Dear Self

What if Du don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last Tag on this earth?
What if that two Minute conversation Du had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time Du ever spoke to her?
What if Du never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile oder talk to him ever again?
What if Du later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would Du be proud of the life Du have lived?
Will Du regret something that Du did oder did not say?
Would Du be proud of how people would remember you?
Would Du regret not taking Mehr chances, oder not telling him what Du really feel for him?


I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My herz racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..