Disclaimer: I do not own House, the characters, oder the song. However the story is mine.
Probably my last update till wednesday. Let me know what Du think and if I should continue :)
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The door to Cuddy's office burst open. She looked up expecting to see House, but instead she saw Wilson.
"Oh what a wonderful costume House," she sagte tiredly.
"Sorry. I need to talk to you."
"I'm guessing this has nothing to do with the hospital so that means it has to be about House. What did he do now?"
"Nothing surprisingly. Well it's Mehr like what he said," Wilson sagte studying her.
"Oh and what did he say," she wasn't all too curious, but it had to be somewhat important if Wilson came to talk to her.
"He told me about your conversation around lunch time.."
"And that's why your here," she sagte interrupting him.
"No it's Mehr like what he sagte after he told me." Wilson could tell she was a little Mehr interested now.
"Care to share what that is," she asked suddenly curious.
"He sagte he walked out when Du asked if he wanted things to stay the way they are between Du two. I asked him why he walked out and he sagte that Du were happy, Du deserve to be happy, and he didn't want to mess up your dreams of a perfect family." Wilson stopped as he noticed tears began to appear in her eyes.
"I'm fine go on," she sagte after a few minutes.
"He also sagte that he didn't fit into that picture and he was happy as long as Du were. He also sagte he could never make Du happy." Wilson stopped again as he saw that Cuddy had a fresh batch of tears running down her face.
"Are Du alright," Wilson asked unsure.
"I'm fine. Please Wilson, tell me your serious and your not lying?"
"I'm completely serious. He sagte that Du were over him and he wants to be with you, but he can't."
Cuddy silently nodded. Wilson was beginning to worry about her until she spoke up.
"I'm not over House. But Du already know that. Feelings like that don't just dissapear. Why does he think he can't be with me?"
"Because your with Lucas and Du seem happy with him," answered Wilson surely.
"I need to talk to him," she sagte determined.
"I agree," sagte Wilson with a smile.
Cuddy walked out of her office quickly in Suchen of House.
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House left work early and he was sitting at Home trying to focus on the tv. He was confused and he couldn't get his mind off Cuddy. He was beginning to thingk he made the wrong decision Von giving up so easily. Maybe I should have at least tried to fight for her, he thought. His thoughts were interrupted Von a knock on the door. He knew that knock. She had a distinct knock so he could always tell it was her. He got up and opened the door and looked at her questioningly.
"What's up?"
"Wilson told me about your conversation."
House's face quickly turned to one of fear. He couldn't believe Wilson had told her. Now he had no idea what was going to happen oder how bad he had messed up.
"Don't worry your not in trouble," she sagte as she saw the panic in his eyes.
Relief quickly flooded his face, but it was again replaced with fear.
"Ok so what do Du want," he asked curiously.
"I just wanted to say thank you. I had no idea Du actually cared that much about me to put your happiness behind mine."
"Um...your welcome?" House had honestly no clue how to respond to that.
"I'm not finished. I also wanted to tell Du I care about Du just as much. And I feel the same way about Du as Du do me." She had no idea where this burst of courage came from, but it was working to her advantage.
"And how do I feel about Du Cuddy," he asked wanting to hear her say it.
"...I...maybe I should go," she sagte suddenly all courage gone.
House grabbed her arm and pulled her into his apartment when she was about to leave.
"Let's try this again Cuddy. How do I feel about you?"
She suddenly felt trapped and she wanted out. She could feel herself switch into defensive mode.
"I don't know House. How do Du feel about me," she asked suddenly turning the tables.
"You know how I feel about you, Du just won't admit it since Du sagte Du feel the same way. If Du did you'd be able to say it," he sagte like it was the most obvious thing.
"You haven't exactly sagte it yourself House," she shot right back.
House turned and limped to his bedroom. Cuddy followed him not letting the conversation come to an end there. She walked into the room to find him sitting on his bed. She went and stood in front of him.
"Come on House I want to hear Du say it," she urged. Her voice rising with each word.
There was a long pause and she suddenly heard a mumble from House.
"What I didn't hear that," she said.
"I sagte I Liebe you," he shouted.
She looked at him shocked. She didn't think he would actually say it, but she felt like she was floating on air after hearing him say it. Quickly she walked towards him and put her hands on his cheeks. She dipped her head preparing to KISS him, but was stunned when he suddenly pushed her away and stood up.
"Your with Lucas, Cuddy. I'm with Lydia. Du can't be with me. We both know Du would be miserable with me."
"You don't know that House. I want to be with you, but I need some sort of stability. I Liebe Du too," she added the last part silently.
"I can't give Du stability. I'm an ex-drug addict and I'm miserable."
"House Du do give me stability. As shocking as that is for Du to believe, Du do. I go to work knowing your gonna cause some sort of trouble, I know to set aside money for lawyer costs from law Suits against you. And exactly your an 'ex'-drug addict. Du aren't anymore and maybe Du wouldn't be as miserable if Du had someone there constantly."
"Cuddy, god knows I want to be with you, but I can't. I'm not gonna stop Du from getting the life Du deserve and the life Du deserve isn't with me," he sagte sadly as he walked away from her.
"House please, don't run away from me," she pleaded.
"I'm not running Cuddy. I'm just being rational. I won't subject Du to a life miserable with me."
"It's hard to be miserable when your with the one Du Liebe House," she stated honestly.
"Which is exactly why your happy with Lucas."
"I Liebe Lucas, but not like I Liebe you," she added the last part quickly as House's face fell from her statement.
"But Du still Liebe him. Go Cuddy. Be happy," House sagte meeting her eyes.
"I'm trying House, right now," she said. She wasn't willing to let things go for some reason. She had been so convinced before that House was the worst things possible and now she refused to let him go.
House on the other hand wanted things to just go away. He was trying to get away from her and he was failing miserably. The truth was he didn't want to let her go, but he didn't want to make her so unhappy after he had seen her so happy with Lucas. They were both getting frustrated knowing they weren't on the same page. They weren't even in the same library.
"Cuddy please let this go," House begged. House never begged and that shocked Cuddy, but she was holding her ground.
She walked up to him and planted her lips on his. He didn't respond at first, but he quickly gave in. Cuddy pulled away reluctantly and looked at him.
"Now tell me Du didn't feel anything and that Du want me to leave," she said.
House just looked at her. He couldn't think straight anymore. Any rational thoughts he had went out the window with that one kiss. Instead of answering he lowered his lips to hers again. Looks like she wasn't leaving after all. At least not tonight.
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"Let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over,
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This Liebe is killin me,
But your the only one.
It's not over."
'It's Not Over' - Daughtry
Probably my last update till wednesday. Let me know what Du think and if I should continue :)
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The door to Cuddy's office burst open. She looked up expecting to see House, but instead she saw Wilson.
"Oh what a wonderful costume House," she sagte tiredly.
"Sorry. I need to talk to you."
"I'm guessing this has nothing to do with the hospital so that means it has to be about House. What did he do now?"
"Nothing surprisingly. Well it's Mehr like what he said," Wilson sagte studying her.
"Oh and what did he say," she wasn't all too curious, but it had to be somewhat important if Wilson came to talk to her.
"He told me about your conversation around lunch time.."
"And that's why your here," she sagte interrupting him.
"No it's Mehr like what he sagte after he told me." Wilson could tell she was a little Mehr interested now.
"Care to share what that is," she asked suddenly curious.
"He sagte he walked out when Du asked if he wanted things to stay the way they are between Du two. I asked him why he walked out and he sagte that Du were happy, Du deserve to be happy, and he didn't want to mess up your dreams of a perfect family." Wilson stopped as he noticed tears began to appear in her eyes.
"I'm fine go on," she sagte after a few minutes.
"He also sagte that he didn't fit into that picture and he was happy as long as Du were. He also sagte he could never make Du happy." Wilson stopped again as he saw that Cuddy had a fresh batch of tears running down her face.
"Are Du alright," Wilson asked unsure.
"I'm fine. Please Wilson, tell me your serious and your not lying?"
"I'm completely serious. He sagte that Du were over him and he wants to be with you, but he can't."
Cuddy silently nodded. Wilson was beginning to worry about her until she spoke up.
"I'm not over House. But Du already know that. Feelings like that don't just dissapear. Why does he think he can't be with me?"
"Because your with Lucas and Du seem happy with him," answered Wilson surely.
"I need to talk to him," she sagte determined.
"I agree," sagte Wilson with a smile.
Cuddy walked out of her office quickly in Suchen of House.
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House left work early and he was sitting at Home trying to focus on the tv. He was confused and he couldn't get his mind off Cuddy. He was beginning to thingk he made the wrong decision Von giving up so easily. Maybe I should have at least tried to fight for her, he thought. His thoughts were interrupted Von a knock on the door. He knew that knock. She had a distinct knock so he could always tell it was her. He got up and opened the door and looked at her questioningly.
"What's up?"
"Wilson told me about your conversation."
House's face quickly turned to one of fear. He couldn't believe Wilson had told her. Now he had no idea what was going to happen oder how bad he had messed up.
"Don't worry your not in trouble," she sagte as she saw the panic in his eyes.
Relief quickly flooded his face, but it was again replaced with fear.
"Ok so what do Du want," he asked curiously.
"I just wanted to say thank you. I had no idea Du actually cared that much about me to put your happiness behind mine."
"Um...your welcome?" House had honestly no clue how to respond to that.
"I'm not finished. I also wanted to tell Du I care about Du just as much. And I feel the same way about Du as Du do me." She had no idea where this burst of courage came from, but it was working to her advantage.
"And how do I feel about Du Cuddy," he asked wanting to hear her say it.
"...I...maybe I should go," she sagte suddenly all courage gone.
House grabbed her arm and pulled her into his apartment when she was about to leave.
"Let's try this again Cuddy. How do I feel about you?"
She suddenly felt trapped and she wanted out. She could feel herself switch into defensive mode.
"I don't know House. How do Du feel about me," she asked suddenly turning the tables.
"You know how I feel about you, Du just won't admit it since Du sagte Du feel the same way. If Du did you'd be able to say it," he sagte like it was the most obvious thing.
"You haven't exactly sagte it yourself House," she shot right back.
House turned and limped to his bedroom. Cuddy followed him not letting the conversation come to an end there. She walked into the room to find him sitting on his bed. She went and stood in front of him.
"Come on House I want to hear Du say it," she urged. Her voice rising with each word.
There was a long pause and she suddenly heard a mumble from House.
"What I didn't hear that," she said.
"I sagte I Liebe you," he shouted.
She looked at him shocked. She didn't think he would actually say it, but she felt like she was floating on air after hearing him say it. Quickly she walked towards him and put her hands on his cheeks. She dipped her head preparing to KISS him, but was stunned when he suddenly pushed her away and stood up.
"Your with Lucas, Cuddy. I'm with Lydia. Du can't be with me. We both know Du would be miserable with me."
"You don't know that House. I want to be with you, but I need some sort of stability. I Liebe Du too," she added the last part silently.
"I can't give Du stability. I'm an ex-drug addict and I'm miserable."
"House Du do give me stability. As shocking as that is for Du to believe, Du do. I go to work knowing your gonna cause some sort of trouble, I know to set aside money for lawyer costs from law Suits against you. And exactly your an 'ex'-drug addict. Du aren't anymore and maybe Du wouldn't be as miserable if Du had someone there constantly."
"Cuddy, god knows I want to be with you, but I can't. I'm not gonna stop Du from getting the life Du deserve and the life Du deserve isn't with me," he sagte sadly as he walked away from her.
"House please, don't run away from me," she pleaded.
"I'm not running Cuddy. I'm just being rational. I won't subject Du to a life miserable with me."
"It's hard to be miserable when your with the one Du Liebe House," she stated honestly.
"Which is exactly why your happy with Lucas."
"I Liebe Lucas, but not like I Liebe you," she added the last part quickly as House's face fell from her statement.
"But Du still Liebe him. Go Cuddy. Be happy," House sagte meeting her eyes.
"I'm trying House, right now," she said. She wasn't willing to let things go for some reason. She had been so convinced before that House was the worst things possible and now she refused to let him go.
House on the other hand wanted things to just go away. He was trying to get away from her and he was failing miserably. The truth was he didn't want to let her go, but he didn't want to make her so unhappy after he had seen her so happy with Lucas. They were both getting frustrated knowing they weren't on the same page. They weren't even in the same library.
"Cuddy please let this go," House begged. House never begged and that shocked Cuddy, but she was holding her ground.
She walked up to him and planted her lips on his. He didn't respond at first, but he quickly gave in. Cuddy pulled away reluctantly and looked at him.
"Now tell me Du didn't feel anything and that Du want me to leave," she said.
House just looked at her. He couldn't think straight anymore. Any rational thoughts he had went out the window with that one kiss. Instead of answering he lowered his lips to hers again. Looks like she wasn't leaving after all. At least not tonight.
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"Let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over,
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This Liebe is killin me,
But your the only one.
It's not over."
'It's Not Over' - Daughtry