the thing is it isnt towards me and its mostly settled??

So now I have to deal with this social worker up my arsch and trying to talk to my family about this???

Like.... really???

Only two people out of my boyfriend know about it and both make little sense?? gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like.... who??? Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Oh I found out XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Okay so update. Back when my dad was entirely dismissive and called me "stupid" when I mentioned to him and my mom that I was suicidal and shit in a bit of a snap, and I mentioned that and the rest of the fight to my therapist and he contacted the school to Berichten that I am not in a safe, sicher place and there is emotional abuse going on. They apparently sagte it isnt reportable until this Monday where they changed their mind about it Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
BUT THEY THOUGHT MY DADS NAME WAS RICHARD. GET IT. RICHARD. DICK. THEY THOUGHT MY DADS NAME WAS DICK SO I LAUGHED TOO HARD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Shit man. Im starting to fall down the rabbit hole of Marvel. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Yall I dont want to gain another HUGE series to keep track of :v star, sterne Wars added to it and :v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like Im feeling urged to go back and actually fully watch the Iron Man Filme rather than half assing them too :v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
That's good though. Embrace Marvel, Riku. Du know Du want to !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Fun story time. I dont really remember the details too well, but like... three oder four years ago, I was having some kind of a high anxiety day. I dunno if it was a panic attack that I didnt know of, an anxiety attack, oder some traumatic shit oder anything, but I was experiencing high anxiety and was excessively zoned out as to cope with it, and some guy came to like... touch me, hug me, oder pat me oder something gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
So like... I had a Sekunde oder two of panic where I shoved him up against the railing of the upper floor and was like... a Sekunde oder two away from instinctually pushing him over the railing of the Sekunde floor before I snapped out of it and somehow managed to play it off as a joke Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like I dont know HOW I played it off without any Fragen asked cos I pushed him like a good 5-10 feet to get him to the railing and I wouldnt be shocked if I had a crazed look XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Nah I didnt look sad. I have a resting hündin face no matter what emotion Im feeling Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
RIP all my classes from today vorwärts-, nach vorn tho XD My brain officially went from like 90% checked out, to like 100% checked out for the rest of the school Jahr when I finished my AP Government test (even tho I still have an AP Econ test on Wednesday XD) gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
Awesome. Be lazy time? Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Lazy is life Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, the sheer degree of which I like Stephen Strange is.... STRANGE.

Like I watched the movie, enjoyed it a lot, but he wasnt all too high on my list, but out of no where suddenly Im just as hyped to see him on screen as the long term Marvel Favorit of mine - Loki?

And I just get that natural "Hes a favorite" feel, but I dont know exactly why..?

I mean Imma make Wanta watch it and I wanna watch it to analyze and see why I might like him XD But still. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
My memory is iffy but maybe I kinda relate to him? Who knows. I know I do have some similarities Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I really dont have the ability to be comfortable saying I like a character just cos I like them. I need to be able to know what in specific I like :v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Du know, if Du think about it, being a hero, a famous hero, just honestly isnt fair. Its borderline toxic. At the point that someone becomes a famous hero, the pressure to constantly be the hero and be responsible of helping others and saving the Tag just would consume the life of the 'hero'

Sure they are saving people and being great people, but it comes at the cost of their limited existence.

When Du think about it like that, Du have to pity superheroes gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
oh they undeniably have it pretty bad. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
As an idealist, I can assure Du gets rough having the pressure to always remain upbeat XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
IKR if I was a ‘hero’ I’d probably like idk Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE oben, nach oben OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A Musik JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
THIS IS NOTHING hacke Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
*cough* My irl Friends have no place judging me :v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like Mehr English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a Musik junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ #Relatable !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
Musik is just really nice. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Without this Musik I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six Bücher in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I sagte Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She sagte I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other Bücher (not that I even studied R&J) gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years Vor and really liked his character Mehr than I should have, watched an Anime version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Despite never really watching the movie oder anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Me too! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy Tag XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder oder shit. Im in a demented tired :v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what Du call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
jk jk Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even Mehr so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt oder shame to back it up. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer Du get to me, the Mehr creepy and unsettling things Du might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem oder hold against myself Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my insgesamt character. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
But yeah thats just kinda a ramble Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I want sleep gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Du NEED sleep !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
Sleep? Vor mehr als einem Jahr
GDragon612 Kommentiert…
ya deserve sleep so much Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
"If that's the case, then Du owe it to yourself to pick apart the games Du LOVE, not just the ones Du hate."

Liebe that. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG Du ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Cos like... hündin I doubt Du are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Jk jk Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the arsch with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my insgesamt trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make Friends and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when Du tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl Friends are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts sagte …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a Jahr when Du live here gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Welcome back Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, Im waiting for Mehr information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually gegeben out on her character.

Im super interested tho. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing oder sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy oder because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if Du ask me. Like I wasnt shocked oder surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my Favoriten XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD oben, nach oben Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Great to know. Looking vorwärts-, nach vorn to seeing it myself !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy arsch bastard. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Not really but still. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him oder give him any leeway oder even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people Du want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Lol! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Also a Zufällig fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby Dinosaurier gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Also, Du doubt it until Du hear what baby cockatiels sound like. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
link Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Also Zufällig fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 Minuten of bird Videos within each day.

It makes me happy. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my Liebe and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement oder uncertainty of facts, that within five Minuten Ill hear "Hey Riku! Du are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
It’s expected Von now I imagine:) Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of Du are right oder wrong. Du are just ignoring an entire half of his character. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side oder the other. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot Mehr interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
BlindBandit92 Kommentiert…
It was a great movie. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence LOL !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I sagte we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an Stunde oder two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest oder something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
GDragon612 Kommentiert…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure Du rest whenever Du are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts sagte …
Hey this probably sounds really weird but I Liebe Du guys. Feel free to ignore this if Du want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable oder just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Its cool dood XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
nightiee Kommentiert…
Du too Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at Du !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just Von talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what Du feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko Mehr than I did the first time gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
I could see Du relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this Anime !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
link Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Wow 5hats pretty cool Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
❤️ Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
LOL Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
GDragon612 Kommentiert…
welcome back wanta! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
sunny
TheLefteris24 sagte …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the Liste of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Got it :^; Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Uh what was that I just did?! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ Are Du talking about the Emoji Du made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Yup. LOL Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts sagte …
<3 thanks for the hope gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Keep the hope alive. <3 Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Preach 🙏 !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
nightiee Kommentiert…
Keep the hacke alive Vor mehr als einem Jahr
2ntyoneplts Kommentiert…
Oh Satan! XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of Du mind but I wanted to put that out there. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
GDragon612 Kommentiert…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
BlindBandit92 Kommentiert…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything Du want. It's a blog of sorts. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there Vor mehr als einem Jahr
sunny
TheLefteris24 sagte …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
GDragon612 Kommentiert…
xD leftie Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
XD !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
sunny
TheLefteris24 sagte …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ Preach !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Aye Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that Beschreibung fits me VERY well XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror Zeigen about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
At least we now know hes aware Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
^Eh... hes a child Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out Mehr of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched Zufällig stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected Du and will continue to help Du in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free hündin Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist oder psychiatrist about at some point. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried oder concerned, I should be fine.

Thank Du so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let Mehr of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my Weiter therapy session and individually on my own. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We Liebe Du too !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
We officially have a baby bird. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
We might have two Vor mehr als einem Jahr
GDragon612 Kommentiert…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics saft xD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my Favorit character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his Videos can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi Videos can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral oder calm and managable mental state Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time oder something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The Kürzlich events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did oder anything Im pretty sure.

Thank Du to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Zeppie Kommentiert…
Take all the time Du need. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Feeling better ish rn Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
A little Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Figuring out which Akashi Icon to use when Du have so many is hard. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Literally every time I want to display a new Icon showcasing Favoriten of mine. It takes a while !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
For me I have to like the Icon and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the Icon either cos it represent it oder because it soothes oder it just feels fitting at the time Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the Mehr harder honestly with such a variety !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Zufällig Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no Du over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn arsch medicine gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five oder six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to Du specifically, that Du knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious oder important enough. Doing that is how Du make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for Guter Rat and a Sekunde opinion. Ive always lived Von that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt Von it otherwise. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
BlindBandit92 Kommentiert…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick oder something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way oder solving it. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
Feel free to say your peace as much as Du like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another Stunde so...*shrug* Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved Mitmachen Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Du know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, Du just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already Lost Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and Bewegen on. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I owe people in my highschool Mehr credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my Friends from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

oder the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I Liebe him. Hes family. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Ill be honest. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Thats actually going to be my Clubs new quote Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
True, I suppose !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 Minuten is always good for when the brain is being stupid. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
#Relatable !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do Du pretty good !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" oder "proud" to Du in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty Minuten of being asked to compliment you. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
TFW Du get hit Von a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize Du forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of Supernatural oder really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those Zitate hit way too close to Home and their dynamic feels too personal. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant oder tempts to bring Du back into a Zurück bad mental state? Like Du dont actually fall back to it, but Du feel the pull for a Sekunde in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Like a mini panic of a warning? Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
XD this is just a Frage for anyone XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
@Me a Jahr Vor saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly going through my Wand for an Artikel is interesting cos firstly, this Icon makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even Mehr shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an Stunde of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
That's me with whatever Zufällig app has my interest for the Monat XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it oder get run over Von whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I Liebe it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
That is great to know. Wish Du all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let Du name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
IM FINALLY Home AFTER A 15 Stunde ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Welcome back XD !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always Liebe having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight Stunde drive to get here but Im here. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of Du !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself Mehr than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer Du do it... the Mehr magical and wonderful and secure and confident Du feel. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I sagte before, pretty admirable !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Seeing Du making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
God Im tired XD gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Relatable XD !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Riku is oppressing me! gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
:v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in Liebe with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After star, sterne Wars and Kylo, I fear having two beliebt series holding characters I Liebe gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
BlindBandit92 Kommentiert…
Du would Liebe Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my Favorit works geesh.

*knows Mehr Anime osts than animes* gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
BlindBandit92 Kommentiert…
You've listened to the fate ost even though Du haven't really seen the anime? LOL Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Du continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still LOL !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. Du forget a lot. Du loose your history and your past. Du loose your childhood. Du loose your sense of identity. Du become a grandly incomplete person Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe Du can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in Friends and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with Guter Rat and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress oder anything Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with sagte person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

Liebe is nice when Du think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true Liebe is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true Liebe CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
"Love is not equal" Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog Kommentiert…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
wantadog sagte …
Three cheers for depressing yourself Von asking for the impossible gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me Mehr anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Baujel is such a wonderful character Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
The only issue I have to be honest with Schreiben his character is that I Von no means depict him Von his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
But sh.. this isnt a formal Schreiben peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby Schreiben and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im Schreiben it how he remembers it so it comes out as Mehr mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
tfw Du have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE Du dont so Du gotta research :v gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 sagte …
Okay I decided. I will Liebe Lusamine begrudgingly gepostet Vor mehr als einem Jahr
TheLefteris24 Kommentiert…
Riku: I hate you... But I Liebe you... But I hate Du !!!! Vor mehr als einem Jahr
Riku114 Kommentiert…
Accurate Vor mehr als einem Jahr