I'm in crisis what should I do???????????????

First, Du could at least tell us whats bothering you. No can help unless Du tell us.

Pray.
General advice, but when Du believe it helps, it really does. What also helps is to be in presence of people Du love, people charging Du with positive energy. And to give Du something Mehr specific, I'd need too know more.

stay strong, and keep the faith. continue to read the bible. and remember that no matter how bad things get, every wolke has a silver lining.