Before anyone reads this, just know that I wrote this yesterday when I was really upset with myself because of some mistake I made that keeps coming back up in my daily life that is best left unexplained. I don't feel like this right now and I really hope that I'm really over it, but I have to get my feelings out anyway. Don't hate me for it.
And this poem is written in two different points of views, Von the way... The first 8 are Von the person feeling this way- me, in other words- and the last 8 were written in the point of view of depression/suicide.
Anway, now that that's out of the way, enjoy this pointless, depressing, dumb poem...
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Bury me alive and confiscate my soul
For darkness is the brightest thing that I will ever know
Caged inside these horrors that I will always make
Between my hands is my life, the thing that I must take
The strings I’ve forged to keep me safe, sicher are being torn apart
A terror caused Von nothing but the beating of my heart
My life is done and not because of anybody else
The only one I have to blame is my disgusting self
Behind that ugly mask Du wear to cover your dumb lie
Hides the truth and a pain that will never die
With no excuse to feel this way your mind’s begun to fray
Du don’t amount to anything and don’t deserve to stay
I am right, I always am, for I can never loose
I will take my prize as Du tie yourself a lovely noose
And when Du cannot breath and Du are finally done
I'll crack a smile and laugh a while, knowing that I've won.
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*Before anyone Kommentare oder says anything about how my life probably doesn't suck in comparison to a lot of people and I shouldn't get all Emo and depressed when my life doesn't suck and I shouldn't waste my time complaining, I just have to say, save it. I already know. But right now, I have to get this out before it causes a serious problem and ends up killing me. So if anyone is going to say that oder even think it, and I know someone is bound to think it, don't comment. Okay? Okay.*
And this poem is written in two different points of views, Von the way... The first 8 are Von the person feeling this way- me, in other words- and the last 8 were written in the point of view of depression/suicide.
Anway, now that that's out of the way, enjoy this pointless, depressing, dumb poem...
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Bury me alive and confiscate my soul
For darkness is the brightest thing that I will ever know
Caged inside these horrors that I will always make
Between my hands is my life, the thing that I must take
The strings I’ve forged to keep me safe, sicher are being torn apart
A terror caused Von nothing but the beating of my heart
My life is done and not because of anybody else
The only one I have to blame is my disgusting self
Behind that ugly mask Du wear to cover your dumb lie
Hides the truth and a pain that will never die
With no excuse to feel this way your mind’s begun to fray
Du don’t amount to anything and don’t deserve to stay
I am right, I always am, for I can never loose
I will take my prize as Du tie yourself a lovely noose
And when Du cannot breath and Du are finally done
I'll crack a smile and laugh a while, knowing that I've won.
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*Before anyone Kommentare oder says anything about how my life probably doesn't suck in comparison to a lot of people and I shouldn't get all Emo and depressed when my life doesn't suck and I shouldn't waste my time complaining, I just have to say, save it. I already know. But right now, I have to get this out before it causes a serious problem and ends up killing me. So if anyone is going to say that oder even think it, and I know someone is bound to think it, don't comment. Okay? Okay.*
I appreciate every single person here, and despite my being very moody at times, I will always care for those who feel the same towards me :D
I noticed that I've been very...unpleasant on Fanpop towards some people, and I apologize for that. All I could say was that I was in the Darkest Time of my life, and it consumed me entirely. But now, that will change >:)
I am me again. I Liebe and respect those who have always been there for me, were kind to me, are my fans, and appreciate each and every one of Du for the rest of my life :)
I Liebe Du all! Have a beautiful, wonderful Tag :D
I'm sure you've read the Artikel Von jedigal1990 that ajl sagte he made the Zufällig spot but he joined in September (2009). I think Du should just give him Requisiten to tell him to just tell the truth and say he didn't make the Zufällig spot. jedigal1990 and BellaCullen96 sent messages to her to tell the truth. She never responded. Even I sent her a message and a couple of Requisiten to please tell the truth and she never responded back. www.fanpop.com/fans/ajl type that in the address bar. Please do not yell at her. Please be polite.